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I spent the best years of my life in public education, where I was mauled daily by corporate powers, the media and my own union (the National Education Association). I didn't make a lot of money - and then I got laid off, not long after 9/11.
The painful part was the separation from my students; they were the closest thing I've ever had to my own family. I was carrying a lot of baggage.
Yet getting laid off was one of the best things that ever happened to me. Once I was free of the endless political intrigue and tyranny, I began to recover. I'm now working just part-time (night shift), yet I feel lucky just to have a job - with benefits, no less.
I do have some complaints about my health insurance. For example, you can get billed if you see a doctor for anything that isn't covered. I was given a phone number to call to find out if a particular procedure is covered. Of course, all I get is a busy signal.
Fortunately, I'm a veteran, so I went back to the VA hospital. Because I haven't been there in a couple years, I had to reapply. I expected to get hit with a wall of bureaucracy, after I'd discover the VA in shambles, a victim of the economy.
To my amazement, I was whizzed through my "application" process in record time and even got some treatment on the spot. For example, I said I wanted to get something X-rayed, and they just gave me a note, and I went and got an X-ray. As I understand it, they more or less reorganized the hospital, making things more efficient.
So I'm in a strange situation. For over a decade, I felt like a pariah, endlessly screwed by Bill Gates, jerked around by politicians, slapped around by derelict principals and libeled by the media. When I began fighting back, getting politically involved, I was variously ignored or attacked by my own colleagues and parents. But I never gave up - I became a teacher with an attitude.
Now the shoe's on the other foot. Even as the economy tanks, life is slowly improving for me, while many of the people who spit in my face are now unemployed, or at least feeling the heat. I've come to appreciate the saying, "Misery loves company." I feel their pain.
I can't afford gasoline, let alone a new car, but it's nice knowing that cars are much more affordable now, as are new homes. Apple slashed the prices on the next computer I want to buy; it will cost about half what I paid for a similar model three years ago.
I still carry a lot of scars from the classroom, and I'm not really happy with the muddled masses who would apparently die before they'd fight back against Corporate America. I sometimes find myself cheering when I read about another 10,000 idiots getting laid off. The only sad thing is the knowledge that their children are going to go through a lot of pain.
But this is America, home of the Great Society that screws its children regardless. I still can't believe some of the things I saw in the classroom. I remember a kindergarten class I worked in (as an assistant teacher) that I'd characterize as child abuse. But I couldn't get any help, because no other teachers or parents cared.
So here I am, all alone, detached from this society I've come to despise, savoring my job and benefits and the string of good luck that began last holiday season. Latest episode: I want to go home to the Midwest for my vacation. The roundtrip airfare cost me $400, which is a lot of money for me. Just a couple days after I bought my ticket, I was invited to donate blood - for exactly $400! (I enrolled in a blood donation / research program a few years ago, but they haven't contacted me since last November, so I thought the study was over.)
I'm looking forward to getting a new computer this fall. If I can scrape together enough money for a car and a social life, then maybe I can be truly whole again. I'm even wondering if I could save enough money to get married some day. But am I too old to have children, and would I want to raise them in a country that shits on kids?
For the first time in my life, I feel like I'm almost living the Amerian dream, working nights, when all the street kids, con artists and homeless are invisible and wondering if I should pity the destitute or despise them. Where the future was once a wall of gray, I'm once again dreaming about exciting possibilities; it's kind of like being back in college.
I'm grateful that I was born with a brain and backbone, and I'm proud of myself for fighting back. I will never forget my students, my children, and I will never end my war against Bill Gates, the world's biggest phony philanthropist and education reformer. Most people consider me radical, but I consider them stupid - and they do a good job of proving it every day.
Viva Chavez!
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