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This is not easy.

not that most anything is. That being said the whole of us, we US citizens are struggling through just to get through the day and sometimes just to get through an hour. It is overwhelming, to me at least.
I'm prety independent and can live for days with only my self and reading the internet and reading a book. I'm an optimist. There is always, most always that the sunny side is up and the dark clouds are dispersed.
This is good, though while I lie in bed thoughts of my mortality interferes. I think of Star Trek and the Klingon "A Good Day to Die" My dream sequences take me to a maze of doors, rooms and offices that which I have never wandered through. Enough of that. I become bored.
I have so many chores, laundry, dishes, put away winter clothes, iron summer shirts, weed wack garden...yet I want to climb into bed in a fetal position. It works for while yet I grip to a lifeline, who? No one. I must do this myself. Daunting. But what, I ask, is the alternative?

I do not want to die from covid-19

I'm a representative payee to a disblabled neighbor. His disability is not physical but mental, bipolar. He's easily frustrated but manages to somewhat control himself. He's had an ongoing feud with another neighbor with cops being called on a regular basis. He was finally forced to move as his property was bought by a real estate company. He owned his trailer but not the lot.

I digress. His mother died 3 years ago and she ruled him with an iron fist. When she became unable to drive to the bank to get his disablity checks and grocery shopping I volunteered to drive them. She insisted upon paying me and I would not accept the money. I spoke with friends (i'm a yankee from ny state) and my southern friends said that that's wat we southerners do. reluctantly I accepted the money. The family of 3 sisters and 2 sons fought over her car and her trailer. My disabled neighbor had a handwritten note from his mom that he would get the trailer and the car. This siblings threatened him saying they were going to admit him to a psych. ward. He prevailed. He then chose me over his siblings to be is representative payee.

So for several years now I have on the 3rd of the month drive him to his bank, he has no credit card and no debit card so he usually takes out 1,300.00 in cash a month to pay his bills etc. The reason he can't drive is 12 years ago he got a dui. In order to get his license back he has to pay a lot of money for classis etc.

On Tuesday July 7, 2020 I went to pick him up. When he got in I told him that he had to wear his face mask. He put it on and off we went. It's about a 25 minute drive. At one point he pushed his mask down to epose his nose saying he couldn't breath. Then he abandoned the whole thing so he could smoke. This is my failure to insist on his behavior in my car. I was furious as we continued on to home he had to stop here, then there then someplace else. I lost it and exploded as he tried to give me a 10.00 bill to make another stop. I gritted my teeth and waved away his 10.dollar bill saying "There are more thing important than money, Mike", drove him back home.

Some background to this story. He pays for sex. Despite his DUI he's been hanging out at a local bar that he rides his bicyle to. I had asked him, are they wearing masks inside? Nope. His go to prostitute has many guys she services. This is so tawdry and just ICK. So today worring about my own freaking health I called him up and said "hey mike, I think it would be best if you asked ''sister" to take you to you next psych. appointment.

I'm a senior in good health. I do not want to die. I'm careful wear my mask go out once in a while to shop, library etc. in off hours. I'm done with my former friend/neighbor.

Harrison goes on the attack against Graham in new South Carolina Senate ad

Source: https://thehill.com/homenews/campaign/505140-harri

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