Oy: The complaint thread

[ThomCat]

x(

I posted the happy thread a few days ago. This is the unhappy thread.

I am tired of dropping things because my hands don't work. I am tired of spilling things and staining everything I own. I am tired of always being clumsy.

I am tired of having migraine headaches Every. God. Damned. Single. Day. x(

I am tired of being so exhausted that I don't want to drag my sore bones out of bed, yet not being able to get any sleep.

I am tired of the way my current combination of meds makes me feel confused. :grr:

I am tired of needing handfulls of pills.

I am tired of needing three of those pills just to manage the side effects of other pills.

I am tired of being afraid to go to sleep, because I don't know what pain will start while I'm asleep, when I won't be fast enough to medicate to deal with it.

I'm normally an optimistic and a happy person. But I'm worn out right now. I'm in a really bad mood and I'm in a hell of a lot of pain. I want it all to just go away.

[KitchenWitch]

1. Oy Vey.

:hug:

I am tired of the chronic nature of chronic pain.

:hug:

I am sorry you are hurting.

[ThomCat]

4. I love you.

Because I know you understand. :hug:

[LeftyFingerPop]

2. Thom Thom Thom....

This journey of life....

I do the same thing....

And it's bad....

Make it part of your being and embrace it....

Love the pain...

I love you Thom...

Embrace it and make it part of you....

:hug: :loveya:

I know what you go through Thom, because I go through it....embrace it....

[ThomCat]

5. I've tried that.

And I can't do that right now.

Right now I can't embrace it. Right now I can't do anything but hate it. :grr:

I hate this. :grr:

[CaliforniaPeggy]

3. My dear ThomCat...

I am so sorry you're hurting so much right now...

I gotta give you props for one thing: You are very eloquent, even in the midst of your pain!

I want all your pain to go away too...

Damn, but I wish I could help more!

:hug:

[ThomCat]

7. I had to laugh when I read

that I'm eloquent in the midst of my pain. :rofl:

I suppose that has some value. :)

My first thought was, "I wonder how many milligrams of morphine that's worth." :P

[CaliforniaPeggy]

12. Laughter is always good!

A dear friend told me that I should always be laughing!

And the same is true for you, sweetie...

Glad that I could make you laugh! :hug:

[REP]

6. Are you channeling me?

Most of that sounds like me at any given moment, and what's wrong with me is mostly comparatively trivial.

On the other hand, I've gotten used to dropping shit constantly. I act like I do it because I'm old, not because my hands are fucked up.

I hope you feel better soon ... or get better drugs!

[ThomCat]

10. I wish this was just signs of old age.

I think I could deal with that pretty happily at this point. :P

The meds that might improve my hands are making the migraines headaches worse and more frequent.

The meds that control the migraines mess with my sleep.

Everything messes with something else.

[REP]

18. I'm 43

So the old age is really a joke.

The drugs that might help my hands would make my kidneys fail even faster, so I can't take them (I'm in Stage 2/3 failure now; no Iron Kidney!).

Fortunately, the drugs for my migraines just increase the number of kidney stones but don't decrease kidney function. Since I've been passing stones every 30-45 days for 20 years, passing another type once in a while is not a big deal.

The pain meds I can take keep me up, so I definitely feel ya there.

Hope you get some rest!

[Lil Missy]

8. I'm so sorry you have to go through such misery.

Life just isn't fair sometimes. :(


:hug:

[ThomCat]

11. No, it defiitely is not.

:(

[TK421]

9. If it makes you feel any better, I am completely burned out....

I'm pretty much pulling double-shifts where I work ( for no extra money, by the way...it's a non-profit ) As far as the pills go....do they make you "happy"? cause I could really use some of those fuckers right about now.

And I always look forward to going to sleep...it's my favorite part of the day

[ThomCat]

13. Oh hell no.

My pills make me a burnt out zombie. There's no happy in my pills.

I'm sorry about your double shifts. I'm glad you can still sleep at least. I'm glad you still have that escape.

[Inchworm]

14. As much as I love it I really dont wanna goto "work" tomorrow

I really do.. but dont

:hi:

[ThomCat]

15. I hope you have the option to stay home.

I know my meds will keep me zombified tomorrow. It seems like I lose my Saturdays now. I take the Methotrexate on Fridays, spend Saturday in a daze, coming out of that only when the migraines start.
:grr:

I'd much rather be able to just go into the office and work 7 days per week. :(

:hi:

[Ptah]

16. You are in my thoughts, ThomCat

:hug:

[ThomCat]

17. Thank you, Ptah.

:hug:

That is a beautiful picture.

I assume that's your granddaughter. I hope she never ever has to go through chronic pain. May she be spared and have a healthy, happy life. :)

[Ptah]

19. That's my daughter, twenty years ago.

I wish no one had to endure chronic pain.

[ThomCat]

34. I wish nobody had to endure chronic pain.

That's a wonderful wish. :hug:

[ismnotwasm]

20. My husband wants to know one thing

Does it piss you off?
(He has MS and suffers from all of the symptoms you just described at one time or the other, or all at once. When he talks about it, he, in his idiosyncratic and humorous way, always acknowledges anger. Now, you can see the difference between us right here, I go into a long explanation and he would have left the comment as is. I love that man. And I hope you feel better soon)

[ThomCat]

25. Who would I be mad at?

:shrug:

It does get me upset. :(

I hope your husband is doing well. :hug:

[undeterred]

21. I have migraines, no job, and no health insurance.

So for the last two migraines I took vicodin and slept on and off for a couple of days until I was completely nauseous. Vomiting sometimes breaks the migraine. I am awake in the middle of the night with a headache, and its getting worse.

Its called the Bush health care plan.

[ThomCat]

26. I have noticed that,

that vomiting sometimes breaks the migraine. I don't know why that works.

I am very sorry you don't have any insurance. :(
I really wish we had universal healthcare, so that everyone who needed something like migraine pills could get them.

[undeterred]

43. It has something to do with blood vessels to the brain

My doctor explained it but I can't explain it.

[femmocrat]

52. Sorry, undeterred... re: Migraines.

I couldn't function without Imitrex (but my insurance only pays for 9 tablets a month!). I wake up with them during the night, too. I usually have crazy dreams and wake up with a migraine. I cannot identify a trigger. I get them about every other night. Miserable.

Sending a fellow sufferer a big :hug:

[TZ]

22. I'm so sorry Thom

One thing about me, I might have symptoms while waiting for the goddamn bean counters to approve my medication but the extreme fatique is actually making it easier to sleep..I was out like a light before 9pm last night...My chief complaint then would be that it is physically impossible for me to have much of a social life..But I am lucky to not really be in chronic pain only the occasional bad headache/itching....:hug:

[ThomCat]

27. Oh, don't get me started on the chronic itching

I'm alergic to narcotic painkillers, and I live on morphine. I feel like I'm going to claw my skin off. x(

We should start a support groups where we sit around scratching each other. :P

:hug:

[Callalily]

23. I am so sorry to hear

about your pain and what you go through. I wish there was something I or someone could do to ease your burden. I feel so helpless. All I can send you are prayers and hugs. :hug: :hug: :hug: :hug: :hug: :hug: :hug: :hug: :hug: :hug: :hug: :hug:

[ThomCat]

28. Hi Simly Fugue,

:hug:

[lizerdbits]

24. I'm so sorry

I wish we could work some DU magic and make it go away. :( It's tough to know you are suffering and we can't help you. I feel so helpless! :cry: :hug:

[ThomCat]

29. "All of life is suffering. Only Death is not."

:shrug:

That comes from "Zorba the Greek." And or from Buddhism. Both wise sources.

[lost-in-nj]

30. Thom

I wish I could make you feel better even a little bit .
Give you some relief....

I am not in physical pain, mine is emotional.
and not even half as bad as yours

:hug:


lost

[ThomCat]

32. Hi lost-in-nj!

Pain is pain is pain is pain is pain. I stopped comparing or ranking them between people a long time ago. No good comes of that.

We all have our pain to deal with, and it's often more than we should have to deal with. :(

Life hurts. x(

[Gormy Cuss]

31. Blech.

To the migraine and other pain, an onion should grow in its navel.


To you Thomcat, I hope for better days .:hug:

[ThomCat]

33. To hope for better days!

:hug:

[skygazer]

35. I'm sorry, Thom

It's awful when you just can't get away from the pain. At all. Hurts to move, hurts to keep still. :hug:

[ThomCat]

39. Exactly. The only relief is when you medicated to sleep.

:(

[lightningandsnow]

36. Aw, ThomCat...

That sucks. It really, really sucks.

:hug:

Hope you feel better soon.

[ThomCat]

40. I hope so too.

:hug:

Thank you. :)

[Kajsa]

37. Oh Thom,

I hope you get some relief soon.

As a regular patient at my pain doctor's office,
( every other week)
I know a bit of what you are saying.

It's hard to feel human when you are in constant
pain.

Pain REALLY SUCKS!

:hug: :hug: :hug:

[ThomCat]

38. My regular response to that is: if it sucked it would might feel good.

It bites. x(

:hug:

I hope we both find some relief.

[Kajsa]

41. Good point!

It BITES!

Thanks, I hope we both feel better soon.

:hug:

[Flaxbee]

42. I'm sorry, ThomCat - that just sucks

:hug:

I wish I could help somehow.

My mom has chronic, excruciating pain that is managed with pain pills 4 times per day, but she also has a patch that releases meds constantly over a 3-day period. New patch every 72 hours - and it does provide a lot of steady relief and keeps the pain from ever galloping away with her (as you mentioned - worry in the night that something will start that you can't then catch up with). Has your doctor ever mentioned anything like that? I don't have any idea if it would work for you, but it has made my mom's life bearable...

[ThomCat]

46. We have talked about pain patches

for the basic pain meds. But the meds I have to take quickly aren't ones that I can have in my all the time, so the patches aren't an option for this. :(

:hug:
No simple answer. :(

[DarkTirade]

44. Aww, I'm sorry.

If I was there I'd give you a big hug. Wouldn't help a whole lot, but maybe it would at least make you feel a little better. :hug:

[ThomCat]

47. How about a bunch of small hugs.

:P

:hug:

[DarkTirade]

49. I like to cuddle. :)

[fizzgig]

45. i wish i could do or say something to make it better

you are an amazing person, thom, and i admire you very, very much...i honestly do

:hug:

[ThomCat]

48. There's nothing here worth admiring.

:(

There's just a whole friggin lot of pain. x(

:hug:
May all our our lives get better somehow.

[suninvited]

50. That sucks !

Wish I had a magic wand.....

:loveya:

[ThomCat]

54. If you had a magic wand I'm sure you'd be a very, very busy person.

And very popular, and probably very rich too. :P

Ah well, there are some things that even gods and magic can't cure.

[femmocrat]

51. Sorry you are having a bad time, ThomCat....

:hug:

Hope tomorrow is better.

[ThomCat]

55. I hope tomorrow is better too.

May it be a good day for all of us! :hug:

[Roon]

53. Sorry Thomcat

I was in severe pain for most of the 90's and I can relate what you are going through. Sorry, I have no advice..just a hug and a quick smooch is all i have to offer.

[ThomCat]

56. A hug and a smootch are powerful medicine.

And I happily accept them.

:hug: :*

[Bullwinkle925]

57. sweetheart . . .

you can vent and gripe all you want - you definitely have cause to . . .

i just wish i could remove all the pain and suffering from you.

dammit all.

[Haole Girl]

58. Hope you feel better soon!!

[shaniqua6392]

59. No one can understand chronic pain unless they have experienced it.

I am so sorry Thom. I sure wish I could do something to make you feel better. I hope you know that you have many friends here at DU who support you and will listen any time you want to vent your frustrations. :hug: