Reply #43: Useless male response....

[sendero]

... this won't be helpful but reading your story makes me, well, angry.

This guy needs to meet 3 guys in a dark alley (I'd happily be one) and get the stuffing beat out of him.

You mom is almost certainly cowed by this neaderthal thug and is probably afraid to confront him on any level. Again, he needs to have the shit beat out of him - that is no way to treat people and especially no way to treat a woman.

You probably are not going to be able to get your mom to do anything, but YOU need to get out of this toxic environment as fast as you can. I know it is easy for me to say and hard for you to do, but really, YOU HAVE TO AND SOON.

As for panic attacks, I suffered with them for a time and they are living hell - anyone who hasn't had one doesn't have ANY IDEA what kind of mind-f*ck they are. Can you get some kind of medical help? I hate thinking you are dealing with that too. Maybe if you get away from thug-man you will stop having them???

I hope you find a way to a better place.