Crisis: I am about ready to renounce atheism.

[SamG]

15. What others think of or misinterpret about your thinking...

is irrelevant! It really is!

Either you do NOT believe in a theistic entity or you do. It's as simple as that.

You need not spend your life talking about this issue with the poorly mentally equipped folks who fail to see the logic of non belief. If you, in your course of your lifetime, find six or ten real life people whom you can influence, or find agreement with, regarding the non-existence of a god figure, you've lived a very lucky life.

Note that I said "six or ten real life people". If you choose to spend your time arguing with god-believing idiots on the internet, continually having to re-define non-belief, that's your choice, I prefer to just challenge and re-assure my own thinking on the topic by continuing to read the foolish assertions proposed by believers as to why they can believe.

If you're looking for attention as a non-believer, continue to argue with those who won't get your point but will spend 15 minutes with you here on the internet. If you wish to live your life enjoying your non-belief, don't look for understanding from believers as a way of finding enjoyment. Instead, look to some or many of your fellow non-believers to offer you some support and intellectual challenges here and there. That's much more fun, I find.