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In reply to the discussion: I deserve to die [View all]

get the red out

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22. Managed to nap
Wed Sep 13, 2017, 05:15 PM
Sep 2017

Took some melatonin and managed to take a nap. I still despise myself but am trying to keep going. My husband had to go out for a while but the dogs are here.

I can knit again. I was so dead on Effexor I couldn't get pleasure from hobbies or anything. Effexor was an evil drug for me, it took all joy away then stopped treating the depression. I will see the Psychiatrist tomorrow morning. My insurance only covers seeing a resident Psychiatrist at the University who is overseen by an attending. This is ok, since I have loved every resident I have had, but I need to tell the attending that I am not going to throw away my life because they guilt trip me when I complain about how I feel on a medication. I should have been off this stuff a year ago but it was implied that I just needed to work harder in therapy. The attending may need for me to express that, even though confrontation terrifies me.

Thanks for asking how I am doing. I married a good man and I have a terrific boss at work, so I am still breathing.

I deserve to die [View all] get the red out Sep 2017 OP
Oh gosh... looks like I'm the only one here right now. femmocrat Sep 2017 #1
Thank you get the red out Sep 2017 #2
Please get hold of a doctor today! femmocrat Sep 2017 #10
Thank you get the red out Sep 2017 #16
You should contact your provider immediately and express your feelings. tymorial Sep 2017 #3
You deserve to be healthy, and happy with who you are. Lilyhoney Sep 2017 #4
Remember. Your dogs need and love you and he/she doesn't want anything to happen to you. democratisphere Sep 2017 #5
You don't deserve to die. liberalmuse Sep 2017 #6
yes your dogs need you....they depend on you... samnsara Sep 2017 #7
No you don't Lotusflower70 Sep 2017 #8
You don't deserve to die TubbersUK Sep 2017 #9
Thank you so much get the red out Sep 2017 #11
Stay around, at least for your dogs' sake. BigmanPigman Sep 2017 #12
I am so sorry get the red out Sep 2017 #19
Please get help now Freddie Sep 2017 #13
I got an apt to see my Dr tomorrow get the red out Sep 2017 #15
Get some help. shenmue Sep 2017 #14
Home and feel safe now get the red out Sep 2017 #17
The wrong medication can crash you. The right medication is a god send and can give you a new applegrove Sep 2017 #24
Amen to this cyclonefence Sep 2017 #29
Totally agree OceanChick Sep 2017 #33
Thanks for the encouraging update that you feel safe. You will get over this. John1956PA Sep 2017 #18
Thanks so much for updating us TubbersUK Sep 2017 #20
how are you doing this afternoon? irisblue Sep 2017 #21
Managed to nap get the red out Sep 2017 #22
If you haven't responded to a medication after six weeks marylandblue Sep 2017 #28
Effexor made me a Zombie OceanChick Sep 2017 #34
Big time Zombie get the red out Sep 2017 #35
you mentioned your Border Collies up thread irisblue Sep 2017 #23
Perhaps tomorrow get the red out Sep 2017 #31
Hello. hunter Sep 2017 #25
I appreciate your insight get the red out Sep 2017 #32
You deserve TO LIVE! You are valuable. You are not the hate spewing evil that was pointed at you. onecaliberal Sep 2017 #26
Some of the worlds most creative people were chronically depressed. Throck Sep 2017 #27
You deserve to live, and you deserve to Ilsa Sep 2017 #30
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