Well, I just had another breakdown here at work.

[Denninmi]

5. Tobin, nothing material has changed.

No event, no development.

In one sense, I am just feeling sorry for myself today.

In another sense, I am furious over how this played out. I'm not sure if I'm more upset with her for her methods, or myself for being so naive and stupid about what I said to her. As I have said probably ad nauseum, I was just trying to be brutally honest, I thought it was necessary to be completely honest with your physician. Now I question whether I will ever be comfortable doing that, whether I can ever trust a doctor again. I want to, they are probably like ever other group of humans, 95% are good and do as they should, but it's the bad 5% we remember most.

I'm a good guy, I never hurt anyone in my life, and I never will. I'm a good guy who was in a bad place in life, and I just wanted help and support, and instead I was treated like a criminal, and it made me think everything important to me in life was taken away from me.

I'll be ok, these little setbacks last a few days, and then I channel all of this whatever it is, fear, anger, sorrow, grief, mourning for what was taken from me through no real fault of m, I channel it into moving forward with all I've got.

But today, just for a little while, I'm feeling sorry and wallowing in it. Tomorrow is another day, and I'll be ok.