I've been here for almost 2 years now, and I have an ugly secret to confess.

[Lil Missy]

I make no apologies, because I simply do not like to discuss it, and on a personal level I always keep my cards close to the vest. Nevertheless, the damned demons of the past can rear their ugly heads on occaision. It sure has for me, and also with some of my closest friends. And right now, we cannot figure whether to scratch our watches, or wind our asses.

This is the thread that explains some of how this started.

http://www.democraticunderground.com/discuss/duboard.php?az=view_all&address=105x8390986

My secret? My confession? I lost my son due to a tragic accident. And serious neglect. It involved City and State, and a LOT of heartbreaking retaliation from them. Fines were assessed, (to them) news reports were endless, and a court case ensued. I won, in a unanimous verdict, BTW. It was absolutely horrible what they put me through.

I held my son for 18 hours that night he was on life support. When the inevitable became apparent, I practically lifted him off the bed to hold him. I said, it's okay, and mommy is going to help you. (die) Hardest fucking thing I have ever done in my life. But I did that out of love.

Just had to get that off my chest. Thanks for listening.