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In reply to the discussion: My son committed suicide 1/27/2022-I heard from the White House staff [View all]crimycarny
(1,351 posts)When my husband and I were trying to come up with his tribute obituary we tried to think of a funny story from a time he got in trouble for something. Neither one of us could think of a single time he had been in trouble (we still cant). He was always such a PERFECTIONIST, including following the rules. He was always so hard on himself that there was no need to get on him even if he had gotten in trouble.
What fooled me into thinking he was doing ok was his sense of humor. He loved making the ironic comment and making others laugh. That was his thing, making others laugh. Even the night before he ended his life he made a funny comment about going out to get his younger brother fast food (as usual). The next day he was dead.
We found notes after he died where he was so full of self loathing it broke my heart in two. How could I have not known? What sort of mother was I?
We always had looooooong conservations about politics. He was a Bernie Sanders supporter in the primaries but quickly got behind Joe Biden. He used to troll on the Trump subreddit (I couldnt even bear to read those posts) and was a fierce warrior for the underdog. I wish hed been that same warrior for himself.