Mom passed away peacefully last night...
It was hard, but we're hanging in there. Her pain has finally ended.
I cried like a little girl which I expected I would do. When I called my sister, the dam burst all over again. I thought that I had a better handle on it. The family and I went out to eat tonight and I left not long after eating some because it just hit me. I guess I should expect that to happen.
I notified only a few people, those closest to me and I left the rest of the notifications to others. I just couldn't do any more.
I'm already tired of being asked "are you okay?" I know they mean well and I'll be polite, but inside I'm screaming I'm fucking not okay.
The hospital bed and other items provided for Mom's care has to sit in the living room until Monday. That sucks, but I'm doing better with it than I thought I would.
Right now, I'm just going to take it one day at a time just like we have been doing before Mom passed.
It's just going to take time. Thanks everyone.
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I'm so sorry. It IS tough and it WILL take a lot of time.
Be good to yourself. Lean on people when you feel like it.
We have a terrific Bereavement group here.......come visit. Everyone hurts and you will get support if you want it.
https://www.democraticunderground.com/?com=forum&id=1234
Peace
May you find peace and comfort.
May she rest in peace, now that she is free of pain.
Here is a hug for you and your sister,
Be easy with yourself. Know that you are loved. I wish you peace.
moms are so tough to lose. Mine was sick for months, we knew it was coming, but I reacted like you did. It's so hard to say good-bye.
and that her pain has ended, but ache for you and your pain. Take care of yourself and cry all you need to - it's part of healing.
nobody, least of all you yourself, should expect that you would already be moving on this soon. Grief takes time, sometimes a lot of time.
May you all find comfort in the support from your friends and families. I lost my mom a year ago, and I still want to call her sometimes. When that happens, I try to remember something good about my memories of her. Many you find peace. Take care of yourself!
It happened to me in the spring and I was unprepared for the crashing waves of grief that followed. I thought because she was so ill and ready to go, that it would be easier than it was.
I was also unprepared for the physical effects -- like walking through quicksand sometimes.
I finally realized that it felt like all my cumulative losses, starting with my grandparents, had gotten rolled up into this one. The biggest one so far.
You know what to do -- you already said it. Take one day at a time and be patient with yourself. There's no way to hurry the process.
It's a tough thing.
and take all the time you need.
You have done so much, please do take it one day at a time.
And we are hear to listen...anytime.
Tikki
My mom passed this spring, I know that pain. Take it one day at a time & you will get through it.
Hugs to you and your family.
Take your time, cynatnite. Just take your time.
in this time of sorrow.
For your mother
I understand what you are going through. My 103 year old dad died less than two weeks ago. I'm still trying to wrap my brain around the fact that I will never see him again. Throughout the day little things happen and my first thought is to tell my dad about it because that's what I'm used to doing. And then reality hits, my life will never be the same. I'm heartbroken.
She will always be with you through this life. I am so sorry, so soon, so sad .....
any more than I am..however, while the pain does nto go away, it does get to the point where you can start living again, doing the sort of things that would make your mom proud 
My deepest condolences.
I'm very sorry for your loss.
But remember that the memories of the many wonderful moments shared by you and your mom will slowly re-emerge to take you beyond your current pain.
no matter our age. Healing thoughts and sympathy to you and your family.
thinking "How can there be cereal commercials on TV? Don't they know my MOM just died?" Not rational, I know, but my brain was temporarily out of whack.
I also remember the empty hospital bed in the house for a few days.
Go ahead and let it hurt. Know that we are all sending loving and healing thoughts your way today.
Please accept my condolences, I know how hard these things can be.
That is a very hard one. It will take a long time before that numbness goes away. You have an open wound; be gentle with yourself.
I lost my mom in April. I don't think it has really hit me yet. 
Wishing you peace and strength during these tough times
It was 7 years ago today that I lost my mother. She wasn't sick, she fell down the stairs when the lights went off during a hurricane and was injured too badly to recover. And even though you thought you were prepared, it's still a shock that just keeps hitting. The only advice I can give is to talk about it with those who share your grief. And try to keep occupied, there are probably lots of things that you still need to do for your mother, I was executor and it took a long time. But right now you just need a hug. There are lots of us here with those to offer...
