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In reply to the discussion: This is a thread about suicide and ambivalence toward it... [View all]Lionessa
(3,894 posts)suicidal thoughts most of my life and still daily I wake up thinking, "f' another f'ing day." before I yank my attitude around and make the best of it...
There is nothing hateful about your feelings here. Suicide, particularly with adults, is a personal choice, a personal weighing of factors wherein tomorrow isn't worth the effort. I haven't committed suicide obviously and haven't attempted in very long time, but those that know me, know to let me be there, let me talk about it, ... even my children grew up knowing mother might and that it would never be a reflection on them but a reaction to the bizarre and black/grey cloud life that seems inevitable for me. So even with my children, now grown, but even before that, I've been free to discuss to comment even to say, today is one of those days, and know that none, and I mean NONE of the usual hateful and guilt-forcing remarks would come from those I spoke with. That alone has probably helped keep me alive.
Demonizing suicide will nearly always guarantee it, imo.
You are fine.
Hugs!