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In reply to the discussion: Spectrum of eating disorders and society (Warning a couple possibly graphic photos) [View all]JustAnotherGen
(31,810 posts)21. I am a bulimic
I was a practicing bulimic from the age of 12 and 1/2 when a ballet instructor made me where the Class Porker T-Shirt when he weighed us in weekly. Two days later I would get my first period.
It was not until I was 25 that I went into a hospital for treatment.
I say I AM a bulimic - not was - because I struggle every single day to to not allow body dysmorphia or internal expectations to overcome my mind.
In your OP - you stated -
As to excuses... yup, I've heard them all from all three types of people. I used to have mine to. It wasn't a moment of epiphany... nope, it was more finding what I could do about it and what would work for me. And yes, a healthy dose of FU to the society at large. So I will never meet your true ideal of beauty... so what?
Have you ever been in group with anamias, anas, and mias? Do you know how entrenched and how fucked up chemically the brain of one of those men or women in his? Did you know that bulimics - including myself literally get a physical rush when throwing up. I can also give myself the rush if I'm on a glider/treadmill/cross trainer for 2-3 hours - It's better than X.
Now - I would say I'm rare in that I didn't experience sexual abuse as a child - at my second treatment facility - the Mias were treated and kept separately. Of the 13 in my group - only two of us were not sexually abused. 3 were men and ten were women.
See - I don't disagree - I do believe that Obesity (severe) that has had a physical reason ruled out is the result of trauma.
My trauma as a Mia who was PREDISPOSED to perfection (lets talk about me crying because I got 4 stars instead of 5 on a math test in Kindergarten - sobbing uncontrollably) - was someone hitting a 12.5 year old girl at a cusp time of a ton of change.
But I guess I'm trying to understand the statement about 'making excuses' and finding what works for you.
See - that image of the rail thin girl seeing herself in the mirror? I still have the roll of my life size self portrait from when I was 25. I really drew myself on the lines of Queen Latifah but at the time - at 5 feet 5 inches I weighed 105 pounds.
A mia, anamia, ana - they truly - WE TRULY need to have our brain chemistry changed. We get high not on cocaine, liquor, pot, meth, etc. etc. We get high from controlling THE SUBSTANCE that you actually need to live. And from what I know from my O.A. meetings on and off over the years - so do Binge Eaters that do not purge or excercise purge.
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Spectrum of eating disorders and society (Warning a couple possibly graphic photos) [View all]
nadinbrzezinski
May 2012
OP
I know someone who is going through this. It all seems evidence that something profoundly
patrice
May 2012
#1
in the universal law area, i really do not believe it is so much about willpower. i have found
seabeyond
May 2012
#25
i will have to disagree with you. and could argue that it is NOT that simple because of all
seabeyond
May 2012
#23
This is so full of half-truths and inaccuracies that it borders on the irresponsible.
Brickbat
May 2012
#27