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My Mother's dead. I don't know what to do. I'll never be able to hug (Original Post) littlemissmartypants Jun 2022 OP
Mine died over 30 years ago I still miss her, and cry Walleye Jun 2022 #1
39 years ago for me. I remember every detail of her last day. Peregrine Took Jun 2022 #60
Yes mine died of cancer too. She was such a good woman. So considerate of peoples feelings Walleye Jun 2022 #65
Sorry for your loss Raven123 Jun 2022 #2
I'm sorry. I know how you feel. n/t ms liberty Jun 2022 #3
Oh, I Am So Very Sorry DarthDem Jun 2022 #4
I'm so sorry, pants. brer cat Jun 2022 #5
Deepest Condolences 💓💓💓 SheltieLover Jun 2022 #6
((littlemiss)) blm Jun 2022 #7
I know how you feel..... secondwind Jun 2022 #8
My deepest condolences on your loss. greatauntoftriplets Jun 2022 #9
I'm so very, very sorry for your loss. dixiechiken1 Jun 2022 #10
I'm so very sorry, pants..💖🤷‍♂️ Cha Jun 2022 #11
I'm so sorry for your loss. It's a terrible emptiness. badhair77 Jun 2022 #12
Holding you cilla4progress Jun 2022 #13
Peace be with you. mobeau69 Jun 2022 #14
I am so sorry for you littlemissmartypants. bronxiteforever Jun 2022 #15
It is so hard pandr32 Jun 2022 #16
Heartfelt sympathy to you bucolic_frolic Jun 2022 #17
So sorry for your loss! Tadpole Raisin Jun 2022 #18
Oh no. Such a deep, crippling pain. (( love to you, little )) So sad. So sorry. ancianita Jun 2022 #19
Peace world wide wally Jun 2022 #20
I'm so sorry! redwitch Jun 2022 #21
I am so sorry for your loss. My Mom died in April. CousinIT Jun 2022 #22
I am sincerely sorry. Hugs to you. LoisB Jun 2022 #23
I'm so sorry wryter2000 Jun 2022 #24
Condolences on the loss of your beloved mother. gademocrat7 Jun 2022 #25
my friend, 😞 I am so sorry for your loss. peacebuzzard Jun 2022 #26
How heartbreaking PJMcK Jun 2022 #27
I'm so sorry Katcat Jun 2022 #28
My heart goes out to you. Collimator Jun 2022 #29
So very sorry. EOM Scottie Mom Jun 2022 #30
So sorry :( Elessar Zappa Jun 2022 #31
Hugs and Peace to you. IA8IT Jun 2022 #32
So sorry. mn9driver Jun 2022 #33
I'm so sorry. barbtries Jun 2022 #34
Hurts like hell Marthe48 Jun 2022 #35
since my parental units are gone , i feel hollow. AllaN01Bear Jun 2022 #36
... Delphinus Jun 2022 #37
My deepest condolences. My mother passed in 2015 at 96. sinkingfeeling Jun 2022 #38
I am so sorry for your loss. lark Jun 2022 #39
it will always hurt but the memories help over time. Hamlette Jun 2022 #40
I'm so sorry Danmel Jun 2022 #41
Oh my, I am so very sorry my littlemissmartypants gristy Jun 2022 #42
It hurts cally Jun 2022 #43
Every cell in your body ... Desert_Leslie Jun 2022 #44
Oh no.... BumRushDaShow Jun 2022 #45
I am so sorry for your loss. raging moderate Jun 2022 #46
That's lovely n/t Retired Engineer Bob Jun 2022 #57
I lost my mother a couple years ago Leith Jun 2022 #47
I'm so sorry. I lost my mom a few years ago, and it's highplainsdem Jun 2022 #48
I am so very sorry. KarenS Jun 2022 #49
I am SO sorry for your loss.. whathehell Jun 2022 #50
Sorry for your loss - a mother is impossible to replace. waterwatcher123 Jun 2022 #51
So very sorry for your loss. {{{{hug}}}} nt Shipwack Jun 2022 #52
I'm sorry for your loss, littlemisssmartypants... momta Jun 2022 #53
What a terrible loss for you. I am so sorry Wicked Blue Jun 2022 #54
It hurts lillypaddle Jun 2022 #55
Deepest condolences my good friend. NNadir Jun 2022 #56
My mom died almost thirty years ago. Cracklin Charlie Jun 2022 #58
I'm sorry for your loss. area51 Jun 2022 #59
I am so very sorry for your loss. revmclaren Jun 2022 #61
I am so sorry to hear this Retired Engineer Bob Jun 2022 #62
Fight malaise Jun 2022 #72
So very sorry for you. A Mother's love is everlasting. Fla Dem Jun 2022 #63
so, so sorry markie Jun 2022 #64
I am so very sorry. I lost my mother 31 years ago TNNurse Jun 2022 #66
I'm so sorry. mia Jun 2022 #67
This message was self-deleted by its author Skittles Jun 2022 #68
So sorry for your loss. Losing someone that important is devastating. I will miss mine forever yellowdogintexas Jun 2022 #69
My deepest condolences on your loss KS Toronado Jun 2022 #70
The most horrible moment malaise Jun 2022 #71
So sorry, losing your Mom is rough. TigressDem Jun 2022 #73
I am so sorry for your loss... Trueblue Texan Jun 2022 #74
I'm so sorry. Do you have famliy close by or good friends? Liberty Belle Jun 2022 #75
I'm so sorry cate94 Jun 2022 #76
Oh dear, very sad time for you. I'm so sorry. 2 Meow Momma Jun 2022 #77
I am so sorry for your loss. I lost my mom in 2017. Silver Gaia Jun 2022 #78
I am so sorry. Loryn Jun 2022 #79
Hugs to you. lunatica Jun 2022 #80
So sorry for your loss. A little over 32 years for my mom. She fought various cancers Scalded Nun Jun 2022 #81
I'm so sorry for the loss of your Mother. sdfernando Jun 2022 #82
I'm deeply sorry for your loss. It is very hard to lose your mother. PatrickforB Jun 2022 #83
My mother's physical body died in 2016, but she is still with me. Yours is too. housecat Jun 2022 #84
Heartfelt condolences to you and all who love her. PAMod Jun 2022 #85
My deepest condolences to you💔 virgdem Jun 2022 #86
I'm so sorry for your loss. Joinfortmill Jun 2022 #87
I'm sorry. ECL213 Jun 2022 #88
I'm so sorry for your loss minstrel76 Jun 2022 #89
I'm so sorry. Mine has been gone decades, now, and I still Ilsa Jun 2022 #90
Oh honey... I am SO sorry to read this. I lost my mother 18 years ago and trust me when I say that The_REAL_Ecumenist Jun 2022 #91

Walleye

(34,308 posts)
1. Mine died over 30 years ago I still miss her, and cry
Sun Jun 5, 2022, 03:16 PM
Jun 2022

I sometimes think that people are forced to endure ordeals way beyond our capacity to cope.

Peregrine Took

(7,493 posts)
60. 39 years ago for me. I remember every detail of her last day.
Sun Jun 5, 2022, 05:47 PM
Jun 2022

She was in a coma (cancer) at age 80.
About 20 minutes before she died she opened her eyes straight ahead- not at me - and smiled so big I'm like what does she see as she had been so miserable for days- this was a complete reversal.
She was so delighted with whatever she saw I ran downstairs to tell my SIL (mom was in home hospice) and we both ran back up stairs and she was already gone.

It was a sunny Sunday at 3:30 PM and my brothers were at the funeral directors selecting her coffin. We called them there and they raced back home. Then we called the funeral director and they came and got her and we watched them carry her down the stairs and into their very discreet station wagon.

Never forgot that moment but the only good things about it were she wasn't suffering anymore and she died at home and not in a hospital which is what she wanted.

Sorry for your sad loss!

Walleye

(34,308 posts)
65. Yes mine died of cancer too. She was such a good woman. So considerate of peoples feelings
Sun Jun 5, 2022, 06:32 PM
Jun 2022

Why it is that the good people have to suffer so much

Raven123

(5,852 posts)
2. Sorry for your loss
Sun Jun 5, 2022, 03:16 PM
Jun 2022

When my mother died, I reflected on those special moments, like hugs, and held them close. They are still there.

DarthDem

(5,342 posts)
4. Oh, I Am So Very Sorry
Sun Jun 5, 2022, 03:22 PM
Jun 2022

My very best to you. I hope you can cherish the wonderful memories of her to ease the pain.

SheltieLover

(58,893 posts)
6. Deepest Condolences 💓💓💓
Sun Jun 5, 2022, 03:25 PM
Jun 2022

So sorry for your tremendous loss.

Please be gentle with yourself & know that there is no timeline for resolving grief & the stages of grief are not linear.

Grieving is hard work physically, emotionally, & psychologically.

Please remember to eat healthy foods, sleep, & deep breathe to help you stay grounded & centered.

Please contact a hospice for bereavement therapy. They usually provide 13 mos of free counseling to support you through the "year of firsts" (birthdays, anniversaries, hidays, etc.).

I'm here for you, my friend.

secondwind

(16,903 posts)
8. I know how you feel.....
Sun Jun 5, 2022, 03:26 PM
Jun 2022

As time goes on, you can relish all the wonderful memories of her, that will keep her alive in your heart.

badhair77

(4,515 posts)
12. I'm so sorry for your loss. It's a terrible emptiness.
Sun Jun 5, 2022, 03:33 PM
Jun 2022

Find ways to be kind to yourself. I hope you find some peace.

bucolic_frolic

(46,156 posts)
17. Heartfelt sympathy to you
Sun Jun 5, 2022, 03:43 PM
Jun 2022

Each of us can say, "My mom's better than your mom ...." and mean it with all our souls because we each have our own experience. It doesn't make it any less painful when the time arrives. Hang in there, and reflect on the most enduring moments you can muster.

Tadpole Raisin

(1,369 posts)
18. So sorry for your loss!
Sun Jun 5, 2022, 03:44 PM
Jun 2022

When a friend of mine’s father died she decided to get counseling as the circumstances of his death were terrible. She went through 2 psychologists before finding the right match.

She said the counselor told her something that stuck with her:

People who don’t really know you may give you 2 weeks.
People who do know you may give you 2 months.

But it will likely take you 2 years or more to get through all the stages of grief.

Hang in there!

CousinIT

(9,784 posts)
22. I am so sorry for your loss. My Mom died in April.
Sun Jun 5, 2022, 03:51 PM
Jun 2022

Mother's Day was BRUTAL.

I hope you have family to share your grief with and can find strength and peace at this heartbreaking time. She'll always be with you but of course it's not the same as being able to talk to her, share with her and hug her. If you can be with family, do.



peacebuzzard

(5,222 posts)
26. my friend, 😞 I am so sorry for your loss.
Sun Jun 5, 2022, 03:58 PM
Jun 2022

so terribly sorry for this pain in your life; it is so hard to never see your mom again😿💔
so sorry,

PJMcK

(22,634 posts)
27. How heartbreaking
Sun Jun 5, 2022, 04:03 PM
Jun 2022

Condolences, littlemisssmartypants.

My mom died 11 years ago and there's not a single day I don't think of her. The intensely sharp pain has mellowed with time but the ache of missing her hasn't gone away. I still love her.

Peace.

Katcat

(331 posts)
28. I'm so sorry
Sun Jun 5, 2022, 04:03 PM
Jun 2022

My mother died in 2006 and I remember how at her funeral I just wanted to get in the coffin with her. She’d had dementia for years and was in a nursing home in another state so I didn't get to see her as much as I should have. But she didn’t have a drivers license and I was the one who drove her wherever she wanted every week. We had so much fun together and I’ll always have that to treasure and remember her by. Ha like the time I drove her to get her hair fixed and she went in and thr6 told her she didn’t have an appt but fixed her hair anyway. And when we came out she realized we were at the wrong salon. 😂😂

Collimator

(1,775 posts)
29. My heart goes out to you.
Sun Jun 5, 2022, 04:04 PM
Jun 2022

As others have pointed out, losing the woman who gave you life is one of the most difficult challenges that you will face. Grief is a journey and everyone's experience is unique to a degree--sort of like our mothers.

It has been 13 years since I lost my complicated, troubled mother and I am still working out my feelings about her. But I know that there is much to cherish and there are still a few small services that I can render to her. I try to offer emotional support to my brother who still feels her loss and I share her legacy of cancer survival with young parents. I savor the scent of lilacs because she loved their fragrance and I smile with the memory of bringing her handfuls of blossoms pinched from our neighbor's bush.

Sometime, far in the future, you will find your grief transmuting into little gems of memory, but for now, it just plain hurts. I hope that you are finding the practical and emotional support that you need in this time. You will find your way through this.

You don't have to be strong every minute of the day. Give over to your weakness when you need to. Just don't give in to it entirely. That is not what your mother would want for you.

lark

(23,846 posts)
39. I am so sorry for your loss.
Sun Jun 5, 2022, 04:24 PM
Jun 2022

It's been 7 years for me and it still hurts so much. I'm tearing up now, thinking of what my mother meant to me and how much I would love to see her angelic face and hug her and hold her cold hands and rub them and talk to her about her grandson. She was the only one who understood for many years and that loss has been unbearable.

Grieving is differrent for everyone, just be true to yourself and honor how you feel is the best advice I can give.

Danmel

(5,145 posts)
41. I'm so sorry
Sun Jun 5, 2022, 04:25 PM
Jun 2022

I lost my mom in 1999. It's so hard. Give yourself the time you need. Wishing you sweet memories.

Desert_Leslie

(131 posts)
44. Every cell in your body ...
Sun Jun 5, 2022, 04:30 PM
Jun 2022

... is made from your mother. I talk to my deceased mom quite a bit, and hug her daily (I hug myself, that is.)

So very sorry for your loss.

BumRushDaShow

(139,109 posts)
45. Oh no....
Sun Jun 5, 2022, 04:32 PM
Jun 2022

Sending all my heartfelt sympathies.

I lost mine 7 years ago and still miss her badly but do "hear" her when she would nag me about stuff, so I go and follow the "orders" (although I still have a ways to go with some stuff).

Try to think of those happy memories and the things that you find yourself doing that she would do. But most importantly, go ahead and grieve and take your time doing it. It can be overwhelming but over time, it will pass.

We are here for you.

raging moderate

(4,477 posts)
46. I am so sorry for your loss.
Sun Jun 5, 2022, 04:37 PM
Jun 2022

My mother died about 25 years ago. I still cry a little sometimes. The memories of hugging her do stay with you for comfort. Several times in the year after her death, my mother came to me in a dream. I cried out, "Mom!" and we hugged and smiled together. She said "Thank you," but then she had to leave. One day, several years later, I was making myself a peanut butter sandwich, and I thought: I wonder what my Mom is doing right now. Suddenly, a forceful answer came into my mind: "Well, right now, I am making a peanut butter sandwich for my daughter!" Then I looked down at my hands and realized: My mother's hands were the first hands I ever saw doing this, and she is the person who taught me how to do this, and so many other parts of living. Your many memories of your mother will always be with you, and also she stays with you in every other moment of your life, through the love she shared with you.

Leith

(7,850 posts)
47. I lost my mother a couple years ago
Sun Jun 5, 2022, 04:37 PM
Jun 2022

It's rough some times, but I grieve and it lessens for a while. I do things that remind me of her and it helps me feel better. For example, I used to call her every Sunday so I have my coffee every Sunday in a cup that she gave me as a gift. It has a small chip in it and the pattern is faded, but I do it because it helps me remember her.

I'm very sorry for your sorrow. It will overwhelm you for a while, then as time goes by, it will get better. You will start to think of her and smile. Be well.





highplainsdem

(51,668 posts)
48. I'm so sorry. I lost my mom a few years ago, and it's
Sun Jun 5, 2022, 04:41 PM
Jun 2022

such a terrible loss, losing your mother. Sending hugs, and prayers.

KarenS

(4,541 posts)
49. I am so very sorry.
Sun Jun 5, 2022, 04:43 PM
Jun 2022

Sending ((Hugs))

It's been nearly 10 years since Mom passed away and really more than that as she had dementia and left us nearly 2 years before that,,,,
It's both terrible and awful. But then I could picture her right by my side and could talk with her whenever I wanted,,,, When I made the bed in the morning when I cut up fruit when I made Holiday meals when I sewed she was there and I could talk with her,,,,

whathehell

(29,579 posts)
50. I am SO sorry for your loss..
Sun Jun 5, 2022, 04:46 PM
Jun 2022

Having been through it myself, I can only tell you that it DOES get better with time..All our hugs.

momta

(4,099 posts)
53. I'm sorry for your loss, littlemisssmartypants...
Sun Jun 5, 2022, 04:55 PM
Jun 2022

I lost my mom when I was sixteen. That was 42 years ago, and I still miss her.

"Sorry for your loss" seems very petty, but nothing feels meaningful. Right after my mom's death I remember watching a commercial and thinking "Why does anyone care about breakfast cereal right now? Don't they know my MOM just died?"

Hang in there. She was obviously a very special person.

Cracklin Charlie

(12,904 posts)
58. My mom died almost thirty years ago.
Sun Jun 5, 2022, 05:21 PM
Jun 2022

I still talk to her every single day. I imagine she’s getting sick of me.

Sorry for your loss. I know it hurts.

62. I am so sorry to hear this
Sun Jun 5, 2022, 05:51 PM
Jun 2022

We all grieve at our own pace, in our own way. Your mother’s spirit lives on through your shared memories, cherish them always.

I lost my father in December 2019, grandma in January 2020. Recent cancer diagnosis may have me as the next runner up. I called my mother last night just to let her know how I am doing. I have good days, and plenty of not so good days, yesterday was a definite “not good day”.

I’m usually pretty good with my husband and warn him “I going to be a difficult ass” when he comes home from work on these bad days. I neglected to do this last night with mom. I proceeded to argue with her about my funeral planning, and said some things I now regret. Thank you littlemisssmartypants for the reminder to call her back tonight to try to make amends.

I pray that you are not alone, now is the time you will need to lean people for additional support.

Fla Dem

(25,360 posts)
63. So very sorry for you. A Mother's love is everlasting.
Sun Jun 5, 2022, 05:53 PM
Jun 2022

Lost my Mom when I was only in my late 20's. Over 40 years ago. I still feel her presence and I often talk to her.

It will be heartbreaking not to have her around, but she'll always be with you.

TNNurse

(7,076 posts)
66. I am so very sorry. I lost my mother 31 years ago
Sun Jun 5, 2022, 06:36 PM
Jun 2022

after a long illness. I know one thing. Your mother is always with you. It will not be the same, but she is there in your heart and mind.
It will get easier.

Response to littlemissmartypants (Original post)

yellowdogintexas

(22,645 posts)
69. So sorry for your loss. Losing someone that important is devastating. I will miss mine forever
Sun Jun 5, 2022, 08:22 PM
Jun 2022

Every day something will happen or someone will say something that reminds me of her and pretty much always makes me smile or laugh out loud. Sometimes it is as simple as using one of her favorite expressions.

When she died my grief was not raw as in other losses; she had dementia and for my sisters and me she really had been gone for a couple of years. I just hated that she was no longer there as her old self and that she would miss her grandchildren's weddings and the births of their children. She died in 2004 and four of her five grandchildren were 20 yrs old or younger, and none of the great grandchildren had been born.

My sisters and I are fortunate to be very close and we talk about the things we remember a LOT; we all remember different things because we are 5 & 7 years apart and we each experienced her differently We usually end up laughing because she was so damn funny. So don't hesitate to laugh, it is very healing.

I hope you have siblings or cousins or her close friends - folks you really care about who also cared deeply for her. You will always be a great comfort to one another. I also hope you all remember and talk about the fun and funny times - it helps a lot. (when my grandmother died at age 102, we all sat around telling Granny stories, and there were a ton of them! Things like that really help)

The cliche is "it will get better" Well, it does, but that getting better part is not on a timeline. You are not going to go through the stages of grief on a set schedule. Everyone feels and processes things differently and those who don't understand that can just go sit on a tack. (as my mom used to say - and that made me smile)

malaise

(276,251 posts)
71. The most horrible moment
Mon Jun 6, 2022, 08:37 AM
Jun 2022

All I can say is that in time you’ll replace grief with beautiful memories.
One more thing- her voice is embedded in your brain. Deepest sympathy

TigressDem

(5,125 posts)
73. So sorry, losing your Mom is rough.
Mon Jun 6, 2022, 09:13 AM
Jun 2022

All I can say is that every bit of your pain and grief is a sign of how deeply and truly you loved her, so even as it hurts, be glad that you had that love with her in the first place.

Not all people are close to their Mom's. I wasn't as close as I wanted to be. And ironically with her death I have gotten closer to her in some ways as I believe in the idea that the Spirit lives on in our hearts with our love.

So on every occasion that I am reminded both my parents are gone and I feel that pain, I also get to feel the joy of knowing there was much love and I am not letting that go to waste.

Every tear I cry for their loss is also deepening the river of joy I knew when they lived.

So grieve as you must, but know that your pain is making way for future joy and gratitude.

Liberty Belle

(9,596 posts)
75. I'm so sorry. Do you have famliy close by or good friends?
Mon Jun 6, 2022, 09:59 AM
Jun 2022

Reach out to them and don't be afraid to ask for help when needed.

My Mom died a month ago, and even though she'd had dementia for 13 years and had no memory left, I still miss her every day.

Treasure the memories and be glad you had a loving mother -- so many people don't.

Reconnect with old friends and family members you haven't heard from in a while. I've reconnected with cousins I hadn't spoken with in years, found out some family history I didn't know about, and have an invitation to go visit one cousin out of state in the future.

Treat yourself to some escape from grief -- I loaded up my Kindle with books and spent hours reading in recent weeks.

If you're also the executor of your Mom's estate, there's another long list of hurdles and hassles to get through. I'm in process of clearing out Mom's house, a difficult and emotionally challenging job.

Take it one day at a time.

Hugs!

Silver Gaia

(4,704 posts)
78. I am so sorry for your loss. I lost my mom in 2017.
Mon Jun 6, 2022, 10:40 AM
Jun 2022

The pain does get easier to bear with time, but I know how sharp it feels when fresh like yours. My heart is with you.

Loryn

(975 posts)
79. I am so sorry.
Mon Jun 6, 2022, 10:58 AM
Jun 2022

I lost my mom 3 years ago, and miss her every day. I appreciate her more today than ever.

Bless you. Be kind to yourself.

lunatica

(53,410 posts)
80. Hugs to you.
Mon Jun 6, 2022, 11:23 AM
Jun 2022


My mom died in 2010. She was in home hospice so she died at home and peacefully. She had Dementia so it was like losing her twice. She was a brilliant woman before that. A wonderful cook and she had a great sense of humor. She was always there for me and I tried to be there for her in her last years.

I miss her so much. I still have her ashes and I have my son’s ashes too. I brought them with me when I moved from California. I feel so terribly lonely without them.

Your happy memories of her will come back. Just give yourself the time and room you need to go through the steps of the grieving process. It will heal you. A lot!

Scalded Nun

(1,321 posts)
81. So sorry for your loss. A little over 32 years for my mom. She fought various cancers
Mon Jun 6, 2022, 12:00 PM
Jun 2022

for over 30 years, most likely from childhood exposure to chemicals in Nazi Germany (she was left-handed...a no-no for kids). I miss her every day.

PatrickforB

(15,002 posts)
83. I'm deeply sorry for your loss. It is very hard to lose your mother.
Mon Jun 6, 2022, 12:40 PM
Jun 2022

May she have eternal rest from the travails of this world, and be enveloped in the perpetual light of Divine love.

PAMod

(924 posts)
85. Heartfelt condolences to you and all who love her.
Mon Jun 6, 2022, 01:29 PM
Jun 2022

You’ll grieve, and you’ll always miss her, but I promise you the day will come when the happy memories way outweigh the grief…

virgdem

(2,190 posts)
86. My deepest condolences to you💔
Mon Jun 6, 2022, 01:36 PM
Jun 2022

Take as much time as you need to grieve your Mom's loss. And get grief counseling if you feel you need it.
Peace to you.

Joinfortmill

(15,956 posts)
87. I'm so sorry for your loss.
Mon Jun 6, 2022, 01:41 PM
Jun 2022

My mother died in 2010. I sat in my condo for five days, alone, contemplating my complicated relationship with the person who was probably the closest to me before I had my children. It was August and it was hot. A large green bush outside my living room window had refused to flower that year. Who knows why. Maybe the gardeners hadn't fertilized it enough. Maybe the August heat was too much for the delicate blooms. On the last day before I was to go back to work, I sat by that window, sipping coffee and gazing outside. I noticed one small white flower on the bush. It was shaped like a tiny cross. My mother was a devout Catholic all her life. I was not. The longer I looked at that tiny flower, the more I felt that it was a sign from my mother. I felt certain she was now with her God. Was it a coincidence? A fluke? I don't know. I just know how I felt.
I don't know if you will ever receive a sign from your mom, but I wouldn't be surprised if you did. Love has no boundaries. In the meantime, you can hug her in your thoughts/dreams.

ECL213

(289 posts)
88. I'm sorry.
Mon Jun 6, 2022, 02:28 PM
Jun 2022

My mother wrote me a letter before she went in for brain surgery of a hopefully benign tumor, just in case. I got the letter about 8 months later when she died of the cancer they discovered. In it she said, "You will go on living, and the heavy feeling in your heart will get lighter."

It's been 34 years. The heavy feeling is still there, but I've grown strong carrying it around.

Ilsa

(62,135 posts)
90. I'm so sorry. Mine has been gone decades, now, and I still
Mon Jun 6, 2022, 03:12 PM
Jun 2022

miss her. She was a kind lady. It will take a few years to get through the immediacy of the pain, but thankfully it gets better eventually. In the meantime,

The_REAL_Ecumenist

(771 posts)
91. Oh honey... I am SO sorry to read this. I lost my mother 18 years ago and trust me when I say that
Mon Jun 6, 2022, 10:06 PM
Jun 2022

I miss woman every single day and don't you know that sometimes, I still find myself saying to myself i need to tell mom about something even picking up the phone & stopping when I remember she's gone. Same with my MIL & SIL who passed from clear cell renal carcinoma & apendeceal cancer. I still cry on the regular even after this much time has elapsed. I won't lie and say that because "time heals all wounds" doesn't really apply here BUT in time, when you think of her, you'll be able to smile which enevtually evolve into recalling funny quirks, hilarious episodes & other sweet things that you remember about your mom.

I don't know what you believe about the afterlife but after having undergone 3 NDE's, & my faith, I believe with all my heart that when your time comes, as it will for all of us, she'll be waiting for you to that long awaited hug in the beginning of the time that you'll NEVER be parted again.

In the meantime, please accept my deepest condolences & allow me extend a somber welcome to the "Motherless Girls Club".

HUGZ

For Your mommy May she have a wonderful journey home to be reunited with all of her loved ones who've gone before her.

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