Reply #12: more beautiful and truer words never spoken...thank you

[FirstLight]

I have felt that way for years and KNOW that culture of disdain, etc all too well. I have been on & poff welfare for my entire adult life and always made the connection of being kicked while down. and i also refused to take it...i would be the one pushing for the signature to attend the training program or finding the prorgam for 'do gooders' that would help rather than harm. Unfortunately I had to become "known" by the system and get to know the system to fully know what my rights were and how to be my own advocate....and attract those kinds of workers to me ;)

there are little programs like Family Self Sufficiency through Hud and Workers Investment Act funding through the EDD...but they are so obscure that you have to either be reccomended to them or really beat dow the doors to find out more about how to qualify. So sad, even the way we have to try and succeed in the system is set up like corporate groveling or some such nonsense.

Feelin pretty good today...as long as i don;t think about the layaway for christmas i hope i can afford and the $300 overdraft in my checking act that i have to figure out and my car registration, electric bill, etc...

but i am working a little this week and THANK GOD my mom is still around for moral support and to help with things in a pinch. I just hope she gets to se me 'make something' of myself before she leaves the planet! sheesh!
and as much as i know you are right about caretaing and house keeping and mothering being very important jobs - i have a hard time with that too. My folks were together, and my momn worked for "fun" when i was a teen, but was home my whole young life. I'm home, i work and stuff too...but i will also never be able to keep a house like she did! lol if that was the litmus paper, i'd be a miserable failure as a mom too! :rofl:

just trying to get a grip and be the best me i can be, and own my own idiosyncrasies and life eperiences & wisdom as my unique gifts...rather than liabilities.