My thoughts..

[undergroundpanther]

Michael Vlahos, a long-range thinker for the U.S. Navy, warns,

"We are not in charge of the environment and the world is not following us. It is going in many directions. Do not assume that democratic capitalism is the last word in human social evolution."


So what IS happening to us? Same thing basically that has happened to life ever since it infected this globe.

Is Gaia sick of us the cancerous parasites gonna shake us off?
Or is it something different?
Are we are entering a terminal madness? A time of separation. An evolutionary bottleneck? Or is it something beyond our comprehension?

I think deep down in the deepest recesses of it's collective being life itself knows it is trapped on this planet in a catch 22 it cannot resolve.. To some life it reincarnates recycles into new bodies to be born over and over and there are many things this recycling of our essences into new forms does. It erases the old programs, past selves experiences ,some can access this information, many cannot. It is known every print copy of an original degrades further and over time the quality degrades into cancer and madness,and it is suffering.The DNA can only take so many hits until it gets damaged and mutates. How many times can information on a CD RW be re written over on until it garbles the information? As the information garbles so does our capacity to remember learn and survive.

Why do you think Buddha said the FIRST noble truth is of SUFFERING? Because it is true.


If you were able to see beyond the immediate to yourself,and I know most people can,and it generates anxiety .Maybe you might see a very bleak future.You might be scared. You might be terrified. You might want to deny it.
You might feel futile about it. You might even lose it.
All that repressed ,fragmented and recycled information we carry is the testimony of generations of life, coded memories written in our very DNA, Sometimes it will speak, through psychotic breaks, in dreams visions and fears about what the reality of being trapped in flesh in a world that forces life to tear itself apart and compete to survive,IS.
Than we find a way to submerge it again and move on.
We recycle experiences each time we react and relearn and sometimes nothing is learned.We are alive and dying at any given moment.


Someday we will not be able to submerge this anymore. The body burden will be too much,the pollution will have it's say, the trauma too much, the suffering too much.Terminal madness.. When that reality sinks in, the latent fascism that has been perking right along in our social collective unconscious will come out from behind the curtain of "civility" to save us, but it is nothing but a social abreaction an acted out projection of the callousness of nature and the hollowness of god put upon a scapegoat.To ease the guilt of having and fear of losing prosperity.Another sacrifice ritual.To appease the blind god of pain.Because the coming struggles will be intense.

And for some the struggle will distract them from the inevitable.For others their hearts will break and they will die,for others it will make them insane.The bottleneck looms.

Why are humans so shortsighted,Limited to their own monkey spheres? http://www.pointlesswasteoftime.com/monkeysphere.html
Why does our brain give us positive endorphins for harboring grudges and thoughts of revenge? Why do we insist on doing the very things that harm our own existence?
http://brainmind.com/Amnesia2.html

Why do people have kids when they can't manage their own lives? Never mind these parents are oblivious to the waste and consumption another mouth to feed creates on the dying environment. Birth and consuming both are primal functions of life,with very strong drives but it also helps create the tragedy off the commons that will surely destroy life on this planet? We obey the programs in our flesh even as it makes us suffer.When we try to kill the ego we become arrogant amoral strutting banty roosters thinking we are so damn holy,in our heads . Enlightenment stinks. Enlightenment and spirituality has not stopped the suffering on this planet since it was invented Why?

So we turn to progress,medicine science..it eases suffering in the immediate , yet science is shortsighted .Progress it comes at a terrible price it creates more problems than it solves.

We know it's wrong but do it anyway? Why?

Could it be the life force here that's animating all the flesh on earth is intelligent and it KNOWS it is trapped here and is Suicidal from how much pain it endures on this alien existence?
If life were natural to planets it wouldn't be tortured in it's own home would it? Consciousness here is pacing the bars like a caged tiger, fighting itself for no reason, really but giving itself permission to kill because an authority figure relieves them of responsibility for a time and the mass psyche can release the traumas stored up by countless caged frustrations..

Life amusing itself to death here in the most destructive ways all to avoid feeling a deep indescribable longing for...Love that is not tainted with an ulterior agenda, for tenderness without cruelty or shame attached ,for acceptance, an end of struggle and strife, For good without evil inside it?? You can try to balance and get homeostasis for a time but soon reality intrudes and that balance is fucked up over and over..or you could go with the flow and flow into a world of hurt out and in over and over a flotsam thinking it has such self mastery. These points of view does not remove the fact of life, that here we HURT.

What if our(all of life's) collective experiences on this world spoke to us what do you think would it say?
Warning: graphic images.
http://brainmind.com/Death.html


FIGHT, FLIGHT, AND FEAR PARALYSIS

Under conditions of extreme fear, victims may enter trance-like states, and become so paralyzed and numb with fear that they may appear catatonic, and may fail to make any effort to resist or to save their lives (Courtois, 1995; Galliano et al., 1993; Miller, 1951; Nijenhuis et al., 1998). Indeed, be it animal or human, a common response to extreme fear is to become motionless, and in the extreme, catatonic as if rigor mortis has set in; also referred to as "death-feigning" or "playing possum" (Kalin 1993; Krystal, 1988; Nijenhuis et al., 1998; Stern, 1951). In fact, the affected individual may become so stiff and rigid, that it may appear as if rigor mortis has set in. Moreover, the victim may not only become unresponsive, but psychologically and emotionally numb (Courtios, 1995; Foa, Riggs, & Gershuny, 1995; Krystal, 1988) and suffer a complete blocking off of cognition and memory such that they may resist and fail to respond even to attempts at assistance (Krystal, 1988). http://brainmind.com/Dissociation.html

Why?

I think the sound the collective consciousness of life these days would be a long desperate cry..A song of beauty marred and the terribleness of it all..A memory of innocence taken,a wanting..a baby crying out and no mother to hold it.
It would be screams of being pursued by predators,and the preys death screams among the triumph yells of the victors,It would be a wail of neglect and secrets threatening to break the veil of a pretty picture that never was ,burning tears of lost loves and children,and incoherent vocalizing of countless traumas, teeth tearing, self ruin, shame stinging, fists pounding and gunshots,tanks rolling over bodies, the silence of mass graves,countless traumas.It would be the pain scream called experience, trapped on a lonely blue prison planet..

"Being born is like being kidnapped. And then sold into slavery."(Andy Warhol)

And tell me if you felt how oil companies drills felt going into the ground like it's your own flesh, would you scream?
What of strip mines ? If you had the planet as your body,would that feel like a burn victim getting a skin peel in a burn ward ?



If you felt the child in some third world country and felt the starvation and stress of poverty as if it was in your belly and your life being snuffed out by greed would you cry too?

"Each generation begins anew with fresh, eager, trusting faces of babies, ready to love and create a new world. And each generation of parents tortures, abuses, neglects and dominates its children until they become emotionally crippled adults who repeat in nearly exact detail the social violence and domination that existed in previous decades."
-- Lloyd deMause in The Psychogenic Theory of History

If you felt the panic of a deer being chased by a wolf pack closing in, would your heart threaten to burst too?


And what of the terrible hunger in the wolves bellies ? What of their concern for their cubs too? As humans shot their pack mates for taking caged sheep?Or an even worse idea, shooting a wolf for a trophy to decorate the wall and show off to buddies?


What if you could feel the swift terrible blow of a car bumper to your head like a cat crossing a street instantly made a roadkill as it spends it's last moments in a ditch alone..feels would you ache too?


"The process of feeling childhood helplessness is absolutely necessary and unavoidable. But it is not, as Janov hoped, of itself sufficient to resolve destructive, and self-destructive, patterns of behavior. as long as the needs continue to be neglected and unfulfilled in the present, old pains and their destructive attendant symptoms will constantly be triggered." -- Alice Miller in the foreword to Jean Jenson's Reclaiming Your Life.


If you had the vast consciousness of that force that animated life in the flesh would you feel tortured living this way? All torn apart inside ? Would you long for rest and love? Someone to rescue you,from this place and healing? Someone to Value your being?

What if you were a curious child who touched a mine in the desert sand and was left with no arms , a woman in Darfur facing rape everyday ,a Child bullied at school,a woman giving birth screaming in pain, or a dying junky who just wanted to medicate away his pain away but got addicted instead,a person who was just told they got cancer,or battered spouse blown off by police yet again scared for their life..and what if for a moment you felt all this pain all over this world at once would you be overwhelmed by it, driven insane,crying out, for help, for justice ,for kindness, for an intervention,and..Would you want it to be all OVER with ASAP?
http://www.usnews.com/usnews/culture/articles/961111/archive_034966.htm

We are all connected.When one thing that happens it can affect many lives around it.This is why I think humanity is killing the planet, because the force called life has been wounded,terrified,abused.
The collective force of life , consciousness ,called awareness or world soul has been wounded by being trapped inside an alienating world of flesh demanding it survive by tearing itself apart.

Deep inside we know. And it hurts to even contemplate this. So we cram it down deep in our unconscious ,deny it and ignore it .And it drives us insane, makes us vulnerable, makes us act like assholes sometimes.

The Earth will decay until the mass suicide of life itself appears like the only viable option in a world where it is abuse or be abused.Eat life to survive and die anyway. Ashes to ashes, dust to dust .

Life wants to live but it also suffers so much by being alive on a world such as this one..so it also wants to die,and death looms larger as the planet breaks down from civilization and the growth freaks games. Addicted and against our will to things that effect us, and to the interplay of brain chemicals, This flesh and world becomes like a trap.
Stop the world I wanna get off!

"Our brains are sculpted by our early experiences. Maltreatment is a chisel that shapes a brain to contend with strife, but at the cost of deep, enduring wounds."
--Teicher

To be fully open to the baby's emotional needs
is to become reacquainted with oneself as a baby,
to re experience the pain of being totally dependent and
desperate in love and yet being shut out and feeling unwanted."
-- Robert Karen, Ph.D