Reply #10: I do also. But then, I am completely alone.

[david13]

I was talking to my father, but now that ended. We hate each other. He was abusive my entire life, and still is, and doubly so, in that, after he is abusive and hurtful, he says, oh, that didn't bother you. In other words, my feelings don't matter.
It is a difficulty.
Most people don't really care. Oh, they say they do, but they don't.
Volunteer work is so so. It helps a little.
I went to a meetup group 2 weeks ago. Only 1 person there would speak to me. The rest, after I introduced myself, said nothing.
I talk to each and every stranger I get anywhere near. About 80% say nothing or 1 word, then walk away. And I'm not bad looking, I don't look odd or anything.
But once in a rare while I have a good conversation. And a month ago I met a guy who could be a friend. At least to do some things with. At least some.
So we went for a motorcycle ride today. Not bad. But he may have a lot of the hang ups that so many people have, that there are certain conventions that must be followed. Or else.
Like breakfast, or pancakes. I say no convention. When they serve breakfast all day, have pancakes whenever you want.
So we'll see how long this lasts.
But the bottom line is, it ain't easy. But get out there and try. And keep trying. Then, move on to the next one.
dc