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Response to akbacchus_BC (Reply #95)

Thu Apr 23, 2015, 11:35 PM

98. I just got hit with another blow that is the ruin of me

I found out today that the slumlord hired and attorney and filed a Complaint against me that of course is going to be full of outrageous lies and damand a ridiculous judgment award. I'd have to file an Answer, and I need an attorney to do that, and even if I could possibly afford one which is just laughable if it wasn't so horrible by May 10th. If I don't file an Answer it's like I agree with whatever outrageous crap is in the Complaint, I lose, and she'll get some kind of award just because I'm too poor and days away from losing my beloved Yoshi that is my only emotional support and every damn thing I own that I worked a lifetime to acquire including all those mementos from my life going back to my childhood.

I can't find a way out of this horrible mess. I've struggled so hard and went without sleep to find whatever I needed to find and did everything I could and worked with these worthless agencies that do nothing but waste your time and jerk you around, who tell you one thing or the complete opposite depending on who you talk to after finally getting someone on the phone after being put through automated phone hell that goes nowhere, give you false names so you can never find them again, and on and on and on. One of those agencies told me they could help me with utility bills, not to pay them and bring them to their intake process so they could deal with them for me, but when I did that it turned out to be some mental health clinic they expected me to pay for and had no clue what I was talking about concerning my bills or housing problem or anything. I ended up having to pay them myself almost getting thrown off the water company's poor person's plan because I didn't pay it on time, and I didn't because that agency asshole LIED to me just to get me into a mental health intake full of VERY seriously nutso people. And she won't return a single one of my many messages ever since. Then yesterday I find out that she told my one brother who has at least been trying to help me find some kind of government help that he wasn't ALLOWED to talk to me anymore at ALL utterly destroying the only contact I'd managed to build with anyone in my family that gave a smidgen of a damn.

Being abandoned by my own family has been the most emotionally and mentally painful blow, and I have no idea why or how it even happened. We've talked all the time in group emails on the interenet sending each other funny pictures and joking about things in the past, and I'll never stop being slaughtered by their absolute disintrest that I'm about to be thrown on the street with nowhere to go, losing my whole life and having no way to get out of it. They don't care that I'd have to sleep in the gutter, eat out of garbage bins and have to find some private corner in public to go to the bathroom. And I'm not going to do that. I don't have whatever magical survival instinct that few people have to have the strength to live such a hopeless and horrible existance. It's not life, it's torture. I can't be that kind of person because I've never had that kind of inner strength, but I have no other option other than to somehow take myself out of this misery of a worthless life.

Thank you soooo much for chipping in though now I really think that I just have no more chance. I just don't see any way to come up with the money I'd need to save myself even if I had a job before this eviction nightmare happened since without outside help from somewhere I just can't come up with enough or in time, and there is no real legal aid or social services - I found that out the hard way. I've tried absolutely everything that anyone has advised and even my own ideas, and there just isn't anything.

Jesus, I'm so sorry to dump on you like this. I probably just should have said nothing. I'll shut up now.



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