I hope that you are in an environment where you are loved and accepted and supported for who you are. Your post reminds me somewhat of what Dr. Sachs went through.
I think a remarkable and wonderful thing about my son's generation of kids is how accepting they are of different races, nationalities, sexual orientations they are. I'm sixty, and in m lifetime, it wasn't until I was in my teens when being LGBT stopped being considered a mental disorder. As a young man, I was somewhat of a homophobe myself, although I couldn't hold a candle to my father and step mother. They made my little sister's life MISERABLE when she revealed her bisexuality. I think hat that may have contributed to her suicide at 29 in 1996.
I wish you happiness, joy and peace.
PEACE!