One Of The Most Precious Souls That Existed On This Earth Left Us Tonight.

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After Stacey's 2 and a half week long battle with pneumonia, she passed on earlier this evening at 11:25PM. Words cannot begin to express the void in my soul right now. The tears today were many, as they were yesterday. We knew yesterday that there was no longer any hope, and that the time was coming. We've been there since. Finally, after the longest day I've ever known, at 11:25 her heart simply slowed down, until it could beat no more. At 11:25 pm, we officially lost one of the most wonderful people that has ever existed.

My tears are great, my fears are greater, my love greater than all. I don't know what I'm going to do. I don't know how to accept that we are no longer a family. I don't know where we're going to move, how long it will take to sell the house, what comes next, or how things will be. What I do know, is that I'll be strong enough to face it. I have a 2 yr old and 4 yr old boys who are going to need me to be stronger than ever and I know I will face that challenge well.

But I'm so exhausted right now, yet can't sleep. There's so much to do these next few days that I have little idea where to start. But I know it will all fall into place. For now, all I know is that my soul cries out for her. It hurts so badly. It is so sudden, so shocking, so hard to accept. But right now I'm running out of words. I can't think straight and I need to lay down. So I'm going to end this here and instead of thinking further, I'm going to just paste the email I've been sending to her multiple worksites as well as my own. I'll post something a bit more coherent and detailed tomorrow. For now, I just want to lay in bed and cry, and do nothing more. Thank you to everyone for your support. You have no idea how much you've helped me through this tough time. I love you all. For now, goodnight. I'm pasting the following since it probably says things better than what I just tried writing from scratch above.



It is with deep sadness and plentiful tears in which I must inform you that my precious wife, Stacey, lost her battle with breast cancer due to complications from pneumonia, earlier last night at 11:25 PM. Stacey was 34 yrs old, but always had the playful spirit of a child. This spirit touched deeply all that knew her, and in her passing touched even more. The nurses and doctors in the ICU unit said they've never had anyone there that has impacted them like she has. They all were in tears, and many gave me their home phone numbers telling me if there's anything I or the kids ever need, to let them know. They said they feel part of our family. That's how special Stacey was, that even in this condition she could so easily touch the hearts of so many. In a world that is at times so corrupt, full of greed and full of false politics, she was never tainted by any of it. She was always so pure, innocent, kind and full of love. All she wanted to do was enjoy everything. All she wanted was to be everything for our children. The love she had for them and the bond she had with them will be forever present.

I sit here through tears knowing that the world just lost one of the most special souls within it. I say this not out of the bias of a husband, but out of sheer raw knowledge as to who she was and how she lived her life. I've never known another person my entire life in which there couldn't be a person found on the entire planet that would say a bad word about her. No person that ever knew her could do anything but love her. She was an angel in life, and so too shall she be in death. The void that will be left from her passing will be immense, and she will be missed by so many.

I take comfort; however, in knowing that she is safe and at peace now. She was so scared every day that the cancer would come back. She hated that she would have to live with this fear every day for the rest of her life. But she need not fear any longer. Peace, joy, love and eternal happiness are upon her now, and in that I find comfort.

For me, I must learn to move forward. I am strong and will do whatever it takes to make sure my young children continue to be happy, healthy, loved and strong. They are my focus now, and though there are so many questions and fears of the future which do not yet have answers, I am confident they will be found and we will all be just fine.

But for now, I grieve. I grieve not only for the loss of a beautiful wife and wonderful mother, but even more because the most decent, innocent and pure person I have ever known is no longer here to bless us with her physical presence. But I know she is within me, and within all that were fortunate enough to have ever known her, and I know her spirit and her magic will never be forgotten.

Thank you for all the support everyone has given us, and may God bless us all.