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In reply to the discussion: I deserve to die [View all]get the red out
(13,456 posts)Took some melatonin and managed to take a nap. I still despise myself but am trying to keep going. My husband had to go out for a while but the dogs are here.
I can knit again. I was so dead on Effexor I couldn't get pleasure from hobbies or anything. Effexor was an evil drug for me, it took all joy away then stopped treating the depression. I will see the Psychiatrist tomorrow morning. My insurance only covers seeing a resident Psychiatrist at the University who is overseen by an attending. This is ok, since I have loved every resident I have had, but I need to tell the attending that I am not going to throw away my life because they guilt trip me when I complain about how I feel on a medication. I should have been off this stuff a year ago but it was implied that I just needed to work harder in therapy. The attending may need for me to express that, even though confrontation terrifies me.
Thanks for asking how I am doing. I married a good man and I have a terrific boss at work, so I am still breathing.