Help? advice? personal problem, Do Not Read if you're gonna argue

[stuntcat]

I've been on the pill for years, my husband and I rarely 'do it' but our anniversary was last week, so we did it. But I'd forgotten to take my pills for TWO days. Now I'm worried and I have to wait three more weeks before I can be sure nothing's wrong.

I've asked my gynecologist every year when I see her if she can recommend (prescribe or whatever) for me to get an operation so I just CAN'T ever get pregnant. I mean lately I'm hearing about ladies in their early 20's getting their tubes tied. But she always talks me out of it, saying stuff about "complications".. I don't know, I don't even remember her excuses but I give in every time and just take my prescription for a year of the pill, which I have to order from England since our insurance won't fucking cover them.
Anyway what I need to make clearer to the doctor is my brain damage. I suffered a TBI a few years ago that I've mostly recovered from but every day I still forget things, like sometimes to take the pill. If I GET PREGNANT just because I forgot the pill a couple of nights I WILL kill myself. That might sound dramatic but I will NOT give MY child the rest of this century no matter what.

I'm alone where I live. I can't drive. The only people I know around here are some 70-90 year old women I volunteer with, and they're all Republicans, I am not going to ask them for advice or references or whatever. Other than that I just have my husband's parents, they live 4 miles away, but I am wrecking their whole existence just by not having a baby so they're NOT gonna help me if I have an emergency.

I guess what I need here is reassurance..
Do y'all think forgetting two days of the pill could mean I'm pregnant?
Also, my husband and I "do it" 3, maybe 4, times a year. So even though ONE of those times just happened to be on the day after I forgot my pill, could I still be safe? Like maybe the odds are just good for me anyway?

Also, who do you look up in the phone book to get your tubes tied? I'll have to get a cab to the operation since my husband and his family aren't about to drive me to it but fuck them, I'd rather die than have a baby :mad: :mad:

I don't have anyone to talk with about this. I just have to let it out, and I need some reassurance or something.



EDIT: okay I just got a call back from my doctor's office, the nurse gave me the name and number of a doctor who does tubals!!! Now I just have to wait 3 more weeks to make sure nothing happened this time.