LGBT
Related: About this forumI'm an old woman now, but wonder if I missed
out on my life.
One thing I remember my mother telling me is that the only time she wanted her daughter to die is if she was a lesbian..
Didn't mean much to me at the time, but.
I was raped at eleven, and because I accepted beer from my rapists my mother blamed me for being raped. I turned into nymphomaniac..not that I enjoyed sex, I had it with anyone willing.
Then I joined AA and met a group of gay women, with whome I had sex with one.
I never had friends, but I enjoyed their friendship.
I left AA and that was the end of my gay encounters, though I think they were where I belonged, as I never felt like I belonged any where else.
I just wish I went with my instincts, rather than my mothers hatred.
Botany
(72,537 posts)If youre up against a bruiser and youre getting knocked about
Grin.
If youre feeling pretty groggy, and youre licked beyond a doubt
Grin.
Dont let him see youre funking, let him know with every clout,
Though your face is battered to a pulp, your blooming heart is stout;
Just stand upon your pins until the beggar knocks you out
And grin.
This lifes a bally battle, and the same advice holds true
Of grin.
If youre up against it badly, then its only one on you,
So grin.
If the futures black as thunder, dont let people see youre blue;
Just cultivate a cast-iron smile of joy the whole day through;
If they call you Little Sunshine, wish that THEYD no troubles, too
You may grin.
Rise up in the morning with the will that, smooth or rough,
Youll grin.
Sink to sleep at midnight, and although youre feeling tough,
Yet grin.
Theres nothing gained by whining, and youre not that kind of stuff;
Youre a fighter from away back, and you WONT take a rebuff;
Your trouble is that you dont know when you have had enough
Dont give in.
If Fate should down you, just get up and take another cuff;
You may bank on it that there is no philosophy like bluff,
And grin.
angstlessk
(11,862 posts)it's just that as the end gets closer, I kinda wish I lived my life as I should have.
MLAA
(18,635 posts)I wish you peace dear angstlessk. After all youve been through I wish you peace.
shenmue
(38,537 posts)handmade34
(22,929 posts)it is never too late to live our life as we want
TEB
(13,731 posts)dewsgirl
(14,964 posts)angstlessk
(11,862 posts)is the kindest, most forgiving community of all.
I did belong there, I think that is why I was so upbeat regardless of what happened to me...maybe there is a gay gene, cause all the gay people I met, men and woman were upbeat.
enough
(13,458 posts)in an uncannily brief passage of words.
I wonder if writing might be a path for you, or maybe youre already on it.
Peace to you.
angstlessk
(11,862 posts)but I've lost most of my rhymes over time.
omg...found an old post
https://angstless.wordpress.com/