Please help

[yasmina27]

before I married my husband I was involved with someone else. I became pregnant. and before I knew that we had broken up.

By the time I realized I was pregnant, I had had a lot to drink over our break-up and also smoked, I also knew that I was in no position to support a baby, nor could I emotionallly give a baby up for adoption (another long family story).

I chose to have an abortion. I'm not proud, but it is what is is.

He threw it in my face tonight and I will never forgive him. In the presence of our almost 12 yo dd he said that he could never run for political office because I visited a "baby butcher". Of course she had no idea what he meant, but it cut a knife through my heart.

I plan to discuss my choices in life at an appropriate time with my dd's, but they are too young right now and I HATE him for what he's done. I already told him to get out, but he's laying in bed now. I will sleep downstairs tonight, but have no idea what tomorrow will bring.

Please pray for me and wisdom to do the right thing.