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After 21 years of marriage, I discovered my wife was cheating on me. I was devastated. It turns out she was menopausal and not taking any estrogen replacement. She was mean to me when I confronted her with it and didn't show any emotion. I came to her in tears and she was non-responsive. I was scared and I was worried she was going to walk out on me and leave me alone in the world without my two young boys. I was wrong about that but I was an emotional wreck and nothing seemed out of the realm of possibility. In desperation, I decided to try Match.com so I could at least meet a friend so if my wife were to leave me I would at least have someone that I could meet and possibly turn to so I wouldn't be alone. My wife has been my life-long companion and I didn't think I could survive unless I had someone to be with. If you've ever been in a major break-up or relationship issue, you may know how I felt. The problem is that married guys probably don't meet too many people on Match.com, so I signed up for Ashley Madison instead, hoping to meet a friend. After four days I felt uncomfortable being on there and I paid $19.00 for a full delete. I regularly pay with credit cards online. Amazon, Alaska Air, the plumbing supply company that has the part I can't find anywhere else, etc. I didn't think giving them my credit card info was any different and I didn't provide any information about myself in my profile including the email I used which I created specifically for the site and have since forgotten. The only way to tie me to the site is from the credit card info I gave them.
My wife is not seeing him anymore and we are getting along well now and she is on estrogen replacement and everything was going great until last weeks data dump. Now I fear I will be labeled for life as an adulterer. Will parents still bring their children over for play dates? Will I be allowed to chaperone kids on field trips, etc? I can only imagine the lifelong problems I will face because I am labeled as the neighborhood adulterer. My wife feels horrible about this and she blames herself for me signing up for the site. I don't blame her because it was me who signed up, not her. I have many texts she wrote the person she was seeing and a record of when I deleted my AM account. I have yet to find a data dump search site that will show my name, address and profile information but in a way, I want one to go online and stay there because if you look at my user profile, you will see that the only thing it says is that I was looking for a friend and that I was a member for a total of four days and that I didn't communicate with a single user on that site.
I felt compelled to share my story after reading a few threads on DU that turned into Ashley user bash festivals with people saying that Ashley users are all rotten dirtbags that deserve everything they get and more. I felt horrible all day and still do after reading those threads. I'm not looking for sympathy. I just want people to know that not everyone that signed up for that site is a rotten person that deserves to be castigated and shamed for life.
NightWatcher
(39,343 posts)They should've called it dubya dubya dubya dot future blackmail material dot com.
Why the holy hell would anyone admit their desire to commit adultery by signing up to a website? Plus, who would think that the site wasn't 99% men and a legit means to cheat? If you want to cheat, go to the bar at a hotel by the airport or buy a hooker for the night. Don't advertise your stupidity online.
Signing up, ESPECIALLY PEOPLE WHO USED .GOV, .STATE, or any government email address shows horrible decision making and they then I turn, are fair game for mockery, shaming, and possible job loss or loss of security clearance.
RiffRandell
(5,909 posts)Ignore people and keep going on!
brooklynite
(94,508 posts)The points of attention seem to be: people who's spouse is suspicious (you seem to have patched things up), and people looking for a celebrity/hypocrite.
Texasgal
(17,045 posts)has been in trouble. I hope you and your wife are able to work it out with each other.
RiffRandell
(5,909 posts)Why do you think so?
Texasgal
(17,045 posts)RiffRandell
(5,909 posts)to get newer pair from downstairs.
Texasgal
(17,045 posts)I feel your pain on the reader's thang!
Glassunion
(10,201 posts)I doubt (especially since your wife is cool with it), that you'd end up a social pariah. Your neighbors are probably not too worried about looking you up.
Among all of the users that were exposed you are probably in the minority.
IMHO, there is a problem on both end of this hack. First being those who were seeking to cheat. It's wrong no matter how you slice it. On the other end you have those who are chomping at the bit to look up their spouse or SO. They have no trust.
To me both cases are indicative of a larger problem. But mostly communication. All relationships are two-way streets, with many obstacles and no street signs. Everyone traveling those streets, in either direction need to communicate and trust to make it work.
davidpdx
(22,000 posts)I think the fact that the OP and his wife made up and both have come clean is a huge step. You are right though, they need to work on communication and that is tough.
So my two pieces of advice to the OP:
1) Take care of yourselves and each other (sorry if that sounds too much like Jerry Springer)
2) Work on communicating with each other
Aside from that you'll be fine.
roguevalley
(40,656 posts)take care and be happy. You are back on the rails again.
davidpdx
(22,000 posts)rug
(82,333 posts)And one for her.
Now forget it.
jberryhill
(62,444 posts)I understand it is important to you, but it doesn't affect anyone on the planet other than you and your wife.
"I can only imagine the lifelong problems I will face because I am labeled as the neighborhood adulterer."
Yeah, you could end up president like Ronald Reagan.
You'll be surprised at the massive number of shits not given by your neighbors.
GOLGO 13
(1,681 posts)Most of these "dating sites" are 100% scams to get dudes to pay a monthly subscription to look at fake ads/content created by the site owners. They were most likely LOL themselves on their 40ft yachts/Ferrari's until the whole scam got blown up.
Sorry to hear about your troubles. I hope you can forgive yourself & commit to being the best man that you can be. Do something positive just for yourself. Join a gym, lose weight & get goddamn swole. Invest in yourself to be the best version of you. Your family deserves it.
Syzygy321
(583 posts)The Ashley Madison thing is already old news. No one cares except you and spouse. No one else will ever know. No one is going to search your name.
You're all messed up now (I remember the feeling) and you think your "crime" is written across your forehead. That's because you're a decent guy with a conscience. It's the best place to start.
It gets better.
Now go, and sin no more.
cleanhippie
(19,705 posts)You should also be commended for leaving and trying to salvage your marriage. If it comes out that you had an AM account, be as honest as you've been here, and you should be fine. Rember, YOU didn't cheat. You're NOT an adulterer. Period.
yeoman6987
(14,449 posts)I agree with others that neighbors and friends most likely won't find out. Only you and your wife matter in this. I think you both may end up stronger then ever. I wish you the best of luck!!!!!!
seabeyond
(110,159 posts)your wife cheated. you forgave
you were honest with your wife, she accepts.
neither of you are hiding anything, yea
i guarantee not a single parent is gonna be trying to hunt you down to see if you are there, before they allow your kids to play with theirs.
parents make those decisions in real time with what they see.
junior college
(299 posts)I actually feel much better getting that off my chest. It's not something I've shared with anyone else except my wife. I really do hope that no one cares. I know I wouldn't care if I saw my neighbor on the list. It would be his own personal business to work out with his wife and nothing for me to be concerned with. Thanks
pnwmom
(108,977 posts)You WON'T be the neighborhood pariah. Don't you have any divorced friends? They're not pariahs. And you and your wife are still together.
So it's okay to just let this go. Just be more careful on the internet from now on! And teach your kids to be careful, too.
alarimer
(16,245 posts)That's the major lesson here, I think. Your data is not actually deleted. They should be held liable for whatever damage occurs as a result of this. And this is a company that should go out of business as just another internet scam.
Huddie94
(25 posts)Carlos Aguilar and Josh Laurito had a go at the data. Almost none of the AM women's accounts were real.
31,343,429 male, 5,550,687 female. That's 6:1. How many female accounts are active, real affair-seeking internet tools?
20,269,675 male accounts checked their messages. What's that, two-thirds of the men?
1,492 of the female accounts checked for messages. 0.0002687955 of the women. That's checking for a message even once. Ever.
So here we had Ashley Madison selling access to a tiny pool of women, spread out all over the world. And some of the 1,492 were test accounts. They shagged 20,000,000 times $20 a month times XXX months per active male account. If average duration was a year that totals near $5,000,000,000.
Males got faked out, almost all of them. Not enough money to make any one scam a felony. Full article here at GIZMODO
alcina
(602 posts)The shamers are vocal, but I'm hopeful they're not the majority of people on DU.
I'm sorry that your marriage created such loneliness for you, but I'm glad you and your wife are working things out. Good luck.
Fla Dem
(23,654 posts)As most of these sensationalized events go, this will fade into the background as other more attention grabbing events overrun it. So unless there is someone willing to out every single person on that website, I don't know how your neighbors and acquaintances will even know.
LisaL
(44,973 posts)smirkymonkey
(63,221 posts)I haven't and I am not interested. I think most people feel this way. I don't think most people are out to bust their neighbor.
lostnfound
(16,176 posts)To err is human, to forgive divine. I think it's pretty cool you forgave your wife and moved on. May you enjoy a long happy life together. May you let go of any lingering resentment and be glad it taught you empathy and strength you maybe didn't know you had.
Samantha
(9,314 posts)This is you and your wife's personal chain of events, and it is really no one else's prerogative to judge you. We have all made mistakes, but most of us would not be as brave as you have been to publicly detail our secrets on a huge website. Perhaps writing about this will in itself make you feel better, I certainly hope so, and I also hope things go well from this point on for the two of you.
Sam
JI7
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smirkymonkey
(63,221 posts)right-wing Christians who preach family values. As far as everyone else goes, I don't really care that much.
d_r
(6,907 posts)honestly I don't think anybody can look you up by your credit card information anyway. They are only looking up by email address and user names. Don't worry over it. Seriously.
I know that part of your intention was to try to show people that there are reasons not to bash others, and I agree with you.
Erich Bloodaxe BSN
(14,733 posts)Look for friends in the kind of place you're going to find the kind of person you want to meet.
If you're not looking for the kind of 'friend' who commits adultery, then maybe signing up for a site specifically designed to hook up adulterers isn't the right place to look for a friend.
Maybe a better place to find friends is on sites that revolve around things you are passionate about, like politics, for instance. Libraries if you read, gyms if you're a fitness person.
Cause yes, people will think that you had adultery in mind when you pay money for a site that says 'Life is short, have an affair.' as it's tagline. Just like they'll think you wanted to buy drugs if you go to a crackhouse.
Hiraeth
(4,805 posts)looking for a spare to keep on the back burner in case the one on front burner flamed out. Have I got that right?
Sheldon Cooper
(3,724 posts)Hiraeth
(4,805 posts)Am I the only one to find this OP incredibly offensive?
Sheldon Cooper
(3,724 posts)I have a relative who now has three ex-wives, and I don't think more than a few months went by after each wife left that the next one wasn't waiting in the wings. He had small kids at the time as well. I guess some people just cannot be alone with themselves.
Hiraeth
(4,805 posts)someone to live with you if you can't live by yourself ... ?
I know I am getting old because most of the stuff I read/see today just makes me want to groan and say: Oh.grow.up.
I think the term for what we are seeing in this OP is "serial monogamist".
But, to be looking BEFORE the first relationship is over is just beyond my comprehension.
Takes all kinds, I guess.
Nice chatting with you
Sheldon Cooper
(3,724 posts)the Relationships section of reddit. I read what these twenty somethings are doing and I want to tell them NO but they won't listen to an old lady like me. good talking to you, too.
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Hiraeth
(4,805 posts)Pity is a great motivator.
Tipperary
(6,930 posts)If not a joke, it is not necessarily offensive to me, but certainly pathetic. I really can not put into words every thing I thought about this op when I first saw it. I guess my first reaction was just "yech."
Hiraeth
(4,805 posts)gag me with a spoon.
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Hiraeth
(4,805 posts)act all surprised like who knew? dude, dirty laundry smells.
but, it's okay. I still like you.
You a funny man making me laugh in this thread. Thanks.
Warren DeMontague
(80,708 posts)Some people wear their issues around this place like the fruit in Carmen Miranda's hat.
Hiraeth
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Hiraeth
(4,805 posts)I got the impression there might be a good reason why the wife looked outside the marriage.
Psych 101 will expose you to the fact that women seek affairs for a vastly different reason than men.
You act like someone has stepped on your toes, here .... hmmm
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Hiraeth
(4,805 posts)Sanctimony/Pity ...
get thee to AM pronto.
See you Sunday on the football.
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Hiraeth
(4,805 posts)and with that comment you and I are in violent agreement.
Call it finger wagging if you want but, I surmise had the OP and his wife practiced your advice we would not be reading his sad story today.
ProudToBeBlueInRhody
(16,399 posts)YOU GO GIRL!!!!!
SheilaT
(23,156 posts)And you paid with the same credit card you use for on-line bill paying. And you probably used the same email address you use for everything else. Do I have that correct?
At least you came clean to your wife, and this, plus her own infidelity, is simply between the two of you.
But anyone who honestly thinks anything they do on-line can be well hidden, is deluding themselves.
randome
(34,845 posts)...hating on adulterers. Other than that, ignore the cruel crowd here who think they know your life better than you. Usually such comments come from those who haven't lived much of a life at all.
[hr][font color="blue"][center]"The whole world is a circus if you know how to look at it."
Tony Randall, 7 Faces of Dr. Lao (1964)[/center][/font][hr]
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FourScore
(9,704 posts)Perfectly ariculated, Warren!
JanMichael
(24,885 posts)Exactly- poster was spot on. Honestly, how pathetic are Americans in 2015 to be whining about "adultery?" Honestly- I can't even THINK about it.
RiffRandell
(5,909 posts)First of all, you have plenty of judgmental people on here to do it for you.
Secondly, you may be able to get in on a lawsuit and get some cash out of it as it was a MAJOR fuck up on their part.
CTyankee
(63,903 posts)Whatever you did, you didn't carry it through and stopped. That's over now. Concentrate on NOW and what you CAN do in the future. The past is the past.