A dream I had last night. I think it is packed with meaning. As soon as I woke up, I began to turn it over and memorize every detail so that I could write it down. I dream a lot, but it is very unusual for me to dream about anyone or anything specific. I almost never remember my dreams except for the moment of awakening and then they are gone. There is very rarely enough left of the memory for me to think about cogently, let alone write down.
The last time I had a dream so vivid and lasting, was right before 9/11. It was a volvano and ash floating like snow.
Right before I went to sleep last night I was on DU and I saw a political cartoon of Donald Trump
And Vladimir Putin as the couple in the painting American Gothic. Maybe you saw it too. Trump as the farm wife and Putin as the farmer with the pitchfork anyway
Heres the dream:
I am at a party in a large old farmhouse. Everyone seems happy and are all milling around in casual conversation. No one is eating or drinking. They seem to be awaiting the arrival of the caterers. Someone makes an announcement that the bankers have paid for the party and the bankers briefly raise their glasses to the hoi polli. Their glasses are crystal and are full.
I get bored and attempt to join in conversation with the strangers, who are talking politics. I dont remember what they were discussing in particular, but I said, Donald Trump is like an idiot Bond villain. There is a frightening vacancy in their hateful stares.
Then I ask directions to the bathroom because I have to pee. I am directed to the basement stairs.
As I am descending the stairs into the pitch-dark basement I pass a woman coming up the stairs. She eyes me disdainfully. She is dressed in what she believes is her Sunday best, but it is in reality, just an old housecoat. She shouts up the stairs happily that she is ready to join the party and is welcomed on the landing. The door is shut tight and I am in complete darkness.
Once at the bottom of the stairs I begin to search, in vain, for the bathroom. There is none.
I am tripping over bundles of clothes and bed mats. People live in the basement, but it is now empty.
The door opens and someone comes down the stairs.
It is Donald Trump. He is dressed in khakis and a leather bomber jacket. He has a baseball hat on. I dont see any insignia on his clothing no Presidential seal nothing.
He begins to talk to me without introduction. He never says, Hello, I am President Trump he speaks to me as if he has known me all my life and our relationship is one of casual friendship.
Im going to tell you a secret because, why not. He feels confident to share this secret because, to him, I am a total non-entity entirely disposable.
He walks over to the wall and flips a light switch on and off dramatically. The lights remain off and the basement dark.
The lights here, they dont work so good, he says, because, you know why? I like it that way. Then he meandered off into the darkness and I woke up.
I know there are lots of possible interpretations of this dream, but it shook me. I think its important and I hope not prescient. The dream was soaked in malevolence. Donald Trump makes the true believers think they have been invited to the party, but it is in fact, an abattoir. He speaks to them like he knows them and they know him. He kibitzes with them about their shared prejudices. He feeds them with anger and promises, but in fact has cast them down into the darkness, because HE likes it that way.
He is an evil man without a soul who is working at the behest of another evil man who is an AUTHENTIC Bond villain. Putin wants to shut off our electrical grid. I believe this, and I am not alone in my belief. There are lots of Generals in the US, who believe the same thing.
THAT is why I believe this dream is so frightening.
Sorry for the long winded nature of this post, but it really stuck with me and I wanted to share it with DUers.
The election cycle this year has been so deeply divisive, that I thought it was time to post this diary I wrote in 2004, when my family was divided by another, equally damaging Republican.
Re-reading it today it could be about this election.
My father has since passed, my mother is an invalid and a shut in, and my brother is a Republican.
I invite you to replace the name Bush with Trump as you read this diary.
"An unconscious people, an indoctrinated people, a people fed only partisan information and opinion that confirm their own bias, a people made morbidly obese in mind and spirit by the junk food of propaganda is less inclined to put up a fight - ask questions and be skeptical."
I dont remember where I got this quote from back then, but it is still appropriate.
Deprogramming The Parents
My elderly parents came to visit this weekend. We had reason to celebrate. My Mother had a terrible health scare in December and had recovered nicely. They hadnt visited my home in nearly a year and my husband and I were keen that they enjoy their stay.
My chosen life path has caused tension between my parents and myself that has simmered below the surface of our relationship for years. Raised Presbyterian, I have embraced Buddhism. I have been a vegetarian for thirty years. I am childless by choice so that I could pursue my career as a painter and writer. Most annoyingly, I am a liberal Democrat whose most wonderful and loving friends are Gay, Jewish, and Black.
My husband is a birthright Quaker who shares my views, supports my ambitions and loves my parents.
Everything went swimmingly for two days.
Even though my parents sprinkled their conversation and reminiscences with their typically obtuse racial stereotyping and insistence on labeling all of their interactions with a well, you know hes a Jew or hes very regular for a gay NOT THAT THERES ANYTHING WRONG WITH THAT kind of covert Christian racism; I remained sanguine. Both my husband and I have deep groves in our tongues from biting down deep in order to preserve family harmony.
The problem started Sunday morning over coffee and bagels and, of course, The Sunday Times. My father would never spend a dime on the Times; hes a Post man all the way. The fact that my husband purposely purchased a Sunday Post for him, didnt seem to cut the tension produced the Times prominence in our Sunday ritual.
As the conversation, inevitably I suppose, turned to politics, the mood darkened. At first I just listened the dutiful, respectful daughter.
I had vowed long ago the Easter before the Iraq invasion to be exact, that I would not discuss politics with my Father. That Easter Sunday ended with a table-clearing row between my Father and I over Bush and his lying cronies.
This rant began with a diatribe against the unions (even though both of my parents owe their pensions to unions) and escalated to the demonization of Democrats, Jim McGreevy in particular, and reached its crescendo with a particularly crude remark about John Kerry. My Mother asked him to stop but retreated to the living room with my husband perhaps with the foreknowledge that I was about to go nuclear. My father continued to work himself into such a fit, his face red with anger that I feared for his blood pressure.
Theyre all thieves and crooks he bellowed every one of them.
That may be true, Dad, I responded but which is worse? The politician who lays his hand on the Bible and swears to protect the Constitution even though hes spent some time in the dog pound and may have some fleas or the self proclaimed Christian who swears on the Bible to protect the Constitution invites the dogs to run the Government, turns the Congress into a veritable flea circus and then sets out to destroy this nation and everything it stands for?
Thats when the lid came off. The ensuing row has become clouded in my memory for all but one moment when everything became clear. Even in his rage that I should have the nerve to disagree with him made a stunning albeit angry admission.
I dont know as much about these things as you do, he ranted. I just listen to what other people are saying and go along. Dont EVER TRY TO DISUADE ME.
There it was. What ever you do, I cannot forgive you for trying to make me think. This is the spell that the Bush Administration has spread over this land. This is the extent to which the propaganda has worked. My father sounded like a drug addict suckered into an intervention. He fought me like a cornered animal because he FEARS my ideas.
How unutterably sad. The whole thing left me drained and desolate. I needed to bounce this off of someone who knew my dad as well as I, so I called my Aunt, his sister, and related the whole awful incident to her. I dearly love my Aunt. She is a big, no bullshit, kind of woman who has had her share of rounds in the ring with her volatile brother. She just listened and soothed my frazzled nerves and told me that on the subject of Bush I would just have to stuff it. Consider, she herself had forbade her best friend (a Democrat) to utter Bushs name in her house for fear it would destroy their thirty year friendship.
So now we come to it. Families and friends are on the brink of verbal warfare all the time because of George Bush. The Kool-Aid drinkers in our families are exerting emotional blackmail over those friends and family members who will not just get in line.
I think this is why we Democrats are so loath to act out as forcefully as we should to stop this creeping Fascism from taking over our beloved country.
Is this the way it happened in Germany?
FOR THE LOVE OF OUR FRIENDS AND FAMILY WE SHOULD JUST
LET IT RIDE.
There was another war in this nation that tore families apart. I hope we are not heading for another civil war, but not at all certain it can be avoided.
I dont know about you, but Im getting awfully tired of apologizing.
I havent posted here at DU much. I have been a very loyal reader and lurker for over ten years.
Now, I have to speak up. This internal battle between Democrats has to stop.
Before you start yelling take a beat and listen to a tale from not that long ago and not that very far away. At the beginning of what I, and many other progressives had hoped would be a new century of enlightened thought, there was a candidate- Al Gore. A lot of Democrats didnt like him. They decided that they would rather have a true progressive- Ralph Nader. It did not matter to them that Ralph had never served his country in battle nor had he ever held elected office. His positions and his promises were enough. There had long been an anti-Clinton schism brewing in the Democratic base and now it came to full flower. Al Gore was tarred with that brush. Many Democrats decided to stay home.
Please don't tell me that Ralph Nader's candidacy did not influence the outcome of the 2000 election. It did. Then as now, the Democratic party was divided.
What happened next was a national tragedy. The election was stolen. It was stolen because the margin of error in the major state of Florida was so razor thin that the state could be had the results could be contested. Democrats that stayed home, the Democrats that did not vote for the nominee of their party let this happen. We had the numbers. We did not use them
Noses neatly severed from our faces, we watched in horror as the Bush administration destroyed not one but several countries including our own.
I know two things to be true. ONE: A party divided against itself cannot stand.
TWO: History repeats itself.
The Republicans always win why? Because they never break rank! Until NOW> We are witnessing the probable break-up of the Republican lock step that has been a hallmark of their voter base for forty years. We cannot fall apart now. We have victory within our grasp.
If Democrats get out the vote- every vote- and pull the straight party lever... we can not only put a Democrat in the white house but we can also sweep the DOWN BALLOT TICKET.
If we continue this ideological war against the probable nominee of this party we will loose. Democrats will stay home in droves and history will repeat itself, only now we are in sight of loosing every progressive program hard won in the 20th century. This is a fact!
That being said, I fully support Bernie Sanders for President, but if Bernie Sanders is NOT the nominee of my party I will support the nominee of my party because it is too important that we not loose: social security, medicare, abortion rights, civil rights, voting rights, gay rights, prisoner rights, immigration rights, global climate change initiatives, public education, gun control. I dont want another war. I dont want forced conscription. I dont want a state religion. The list is longer feel free to add on.
THIS IS WHAT IS AT RISK IF WE STAY HOME.
The sanctity of your vote will not keep you warm and you cannot eat your moral rectitude.
The very moment Barack Obama was sworn into office, a faction of this party dropped their pom-poms and began spit-balling. In 2010 a crucial year for Congressional elections, when we could have stopped the wave of tea-party fanatics in their tracks Democrats stayed home.
We lost the majority. You know what happened next.
WE ARE DEMOCRATS. WE CAN CHANGE THIS. LET'S RISE. LET'S ROAR!
Dear Mr. President,
How was your weekend? Shall I tell you about mine? It was spent getting my 92-year-old mother-in-law settled in the new digs at the Friends Home. She has just enough income to cover her one spare room. Want to know a secret? If chained CPI for SS were currently in place, she would not be able to afford this luxury.
While helping her move my husband and I slept on the floor of our sons rented home. My son and daughter-in-law work seven days a week in their dry-cleaning business. A couple of years ago they sold their home in hopes of buying something a little bigger three bedrooms instead of two, to fit their growing family. Thats when the market crashed and suddenly, they were not able to get a loan. So, they are renting. Recently, my daughter-in laws mother moved in with them since her job as a mortgage broker dried up and she went broke. Next week she will go into the hospital for a knee replacement and will recuperate on the kids couch while her geriatric gentleman friend (also in poor health) takes her room in order to nurse her back to health. Good times.
My parents are both suffering a variety of ailments that have them constantly in and out of hospitals and I know soon, I will have to deal with their future housing. They are 80 and 85- SS is a big part of their independence. With chained CPI in place they would be running through their savings at an Olympic pace.
When our parents die, they will likely leave very little in inheritance, even though they all worked solid jobs in aeronautics, library science, and retail management. They did not live lavish lifestyles. They just never calculated that living to a ripe old age would impoverish them and their children in turn. Inheritance is what created the middle class and the end of inheritance will wipe it out. Chained CPI means the longer you live the less you get, and likely you will deplete your savings chasing immortality through the miracles of modern science. I am already living that reality.
You often talk about the need for fairness and that everyone should have Skin in the game. Lets explore this notion.
Five years ago, exactly two weeks after the economy hit the fan, my husband was made an offer he could not refuse take a one third cut in salary or hit the bricks. He stayed. There are no jobs for men over 55 unless, of course, you are already at the top of the corporate ladder or in Government, in which case one can apparently fail upwards indefinitely. I am an artist of some little note with two published books under my belt and a wall full of awards. Last year was stellar for me. I made
$12,000.00 selling art. That is the most Ive made in over ten years, Whoo-hoo. We are hanging on by our fingertips, but at least we can still feel them. My husbands sister is not so lucky. In January 2009 her husband murdered her with a single bullet to the head as she slept. He then turned the gun on himself. They were facing foreclosure on their home. They were both highly educated. He had a masters degree from Stamford and worked for the State of California in Minority Contracting. She was okay with the coming change to their lifestyle; he could not handle it and took matters into his own hands. Most of their friends were in DC attending your first Inauguration when the tragedy occurred and we postponed the funeral to accommodate their travel home. So, I guess what Im saying is that I think I already have enough Skin in the game. I dont feel the need to peel off any more.
Mr. President. Im certain you think that getting a GRAND BARGAIN is going to enhance your legacy. I am here to ask,
for whom is this Grand and for whom is this a Bargain? I am a fan. I never stopped defending you during this last election cycle. I am done.
The Republicans may hold that gun to the head of the middle class and they may have loaded the chambers, but it is your finger on the trigger.
Will you be playing golf next weekend? Have fun.
Once I had a beautiful garden, tended with love and labor that enriched my soul and filled my belly. One summer I added a variety of sugar belle small watermelons. They were hearty climbers and I constructed a trellis to support the fruit as it flourished in the hot sun.
I remember sitting on my patio in the evening shade and watching the fireflies dancing around
the garden like a tiny private fireworks display meant just for me to lift my weary soul with the promise of magic and the guarantee of a profitable harvest yet to come. A guarantee well deserved and earned by the labor of my hands and prayers of my heart.
But it was the melons that enchanted me, first lovely blossoms then grape sized fruits that expanded daily to near bursting, They were fragrant right through the hard shell and I could not wait to pluck them down and split them open to enjoy and share the sweet ripe red flesh within.
Finally, the day arrived; I took my basket to the garden and made my way through the jungle of tomato plants and bean bushes to the trellis bearing my prize. I put my hand up and turned the topmost melon to twist it off the vine, but something was wrong. The melon, while looking perfectly wonderful was far too light. I plucked it down and examined it. The was a hole about the size of a childs fist bored into the bottom of the melon and the entire contents of the fruit had been clawed out. I quickly checked the other melons, but they were all the same a beautiful empty tableau. Only the shells and the outward appearance of bounty remained. They were garbage on the vine. The raccoons had found a way in and stolen the fruit right before my eyes. It is no wonder they are called bandits.
I only recount this story as an allegory for how I felt this Fourth of July holiday as I sat and watched the fireworks on TV. The fireworks swarming in the sky like fireflies, the promise of the sweet juice of Liberty swelling my heart, increasing my appetite. The anticipation of greatness and justice sweet on my tongue as it always is on this most American of Holidays.
On July 5th I went back to actually living in the USA. The fruit is hollow. Garbage on the vine.