I can't sleep. I have a question on your opinion on this.

[Jamastiene]

I've never been a morning or daytime person. I'm cracking up from this awful schedule. I've been thinking about the hours. I could sleep from about 4:00 until 11:00 PM in the evenings and have my precious nights back. I'd still have to stop everything and go to classes in the mornings and early afternoons, but I would definitely be able to have more sleep and more time to get things done.

Should I go for it and start tonight? I can't sleep anyway tonight. I tried reading a book, "And I Don't Want To Live This Life" by Deborah Spungen. I ended up reading a few more chapters than I thought I would. I looked over and it said 1:30AM. I had no idea. I wanted to read more but knew I should stop.

My attitude has gotten worse and worse lately. I hate faking the straight life. It ain't for me. Is there any legal way I can make a decent amount of money without having to be up in the daytime?

I'm still thinking too much to go to bed just yet. So, on the first question: should I switch my schedule to be up at night again. What do you think? Any suggestions for what to do when I get terribly honery and ill at the freepers around me tomorrow? I mean if I keep trying to fake this life, who knows what may happen. I had a flash thought earlier. What if I end up getting a job at some place like Perdue in the morning hours? That would definitely be worse than Wal-Mart. They at least clean the fish tanks at Wal-Mart. I've been behind a few Perdue trucks. Those poor chickens. I don't really like eating chicken after seeing that. The smell...It's all so horrible. There is nothing of beauty in this town. Nothing. It's just all pain and misery and freepers and ugliness. Has anyone else ever noticed that blue cities are beautiful and have great architecture and museums and great things to see and do, yet freep towns are depressing ugly and boring? Or is it just me? My mind is, as you can see, racing with thoughts on life and how I could make mine less depressing and mundane. It just won't let up.