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Response to Locut0s (Original post)

Fri Apr 26, 2013, 06:27 AM

1. I had a point in my life a couple of years ago where I was thinking of suicide nearly constantly

It still crosses my mind from time to time but I'm not obsessed with the idea the way I was and to be honest I'm really not sure what made the difference.

There is a possibility that things will get better for you, I think most of us are our own worst enemy.

"Life is what happens while you are busy making other plans." -John Lennon

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Response to Fumesucker (Reply #1)

Sun Apr 28, 2013, 05:50 AM

6. Yeah I can't wait till these 5 weeks are over and I have real time off...

Question is if I can make it that far without having a full breakdown. I hope so. Thanks.

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Response to Locut0s (Original post)

Fri Apr 26, 2013, 09:53 AM

2. Sending vibes your way

Sounds like you have no way but up. I worked at a treatment center in the 90's and some of the lab values, on especially on older folks, were way off the mark. Crazy high liver function numbers from drinking. They will reverse as you quit binging.
We gave our new patients an injection of vitamin B1 which depleted in the body from helping the liver detox. Chronic depletion leads to a dementia called Korsakoffs Syndrome. You have to be hardcore for a lot of years to get what they call "wet brain". Anyway that makes me think, you might help your energy level with a vitamin B supplement. The B vitamins help your nerves in general and B 12 has a role in energy and certain anemia. It could be a start?

Glad you are venting. Sometimes a person just needs a sounding board and not a lot of free advice. God, love ya. You must be intelligent, you are here at DU. Your politics are correct, the rest will fall into place.

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Response to libodem (Reply #2)

Sun Apr 28, 2013, 05:58 AM

7. Thanks for the support, it means a lot!...

And knowing that the liver numbers will probably improve with time is comforting. We will see what else my Dr says to me this Tuesday. The extreme exhaustion and muscle soreness worries me though it may just be the severe depression and stress. I'll have to look into the B 12 supplements I've heard about this before in relation to depression.

I had an older coworker who drank himself silly, probably to death. From that I learned about Korsakoff's and wet brain. He suffered horribly emotionally after watching his wife die slowly of cancer.

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Response to Locut0s (Original post)

Fri Apr 26, 2013, 09:54 AM

3. Sorry about the smilies

They were supposed to be at the end minus Mr party hat.

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Response to Locut0s (Original post)

Fri Apr 26, 2013, 10:43 AM

4. Okay well, the shortcut to psychward doesn't always include suicide.

You can say, "no, but I feel like hurting myself." Which like it or not, you are already doing that in one degree or another. Not that you should use this shortcut, but it's there.

(I hope some of my advice from another OP of yours is being applied.)

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Response to Neoma (Reply #4)

Sun Apr 28, 2013, 06:04 AM

8. Thank you. Yes I've thought of doing that...

The last time I went tot the ER and they turned me away I thought of saying something like that. I've always been far too much of a literalist and always look at rules as if they are set in stone and aren't bendable. Much of this relates back to my perfectionism and anxiety.

I have stopped drinking. Haven't started eating better yet, though I know I have too.

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Response to Locut0s (Original post)

Fri Apr 26, 2013, 10:31 PM

5. i lied when they asked me that

i had hit rock bottom and knew i needed help. i called my ex and he picked my shit-drunk, half-naked, sobbing ass up off my living room floor and drove me to the er. i was in the same pretty close but not exactly place, but was so desperate to get out of my absolute hell in which i was living that i told them that yes, i was afraid i was going to hurt myself.

i am almost honest to a fault, but i knew the only solution was to lie. it was the single best decision i've ever made.

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Response to fizzgig (Reply #5)

Sun Apr 28, 2013, 06:10 AM

9. Yes I thought of doing this before when I visited the ER last...

And they turned me away. Like you I'm honest to a fault.

I'm glad to hear that you are doing better and that you had a positive experience. I've heard some really bad stories about ER visits relating to emotional breakdowns. I guess the main thing they offer, even if in the long run it's not beneficial, is a short term vacation from your emotional hell. That certainly is very very helpful when you hit rock bottom!

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Response to Locut0s (Reply #9)

Sun Apr 28, 2013, 06:59 PM

10. it got me three days in the hospital

best thing that could have happened for me.

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