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ayeshahaqqiqa Donating Member (1000+ posts) Send PM | Profile | Ignore Thu Oct-15-09 06:22 PM
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21. Quite a few this month,
what with my mother's passing and all. Let's see if I can arrange in chronological order.

Late Sept--had a vision of my spirit returning to my own body. Over to the east were three beings standing, side by side. (This becomes important when you read the last entry).

Went to see mom in hospital--saw my late stepfather by her bedside, waiting for her. Rather impatiently, too, according to my husband, who also sensed his presence.

Oct. 2--on vigil at nursing home. Mom had opted for hospice care and had refused to eat or drink. This time I didn't sense my stepfather being around. I called upon my spiritual teachers (this is called the Silsula in Sufism, and you are spiritually connected to a chain of teachers stretching back to the Prophet and the Angel Gibril when you are initiated), and we did zkr together. I felt it was a sacred time and sacred space. I physically felt the teachers touch and hold my hands. At one point, we were creating a lot of light, and I realized my mom's spirit was trying to enter it! I had to tell her that no, this wasn't the light to which she needed go. The teachers helped block her entrance. I now understood why I felt mom wasn't in her body--she wasn't. She was trying to find the light.

Oct. 4--While praying at the bedside, I sensed a very deep, dark presence at the foot of the bed, just to the right of where I was sitting. It spooked me, and I immediately put up shields. Was given inner guidance to tell mom I forgave her and that she needed to forgive herself. Repeated this as well as telling her I loved her and that I was thankful for all that she had done. Felt the sorrow that had appeared just below my heart chakra lighten each time I did this. I got the sense this was mom's dark night of the soul, and that I was helping her get rid of the negative baggage and guilt she'd carried around most of her life.

Oct. 5--While taking a nap in the afternoon, I had a dream. In it, I was making rounds with a mystical friend who works with people on both sides, as it were. She led me to an exam room and said, "This is a new one here. Her name is Elizabeth." The woman turned, and it was my mother, a mischievous grin on her face(most unlike her, btw, to even grin). I said, "That's not Elizabeth, that's Louise, and I've known her 58 years." When I awoke, I knew her body would shut down that night, and that she would be free to leave. And that is what happened.

Oct. 6--My nephew sat down at the family piano and played a hymn I'd never heard before--which immediately touched my heart and helped me through the next few days--it allowed me to release that which needed to be released. It is called, "Be Thou My Vision", and these two verses struck home:
Be Thou my vision, oh lord of my heart
Naught be all else to me, save that thou are
Thou my best thoughts by day or by night
Waking or sleeping, thy presence my light.

Great king of heaven, thy victory won
May I reach heaven's joys, bright heaven's son
Heart of my own heart, whatever befall
Still be my vision, oh ruler of all.

Oct. 8--Day of the memorial--Looked for mom, but sensed she was only vaguely there, unlike my stepfather, who was there in shining glory at his funeral some five years before. As we left, however, I understood why; freed at last from her negativity, she was walking, arm in arm, with two gentlemen, all with their backs to me. The three I had seen in my first vision? Perhaps. I do know that I feel I had continued my tradition of service in helping family members cross over.
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