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Of course, he did know when I was with someone else.
He was my high school sweetheart. We split up for about six months in high school, and before I was supposed to go off to college we got back together and he proposed. We were engaged for a little less than a year, when he was obviously wanting to see someone else.
When I found someone else, though, he pursued me avidly. It really hurt one of my relationships because I still cared deeply for him and the guy I was with knew it. But when that relationship ended and I was free, he lost interest quickly.
I started refusing to deal with him when I was in a relationship because it seemed to encourage him when we both had to have know by that time that we were not meant for each other. It was hard to lose him as a friend, or at least as a close friend. When I got married there were issues, and when I first separated from my husband he wanted to start things back up. I refused. I didn't want to get hurt again by him, and I cared for him too much to consider even a "friends with benefits" situation.
I then met the man I've been with for the last four years. I think he could tell that this one was the one for me. He met a girl and they got married, and now have two children. When there are problems in the relationship, however, he will attempt to contact me and act flirty. I will sympathize with his problems and try to give advice but I rebuke any flirtation quickly.
I think part of the reason he acted this way was that he was deeply afraid of commitment. When I was with someone else, he was safe to pursue me. But when I was available, he got scared. He often pursued other unavailable women -- had a LDR with a girl in Switzerland, sought women who were dating or married but having problems in their relationship, women with serious emotional baggage that couldn't make an intellectual decision about commitment, women who were younger than he was and not interested in commitment.
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In your case, it sounds more like bad timing. That's what I thought it was with that guy at first, but then saw the pattern too clearly to not recognize it.
I think I'm lucky that I've managed to be friends, or at least friendly, with all of my ex's (except for my ex-husband, but when you screw a 17 year old in MY fucking bed, I am not inclined to forget it easily, especially when I walk in on it). The guy who gave me my first kiss is a friend of mine, and at one point we did have a "friends with benefits" situation. He's pretty lonely right now, was talking a few nights ago online about he he was really wanting at least a sexual relationship with someone (but the person who has been his "buddy" lately has some really major issues and a scary record when it comes to keeping track of birth control). I said "I'd offer to help out but I'm very happily taken, sorry ..." His response "It's a damn shame, too." Then he said he was very happy for me that I'd found a good guy.
But I don't recommend getting back together with ex's. I also don't recommend LDRs or rebound relationships. Good luck...
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