Reply #50: Yeah, my mom was 41 when I was born. They had my childhood home on the market

[grace0418]

before I even graduated from high school. Forget going home for that first Thanksgiving break. I never felt so unwanted. The weird part was that I didn't especially want to be with *them* either, I guess I just longed for a family I didn't have. Even my friends who fought with their parents still had them calling and asking what they wanted for dinner when they got home, or sending care packages. My parents couldn't wait to be rid of all parental responsibility. I never want to feel like that, nor do I ever want my child to feel that unwanted.

That being said, my mom never did *anything* but crank out babies. I have had some semblance of a life up until now, and intend to continue. So I don't think I'll feel the same way about my child.

But yes, to answer your question, we do consider adoption. I have to be honest though, I think I would want to adopt a baby or toddler. I just don't know if I have the patience or fortitude to try and repair the damage done to an older child needing adoption. God bless anyone who can, they are truly wonderful people. But I think it would be more than I could handle.

Thanks liontamer!