Reply #4: I know. It makes for a strange and troubling conflict.

[Gregorian]

I see it as a critical point in time. Just as ironic, that point was where we designed a comfortable and safe lifestyle that would eventually kill us. That point was also the one beyond which there would be no quick turning back. I'll admit that even without the modern designs for our lifestyle, that change in nature was happening anyways, due to population. I've lived in a few places, and the stories I've heard, and the animal populations (or lack thereof) are extremely disturbing.

The way I see it is that we're always faced with the Garden of Eden. Each step we take is a decision. Do we continue destroying it, or do we finally decide to live with it. It's almost like the bank bailout. Let them die, or spend more money than we have bailing them out due to fear that they'll fail.

I keep thinking how nearly perfect 1890 was. Nature still existed. And we had electricity. My last two properties were examples of how people lived during those years. Barns, orchards.

I am really feeling hopeless. Not too many people see this. We're in a positive feedback loop. People have kids, and their heads are buried in their family sand, and they work their days away never seeing or hearing the mess of their own world.

I just spent 20 years going from property to property in search of a place that isn't offensive in some way, whether too many cars, houses, noise. I give up. I've owned some of the best properties one can find.

Oh well, I wasn't going to spew my personal stuff. But it's making it hard on all of us. I'm envious of those who can't see it.