My beautiful dream

[yellerpup]

In my dream, I floated above a great blue river, not too wide but fairly fast flowing with clean, clear, sparkling water. The banks on each side of the river sloped gently to the water’s edge, each side flush with lush green grass. No bushes or mud to contend with and a mixture of trees that let in a lovely dappled light. At first I thought I must be standing at the edge of a waterfall because I could see for miles and miles on a day that was perfectly clear. This also could have been an eagles-eye point of view. White capped mountains defined the skyline in the distance, and the flowing river stretched out below winding through a pine-dotted forest into infinity. The next thing I know I am floating in the stream and I am extremely comfy. I floated confidently with my head above water like a little otter, observing the pristine landscape from the middle of the river. The thought occurred to me that I wasn’t that great a swimmer but that quirk was immediately replaced by a sense of serene fearlessness, even joy, as I merged with the water.

I have been undergoing medical testing and took this as a sign that I was "in balance" because of seeing things from both an above and a below perspective. Then, I return for one final test today and they scared the crap out of me. I refused to get a second opinion from an oncologist until the today's test results come back in two weeks. I am unusually in tune with my body and I want to believe that the dream is its way of telling me that I am okay. Does anyone get a vibe from this? I do much better when I am not fearful (or angry, which to me is the same thing) and would like to have that feeling back. Thanks.

Edit for typo.

[JanusAscending]

1. My first "gut" reaction is..........

Relax and "go with the flow" As in your dream, for a moment you becames fearful being a poor swimmer, but the moment was fleeting. When you trusted and relaxed, you found it was too joyous to be afraid. Don't tense up, and don't think negative thoughts. I found this helpful for myself very recently. Sending postive energy your way and much love. JA

[yellerpup]

2. Thank you, JA...

I do so appreciate a common sense approach. I hope your recent negativity has been resolved and turned around. Thank you for your energy and love. :hug:

[JanusAscending]

3. You are SO welcome!!

You'd never had know that I had a "common sense approach" a couple of weeks ago!!! Yes, it is turning around. Slowly, but surely. I have a hard time letting go of "my" control !! As if any one of us ever has complete control over things. Letting go is hard, but like I've been advised, relax, and just BREATH! JA

[winyanstaz]

4. We must first resign as General Manager of the Universe....

before we can find lasting peace :)
I think you will be fine :)

[JanusAscending]

5. So tue, so true!!

by the way, you owe me a reply to a previous post I sent you in the midst of my crisis! You can PM me if you'd rather. Love ya, JA
P.S. I wouldn't have brought it up, but I was hopeful that you would reply, as I so appreciated your input!

[winyanstaz]

7. sorry I missed that post ..I am still finding my way around :)

[latebloomer]

6. Ha ha!

I love that!

May I steal that from you?

[winyanstaz]

8. Its not my own but feel free...I know I did :P

I believe I must have read that somewhere long ago :) but it sure applied to me at the time ;)
I don't think that is the exact quote but close enough..it works for me :P

[ayeshahaqqiqa]

9. You are right to be calm

anger (which is a mask for fear) only exacerbates any problem you may have. Staying in balance is right.

I've got to ask if you've checked to see if your iodine levels are ok. Iodine--or rather the lack thereof--can be a significant factor when it comes to growths.

[yellerpup]

10. I have taken thyroid medication since I was in my early 20's

and just had tons of testing done. Thyroid levels are perfect. I am in great shape and healthy for my age (60). Liver, kidneys, heart, BP, all those numbers are "enviable" my doctor says. She just called a few minutes ago and referred me to an oncologist so even though I am disappointed with the news, I guess I have to pull on my big girl panties and go. I'm staying in balance and that dream is a great comfort to visualize because the sense of comfort and well-being was so strong. Thanks for your good advice. I appreciate it. :hi: