Hi. The reality of a situation is hitting home. I really f'ed up something.

[Denninmi]

4. Thanks. I know I can get through it.

I'm not an emotional basket case over this, pretty matter of fact actually. Mostly just disappointed, I knew I was going wild.

Started with irrationality, the "they're going to take it all away anyway, so spend it" feeling.

Then it morphed into "it's an investment in my health". That is literally true, but I am the type that I can't just buy good, I have to buy the best.

And frankly, there isn't a material thing in the world I need, I actually am drowning in "stuff". I need to learn to be content as is.

And again, yes, I am in definite soft landing territory compared to most people.

The goal is just as with the bipolar crisis, learn from it, and make sure it never happens again.