I think I'm pretty much done with politics....

[FLyellowdog]

extreme abdominal pain for several weeks
Mon.= ultrasound + xrays suspected metastatic cancer of liver
Tues.=mammogram/bloodwork
Thurs.= CAT Scan no primary source of cancer determined yet/ multiple spots in liver and one on lung
Fri.=biopsy of largest tumor (5 cm) cancer diagnosis confirmed
Oncologist appointment next week for a PET Scan to find primary source=
Treatment options, if any, will be discussed. Probably won't participate.

Mentally, I'm doing fantastic. Pain is progressing terribly on a daily basis but doctors have assured me they'll help me stay comfortable (easier said than done ). So far Oxycontin and Hydrocodone-Acetaminophen are working ok.

So............I won't have to endure the loss of my husband, my children, or my friends...being the first to go is really going to be a freeing thing. Plus I get to play the Cancer Card whenever I want to...and so far it's been working great!

I will live every day of my life the best I can. And I think I'll spend less time on things that stress me, i.e. politics, and more time on playing.

Tag! You're it!!!!!!!

[Fumesucker]

1. I'm sorry...

[FLyellowdog]

8. Thanks.

[randys1]

2. Oh crap...I dont pray but my thoughts are with you, my wife is having abdominal pain issues and is

having cat scan next.

Hang in there...

If you have HBO get the VICE episode from last night, it is about cancer cures.

[FLyellowdog]

11. I much prefer the good vibes anyway.

[MADem]

213. I watched that tonight--astounding, what they're doing--and with viruses!!!!!

Who would have thought that would have been a methodology?

[marym625]

3. I'm so very sorry

I hope the great attitude stays with you.

[FLyellowdog]

13. Me too.

[marym625]

18. Please post anytime you need a lift

Or send a message to me if you like.

I know laughter is a great cure for depression, even if just temporary. There are so many funny people here. Use us. Well not me for laughter. I'm not so funny. But I can find funny people and order them to make you laugh.

[FLyellowdog]

33. Will do.

[livetohike]

4. Flyellowdog......it's a good philosophy. Sending you positive thoughts for pain management and

strength to play that game of tag. Come on up and we'll toss snowballs at one another .

[FLyellowdog]

15. Think I'll pass on the snowballs.

Build a snowman for me...and it should wear a crown in my honor because I used to be the Grand Diva of all things! Seriously, I was.

Don't give up....spring is on the way!

[Hekate]

5. Live each day. Hug those you love. Be at peace.

That's my prayer for you.

I'm so sorry this has landed on you....

[FLyellowdog]

17. I'll simply try to keep on keepin' on.

[99Forever]

6. Rough stuff.

Your acceptance and doing the best with where you are, is inspiring.

[FLyellowdog]

19. Sweet.

[Shrike47]

7. So sorry. Good they help you handle your pain but emotionally - devastating. Good thoughts.

[FLyellowdog]

20. Thank you.

[wendylaroux]

9. (((((So very sorry)))))

~Love and peace to you.~

[FLyellowdog]

22. Thank you.

[Savannahmann]

10. My thoughts are with you.

[FLyellowdog]

23. Thank you.

[rhett o rick]

12. Sorry to hear this. My best to you and your family. nm

[FLyellowdog]

25. TY. Hubby is here and taking good care of me.

[onethatcares]

14. Get yourself on over

to the cancer support sub board.

On another note, are you in the west coast area? are you using Florida Cancer Specialists or Moffit?

When you take the oxys, take a stool softener every day or you will be literally pooping blood, save yourself some pain.

Best of luck and you're in my thoughts.

[FLyellowdog]

26. OMG! Thanks for the info.

[Hekate]

214. Never knew that about oxycontin, but better than stool softeners is MiraLax or its generic form...

...LaxaClear (at Costco), which is much cheaper. It's a powder you mix into whatever liquid you are drinking -- cold water, hot coffee, juice. (I have IBD, so product this has been a godsend.)

[onethatcares]

217. yep, the learning curve

is a real pain in the butt.

sometimes, I just "crack" me up (oh gaud, there's another one)

[FLyellowdog]

242. So much to learn about...

Thanks.

[Hekate]

283. My gastroenterologist prescribed it for me, then it went over the counter, then generic

My late mother's belief that constipation is all one's own fault and my daughter's stern lecture on vegetables have nothing to do with my personal gut. I use this every single day, and if I don't I'm very sorry.

I was brought up not to talk about bowel movements, but when I see someone in need I break the code of silence.

Anyway, my troubles are trivial next to yours. If this can be of the smallest help...

[FLyellowdog]

286. ty

[octoberlib]

16. Sending good vibes.

[FLyellowdog]

27. TY.

[Solly Mack]

21. I'm so sorry to hear this.

The Cancer Support Group here at DU is filled with wonderful people who are a source of comfort and help.

They were and still are there for me. I'm currently in remission.

Keep us posted.

[FLyellowdog]

28. Fantastic about your remission.

It doesn't sound like mine will go that way.

Thanks for the link.

[Solly Mack]

38. Please stop by!

Being able to laugh helps a lot but allow yourself the tears too. At first I thought that if I started crying I'd never stop - but I enjoy laughing too much to let that happen. So I laughed and cried, sometimes both at once.

Keep up the great attitude. When you get angry or discouraged, let others in.

Seriously - you're not alone.

[FLyellowdog]

48. You are right on!

I've got to use my humor or I won't be able to stand this plus I don't want to spend whatever time I have left being filled with gloom and doom. That won't help me and will only make those around me feel badly.

So I hope I can stay the course.

[HappyMe]

24. I'll keep a good thought for you and yours.

I kicked some cancer ass years ago. A positive attitude and a good support system are key.

[FLyellowdog]

30. Yay for you.

Stay healthy!!!

[hollysmom]

29. i just want to hug you.

Look, drop in, we don't have to talk politics, talk TV or anything if you are up in the middle of the night and your family and friends are sleeping, someone here will be awake.

[FLyellowdog]

31. Yes, someone is always here to listen/talk/etc.

The nights seem to be the worst. My emotions are usually under control during the daylight but the pain and heartache seem to increase as the sun goes down. Probably just my imagination, but still...it's good to know I have friends who are loving, living, and listening all across the world. DU is great!

[City Lights]

32. I'm so sorry to hear your news.

Sending healing vibes your way.

[FLyellowdog]

34. So sweet.

[SidDithers]

35. I love your attitude...

I'm not sure I'd be as strong.



Sid

[FLyellowdog]

41. Well, I'm not very far into this thing yet but

I hope I can maintain this strength.

My daddy and all three of his sisters died from cancer. My first cousin passed from cancer as well and my niece is battling ovarian cancer now. I've feared for decades that I would get it and now I have it. So I no longer will worry about my health. The scariness now is about the treatment and pain.

I have my dark times, but they come from the discomfort. I'm not afraid of being dead...just the process of dying. If I could just go to sleep tonight and simply never wake up...well, that would be a dream come true. But it ain't gonna happen that way...at least not yet.

Thank you for your support and I know I'll need more and more as this thing plays out. But right now, I'm dealing with everything pretty well. I hope I can retain my dignity til the end.

[ErikJ]

36. Last night's Vice on HBO was about new cancer cures

They are using viruses like measles, HIV and common cold, to attack and kill the tumors with amazing results.

[FLyellowdog]

42. Someday there'll be a cure.

I just wish that someday were today!!!!

[Nay]

139. You CAN get this new treatment. They are doing trials at several

hospitals with dozens of cancer patients, usually ones like you who are far along the path. The PA hospital in the link below is taking patients with a similar cancer right now:


http://cancerresearch.org/our-strategy-impact/people-behind-the-progress/scientists/dr-carl-june-offers-pancreatic-cancer-patients-re


I hope you call them up Monday and get yourself in there! I send you many good vibes and loving feelings. If they aren't working on what your cancer turns out to be, they can direct you to a hospital that is doing it.

[FLyellowdog]

240. Thanks for the link.

[MADem]

179. I agree with the poster who says try to get in on a medical trial--can't hurt, might help.

This link might be useful to you, I hope it is: http://www.floridacancertrials.com/en/aboutus.asp

If you have just had a recurrence or have just been diagnosed with advanced cancer

It's especially important to search for trials before starting treatment if standard treatment is not terribly effective, as is the case with many advanced cancers. If you are on treatment you may be disqualified from trials as long as you are on treatment and as long as your cancer hasn't gotten worse. Merely having had treatment for your recurrence or advanced cancer can disqualify you from some trials which may require that you haven't tried any other treatment for the recurrence, or which may require that you haven't used certain drugs. Note that if there is a somewhat effective treatment for your cancer, you may actually be required to have tried that before qualifying for trials. If this is the case for your cancer you will discover it when you do your search.

If you have just learned that your treatment for advanced cancer isn't working

You'll want to look into trials before starting another treatment. You usually can't start a trial until several weeks after completing your last treatment and recovering from its side effects, so you should have a little time to investigate now- but do not delay.

SITUATIONS IN WHICH SEARCH FOR TRIALS IS LESS URGENT

While doing a clinical trial search may not be urgent, you may still want to keep tabs on what's out there in case you need it. If you are currently disease free, and don't qualify for trials of additional treatment, you might want to see what's out there for patients who have a recurrence. The risk of recurrence after the initial treatment varies from close to zero to nearly 100%, depending on the situation. If your risk is high, you will probably be more motivated to keep tabs on new developments than if it's low!

If you have a clinical emergency

Many people believe that after a diagnosis of cancer there is not a day to lose in starting treatment. The truth is cancer is usually a relatively slow process, and in most cases delaying cancer treatment for a short time in order to investigate your options isn't a problem. But there are real exceptions, and if it's truly an emergency, you can't wait to investigate trials. You need tonbe guided by, and to act on your doctor's advice now!

Here's a link to NCI's search feature--you can look for trials that suit your diagnosis:

http://www.cancer.gov/clinicaltrials/search

[FLyellowdog]

241. Good info. Thanks.

[MADem]

287. I'll be thinking good thoughts on your behalf! nt

[daredtowork]

37. politics is very stressful

If you do choose to devote your energy to anything, I hope it will be toward improving the medical system.

A cancer diagnosis is not a death sentence these days: please don't live your life that way. Now is your opportunity to do the things you've most wanted to do in the world!

[FLyellowdog]

44. Luckily for me, I've done most of them!

I'm not that creative or adventuresome so my life has been fairly fulfilled anyway. Call that

Thanks for you thoughts.

[Tuesday Afternoon]

39. live in the moments, remember Now Is Good !! sending you strength and very good vibes

[FLyellowdog]

45. Thanks.

[tomm2thumbs]

40. Glad to wish you the best on this journey -- you sound like you are going to make it a good one

I'm guessing you will have some amazing experiences ahead -- wish you the best of them, and hope you enjoy all the grandeur and wonder the planet will be sending your way ahead!

Bon Voyage and warmest of all wishes!!!!

[FLyellowdog]

46. Yes, the moment of truth will be interesting to say the least!

[DFW]

43. Been there too often to say anything other than...

Good luck on the rest of your time here, and good luck on where you're going.

Both my parents and ALL of their siblings were taken by cancer, so as for my following you, it's not a question of if, but when.

I hope I manage to show as much fortitude as you and my dad did.

[FLyellowdog]

47. Oh, I'm so sorry.

Cancer is a hateful thing and the suffering is horrendous.

I hope you beat the odds...stranger things have happened and you just may be stranger than most!

Enjoy your life so that if the worst happens you don't have to rush around doing all those "important things" you should have already done.

[DFW]

89. My dad's last column from Washington contained these lines:

I'm still here, and I want to write until the keyboard fails to respond to my fingers and my voice can no longer draw information from those to whom I speak on the telephone. I don't know how near the end is, nor will I spend time worrying about it. It has been a wonderful life, personally and professionally, and the recognition of that from so many whom I love and respect leaves no room for regrets.
So, agree with what I write or not, don't stop reading. Each day has to bring a new miracle with it.
-------------------------


I hope I can adopt a similar attitude when it's my turn.

[sabrina 1]

180. Those were beautiful words from your dad. Thank you for sharing them.

[sabrina 1]

182. Those are beautiful words and thoughts from your dad. Thank you for sharing them.

[DFW]

204. That appeared on November 19, 2000

Eight days later, he was gone.

[FLyellowdog]

243. Wonderful attitude.

[ScreamingMeemie]

250. A ray of hope...

My grandmother lost her parents, her sister, and both of her brothers to cancer. She celebrated her 91st birthday last August.

[FLyellowdog]

268. That is awesomely fantastic!!!

[safeinOhio]

49. Thank you for being part of the DU family.

I have no family, I've out lived most of them, So I look at this group as it. When anyone here hurts, I think we all feel it. Best of luck and you know where to turn.

[FLyellowdog]

52. Nice!

I'm so sorry that you've been left alone, but when we have people like those here on DU we aren't ever going to be totally alone.

[panader0]

50. Oh shit-- I'm hoping for remission--all the best wishes.

[FLyellowdog]

54. Yes, I'm hoping for remission as well

but I'm also hoping to win the Power Ball. I think the chances of either happening are slim to none.

Have a great day.

[sadoldgirl]

51. It sounds to me like a genetic scourge.

I hope you can get into some form of remission.

If not, just in that case and considering your own mind,
don't forget that there is Oregon, at least up to now.

I have seen 2 of my sisters in terrible pain from their
cancer and decided to visit Oregon, if an when it hits me
- and if I can afford it.

Remember during your depressing nights that the sun will
rise very soon.

Lots of good vibes!

[FLyellowdog]

55. Yes,

I've always wanted to see Oregon and that is an option. I have the book "Final Exit" but it's an old theory. See, I've thought about this scenario for years.

Sorry about your sisters and hope you stay clear of this scourge.

[TeeYiYi]

63. Good advice from sadoldgirl...

re:"Remember during your depressing nights that the sun will rise very soon."

You are on a new path and I wish you peace while navigating the intricacies of your new journey.

I have a personal method that I have used successfully to help guard against checking out early. I call it, "The 24-Hour Clause."

It's essentially an agreement with myself to wait 24 hours from the moment I find myself considering an early exit. The clause goes into immediate effect with the understanding that if, after 24 hours, I still want to take my own life then I am within my right to do so.

As sadoldgirl mentioned, the sun always comes up. The warmth and clarity that a new day can bring has repeatedly softened the harsh reality of my darkest nights.

You'll be in my thoughts, FLyellowdog.

TYY

[FLyellowdog]

85. That's wonderful advice.

Thank you, sweetie.

[TeeYiYi]

95. .

TYY

[Algernon Moncrieff]

53. Fight like Hell and focus on your bucket list.

Wishing you good luck and gifted doctors.

[FLyellowdog]

57. Thank you for your support.

And we can't downplay the importance of gifted doctors. Science is a wondrous thing.

[riderinthestorm]

56. Please don't give up and at least listen to the treatment options

Keep an open mind and keep us posted.

Stay strong!

[FLyellowdog]

58. Thanks, I will.

[giftedgirl77]

59. I'm sorry to here your news, I watched my father...

battle cancer. Sending good vibes your way & wishing you the best

[FLyellowdog]

76. So sorry about your father.

[herding cats]

60. Enjoy and live everyday to the fullest!

Indulge in the things that make you the happiest. Hug those who are dear to you until your arms are exhausted from it everyday. Love and laugh to the maximum.

Most of all I wish you peace.

[FLyellowdog]

77. Yes, peace.

Thank you.

[Stuart G]

61. My thoughts are with you...each day.

[FLyellowdog]

88. So thoughtful.

[brer cat]

62. You have a great attitude.

I hope you will be comfortable and able to enjoy life.

[FLyellowdog]

79. Yes, comfort, PLEASE!

Thank you for your thoughts.

[riqster]

64. You never know how these things will play out.

But you already have the most important part right: attitude!

[FLyellowdog]

81. You are so right...

[olddots]

65. please join the cancer group

talk to you there .

[FLyellowdog]

90. Thanks I will.

[progressoid]

66. Damn.

[FLyellowdog]

91. Dayum!

[awoke_in_2003]

67. Take care of yourself...

and enjoy the time you have left. Live life, and to hell with politics. Your family is what is important.

[FLyellowdog]

94. Thank you.

All this love is blowing my mind!

[zappaman]

68. Wow.

You have a great attitude and I understand why politics means little anymore.
I wish you the very best on this journey that we all take one day.
Much love.

[FLyellowdog]

96. You are so kind.

[A Little Weird]

69. I'm so sorry

You sound like a person the world should not lose so soon.

I hope they can keep you out of pain and you can enjoy the time you have left.

[FLyellowdog]

97. What a nice thing to say.

Much appreciated.

[JI7]

70. sorry about this

but still hope there is some better news. and it does seem like you are trying to enjoy life which is good.

[FLyellowdog]

98. I'll do good...

who wouldn't with all this support?

[magical thyme]

71. more healing vibes headed your way...

No words of wisdom to offer. But there's a lot they can do these days...

[FLyellowdog]

99. Healing vibes are great!

[JDPriestly]

72. One day at a time. I have friends who recovered from impossible cancers.

Good luck. Check out City of Hope.

[FLyellowdog]

100. Thank you.

[Playinghardball]

73. FLyellowdog, you might want to look into cannabis oil for cancer...

Check out this Google site...

https://www.google.com/search?sourceid=navclient&aq=&oq=cannabis+oil&ie=UTF-8&rlz=1T4GGHP_enUS521US521&q=cannabis+oil+for+cancer&gs_l=hp..1.0l5.0.0.1.88382...........0.-ntSbirLlhU

[FLyellowdog]

101. Thank you for this link.

You rawk!!!!!

[calimary]

74. Dear FLyellowdog, I admire your attitude. And your courage.

I've often wondered about how I would face such information if it were given to me. I hope you get all the pain relief you need, and the time with your dear ones and other things and activities you enjoy!

When it all boils down, all we have is the now, and each other.

[FLyellowdog]

103. Exactly.

At least I have more of a specific time frame than some people.

[LiberalLoner]

75. I'm so sorry.

May you find peace of mind and happiness and freedom from pain, for the time you have left in this dimension, and may the next dimension be better than you can even dream of.

[FLyellowdog]

105. It's going to be an interesting revelation to say the least!

[Oilwellian]

78. Best wishes and hope for you and yours n/t

[FLyellowdog]

106. Thank you.

[handmade34]

80. aw, hell

there's more than politics to banter about here... hug your husband for me

[FLyellowdog]

107. See...you women are already trying to horn in on a good thing!

But he'll get your hug...I'm nice that way.

[villager]

82. What incredibly rough news. Enjoy that well-and-hard-earned break from politics, then...

...and use it to heal-up, re-emerge, and enter new and plentiful chapters in your life.

[FLyellowdog]

108. Will do....

[villager]

112. A healing wave back at ya!

[ColesCountyDem]

83. How awful for you! I'm so very sorry.

[FLyellowdog]

109. Sweetness.

[mountain grammy]

84. I'm sorry to read this. I do admire your attitude and courage.

Stay strong. You will be in my thoughts. I like your sentiment about going first. My greatest fear is to be the last one standing.

[FLyellowdog]

115. Yes,

my poor old grandmother outlived 4 of her 5 children...one died as a child then 3 adults from cancer before her death and one more from cancer after her death. Sad.

So I'll count my blessings.

[barbtries]

86. I will live every day of my life the best I can.

yes, do. but still i feel so sad that you and your family are having to go through this. all wishes for your health and happiness.

[FLyellowdog]

116. This too shall pass

because it's as it should be. Doesn't mean I'm looking forward to it, but it's gonna happen. Thank you for your thoughts.

[BlueJazz]

87. You're in my thoughts and soul. Lots of good vibes sent your way.

[FLyellowdog]

117. Love the vibes!

[bvf]

92. Seize the day, FLyellowdog!

Your comment about playing the cancer card made me remember with a smile how my wife loved to do that.

Be strong, keep that sense of humor, and definitely check out the support group mentioned here.

My thoughts are with you.

[FLyellowdog]

118. Will do....

thanks.

[Hissyspit]

93. I love this post and I hate this post.

My best friend has stage 4 lung cancer and said the other day to me, "you know, I occassionally use the cancer card to get what I want." I said, "nothing wrong with that."

[TeeYiYi]

114. The 'cancer card'...

...is a rite of passage. I encourage its use and hope to hell I never find myself in the position of needing or wanting to use it.

I learned everything I know about 'the cancer card' from my sister.

TYY

[FLyellowdog]

125. Valuable if one needs it...

[TeeYiYi]

130. Absolutely...

Not a club most people would clamor to join, but since you're in...'membership has its privileges.'

As wacky perks go, you've earned the right to display that card at every turn.

You go, girl...and never apologize.

TYY

[FLyellowdog]

119. So sorry about your friend.

[Hissyspit]

127. He has lived longer than 10% of people with his kind.

Excellent care from Duke Cancer Centers.

Leiomyosarcoma.

[Skittles]

102. someone is always here, FLyellowdog

keep talking to us, OK?

[FLyellowdog]

120. Absolutely....

You guys are my inspiration!

[Unknown Beatle]

104. My prayers are with you.

Stay strong.

[FLyellowdog]

121. Thank you.

You are an angel in disguise.

[Dems to Win]

110. Sending love and light your way

I'm IT! Will try to continue with the same good cheer you've shown in your farewell post.

[FLyellowdog]

122. HOLD ON!!!

I didn't say this was my farewell post....just a maybe a short preview of coming attractions!

[Dems to Win]

152. My Bad!

Keep 'em coming, by all means!

[FLyellowdog]

170. Well, he IS a good man.

[cui bono]

111. What a great attitude!

So sorry you have to go through that though.

[FLyellowdog]

123. No one should be in pain...from anything.

[one_voice]

113. My thoughts are with you...

don't give up on the possibilities. Your DU family is here for you.

{{{Peace and strength to you}}}}

[FLyellowdog]

124. Thank you so much.

[KMOD]

126. I am so very sorry,

I wish you peace, comfort and love.

[FLyellowdog]

156. Thank you.

[FLyellowdog]

252. With these things my life will be full.

[KMOD]

259. ...

[LittleBlue]

128. Cancer is a goddamn plague on humanity

Be well and take care of yourself. You never really know with cancer, anything can happen. My grandmother's defied the doctor's predictions for years. She died of something unrelated.

Good luck

[FLyellowdog]

157. Much truth to that.

[RKP5637]

129. I'm so saddened to hear this!

[FLyellowdog]

158. You're so sweet.

[joanbarnes]

131. I hope I could keep as positive 'til the end...some claim to feel blessed to know...

[Electric Monk]

137. Dr. Oliver Sacks recently wrote in the NYT that he has been diagnosed with terminal cancer,

and he has some interesting thoughts on the subject.

http://www.democraticunderground.com/11462029

My Own Life
Oliver Sacks on Learning He Has Terminal Cancer

By OLIVER SACKS

(snip)

Over the last few days, I have been able to see my life as from a great altitude, as a sort of landscape, and with a deepening sense of the connection of all its parts. This does not mean I am finished with life.

On the contrary, I feel intensely alive, and I want and hope in the time that remains to deepen my friendships, to say farewell to those I love, to write more, to travel if I have the strength, to achieve new levels of understanding and insight.

This will involve audacity, clarity and plain speaking; trying to straighten my accounts with the world. But there will be time, too, for some fun (and even some silliness, as well).

I feel a sudden clear focus and perspective. There is no time for anything inessential. I must focus on myself, my work and my friends. I shall no longer look at “NewsHour” every night. I shall no longer pay any attention to politics or arguments about global warming.

This is not indifference but detachment — I still care deeply about the Middle East, about global warming, about growing inequality, but these are no longer my business; they belong to the future. I rejoice when I meet gifted young people — even the one who biopsied and diagnosed my metastases. I feel the future is in good hands.

more
http://www.nytimes.com/2015/02/19/opinion/oliver-sacks-on-learning-he-has-terminal-cancer.html

[FLyellowdog]

168. Wonderful article.

[Hekate]

236. Oliver Sacks is one of my favorite authors; a very wise man

I didn't know he was dying. The last paragraph in your excerpt is the shining key: detachment, not lack of caring; all that stuff out there belongs to the future.

[FLyellowdog]

159. Every day has it's ups and downs.

As the darkness fell tonight, things got a little more down than up. But morning is on the way.

[still_one]

132. On HBO vice yesterday they discussed how virus into cancer cells are

Working against extremely fatal cancers. Measles and hiv were the ones used in the program. No they won't give you measles or hiv, but it attacks the cancer cells

You might want to go to a major cancer center like Mayo, md Anderson Sloan Kettering Johns hopkins etc

Getting information and knowing your options are critical

[FLyellowdog]

161. Thanks.

[still_one]

133. Go to a major center that deals with metastatic cancer and see if there are options

Also why would you not want to see what they say about treatment options? You don't have to do anything, and information is critical

[FLyellowdog]

162. Appointment next week with oncologist will give me options.

[still_one]

210. Also consider second or third consultations, maybe clinical trials. All the best

[Cha]

134. FLyellowdog..

to you, girl!

[FLyellowdog]

163. Sweet.

[Cha]

165. ..

[ChisolmTrailDem]

135. Wow! What a profoundly brave attitude you have. I am in awe

of your words and will say this: If (when) I am ever to be as unfortunate in health, I will remember you, FLyellowdog, and will be inspired by your bravery, honesty, humor, and candor.

Please know that you will be in my thoughts and I will never forget you. Would that I could just hug you for real right now.

[FLyellowdog]

164. Your kind words are more than enough.

[lady lib]

136. OMG, I'm so sorry.

All I've got for you is a hug.

[FLyellowdog]

166. And sweet thoughts.

I'm humbled by all this DU support. You guys are great.

[840high]

138. Two time cancer

survivor here. I'll send you some of my strength to fight. Hugs.

[FLyellowdog]

167. Wow!

You are one awesome DUer. Thanks and stay healthy.

[PasadenaTrudy]

140. I wouldn't fight it either

If it happens to me, and there's a good chance it will, I'm not doing the chemo. Just try to enjoy the time left and hopefully not much pain. If and when I get terminally ill, I hope to go as fast as possible! Peace to you.

[FLyellowdog]

169. Many people won't understand this thinking.

But everyone has to follow their own arrow. I intend to do just that.

Your heart will lead you where you're supposed to go. Peace to you as well.

[longship]

141. Love you, FLyellowdog!

We are with you. Hang in.

[FLyellowdog]

171. Always room for more hugs!

[Cali_Democrat]

142. (((good vibes)))

Keep up the fight!!

[FLyellowdog]

172. I've got a lot of help around here.

It might be easier than I thought.

[malaise]

143. I'm with you on the playing

[FLyellowdog]

173. Kick the Can was always one of my favorites.

Probably can't run all that fast nowadays!!!

[malaise]

212. True but I love your attitude to your situation

Reminds me of both my mom and dad. I share your approach.

[aspirant]

144. If you like to play, consider this

Become aware of the DIS-EASED spots and tickle them. Run your finger/fingers slowly around in circles till it feels good and for as long as you choose.

Talk to the tiny damaged cells and send them love. Encourage them to return to health and forgive yourself for anything you did wrong. These cells are you and if YOU choose they can be repaired.

You always have free choice, I WISH YOU WELL ON YOUR JOURNEYS!

[FLyellowdog]

174. I'm actually going to do this!

It can't hurt.

[aspirant]

215. I cured skin cancer this way!

I used the mantra "HEAAAAAL, PLEASE HEAAAAAL" with plenty of happiness. You will sense if you should whisper it out loud or silently share it with all of you.

If you can remember, please add a genuine facial SMILE during your unification with YOU. It will let every single cell know that they are LOVED and they will assist you.

[freshwest]

145. Oh, FLyellowdog. I'd hug you, but it'd hurt. I can only send a virtual hug: ((HUG)).

[FLyellowdog]

175. You are so thoughtful.

You're right...hugging would hurt, but you can rub my feet. Just sayin'.

[blackspade]

146. Hugs.

So sorry. I'm watching my father go through this right now with his pancreatic cancer.
My best advice is get second opinions.

[FLyellowdog]

176. Ewwww. So sorry about the pancreatic cancer.

I hope he's getting the treatment/meds he needs. Thinking about you and your father.

[blackspade]

189. Appreciated.

You take care of yourself.

[femmocrat]

147. You have an amazing and courageous spirit.

You are in my prayers whether you want to be or not!

[FLyellowdog]

177. Yes, please place me there.

I need all the help I can get.

[femmocrat]

221. Help is on the way!

I have posted a prayer request in the DU prayer circle for you. Everyone is pulling for you, FLyellowdog. You are never alone when you are a DUer.

http://www.democraticunderground.com/1225412

[Hekate]

239. It's easy to forget how wide and deep the DU "family" goes. Thanks for the reminder.

[FLyellowdog]

245. Exactly.

[DCBob]

148. Your attitude is inspiring.

Take care. Hope things work out.

[FLyellowdog]

178. Your kind thoughts mean so much to me.

Things will work out...one way or the other...but certainly in the way they are meant to work out.

[sheshe2]

149. Healing thoughts to you FLyellowdog.

{{{{Hug}}}}

[FLyellowdog]

181. So kind.

Peace.

[nolabels]

150. I am speechless

Knowing something to say really doesn't mean somebody has something to say, but more likely they taught or trained that they should say something. And for what? To make you feel better? You have your choice, but for me the pain i can feel tells me i am still alive, something nobody can take away as long i can think and ad two plus two.

The other thing, once you give up and let go, unless you go out then you still have reality to face until whatever takes you away from the rest of us. Ask a hundred people if you should give up even with all your circumstances, and bet not even one would tell you to your face that you should just give up. So why would i, or should i say something, because i really have nothing to say

[FLyellowdog]

184. In my opinion giving up is just a matter of perspective.

From where I'm sitting I'll be making a decision about whether to struggle to stay in this current existence or move on as quickly as possible to the next. Not giving in to false hope or unrealistic expectations has always been a part of my character...I don't think I need to try to change at this late date.

Everyone has their own story to tell and each story will come to the end it's supposed to.

I don't expect everyone to agree with my decisions but they are, as you said, my decisions.

The bottom line is no one can take this journey with me. I'm flying solo this time. The best I can hope for is that those who care will be glad that I was in their lives and that they'll be happy when I am finally at peace.

[nolabels]

223. You are a very strong, beautiful and honest person

I couldn't understand what you would mean by unrealistic expectations because your enlightenment and your understanding of your journey are an inspiration that is touching and indescribable. This may also seem off key but I think I know what the world would miss most if you should go, and that is all your wonderful giving. I have never met you but you have already given me a lot. Please do a lot of taking, you deserve it very much.

We know you are doing the best for what is best for you and that gives us all courage

[uppityperson]

151. Best wishes to you and yours. "Being the first to go is really going to be a freeing thing"

indeed.

Do what you can when you can, make sure you tell people what you need to tell them, and best wishes to you and your play time.

[FLyellowdog]

185. You are so very wise.

Thank you.

[daleanime]

153. ........

[FLyellowdog]

186. oxoxox

[Ilsa]

154. I'll be praying for you, that only the best things and

Best news comes your way, that you'll be comforted by everyone you love and work with on your care plan.

[FLyellowdog]

187. ..."that you'll be comforted by everyone you love"...

It's already happening and this will carry me through.

[spanone]

155. ....

[FLyellowdog]

188. Peace to you and yours...

[JEB]

160. Stay golden.

[FLyellowdog]

190. Will do.

[Sissyk]

183. I have great admiration for you FLyellowdog.

We are here for you when you need us.

[FLyellowdog]

191. Thank you.

I know I'll check in often but hopefully I'll stay as strong as I can without too much whining.

[slipslidingaway]

192. You know I feel the same way ...

and posted something such as there is nothing as important as life itself in the cancer forum recently. It really does make all the left/right politics/feuds seem quite insignificant!

My husband just had a second bone marrow transplant for acute myeloid leukemia, tough days and decisions, wishing you well.

[FLyellowdog]

196. Thank you.

[slipslidingaway]

203. One day at a time ...

it is difficult to look too far into the future, although I do it all the time. Words of advice and actions do not always meet! But hang in there.

We are at home for three nights from Hope Lodge in NYC and enjoying every moment, but we did this this four years ago, before relapse and the 'second child.' Been there, done there so to speak.

Day by day and one step at a time keeps one 'relatively' sane. Hang in there and do not throw the towel in too soon.

[Lifelong Protester]

193. I'm sorry to hear this and you drove me

right to the waiting arms of a sleeve of thin mints.

[FLyellowdog]

197. Fantastic!

Hubby brought home some thin mints today...as well as a Variety Cheese Cake from Sam's...and some fresh strawberries and blueberries! He's spoiling me already but I'm worth it!!!

[tishaLA]

194. I love your attitude but be careful

about 10 years ago, when I was 27, I was diagnosed with congestive heart failure. The doctors said my heart function was so bad, I had to have a heart transplant or I would die. I told them I had no intention of being a patient for the rest of my life, so a heart transplant was out of the question.

So I waited for death like a bad Emily Dickinson poem.

And I told people I didn't like exactly what I thought of them.

And then my heart made a full recovery. And three years of playing the heart failure card wand waiting for the inevitable ere down the drain.

Let's hope you can tell a similar story. You'll be in my thoughts.

[FLyellowdog]

198. Well...I just celebrated my 69th birthday

so my story will likely have a different ending from yours. Glad you had to apologize for speaking your mind!!!!!

[lpbk2713]

195. You sound like an exceptional person.

Carry on under your own terms. I admire your outlook.

[FLyellowdog]

200. I'm not so sure about that

but I do march to the beat of a different drummer. (Actually I was a majorette in high school and a pretty darn good one at that!)

I just want to get over this bridge and on to the next adventure whatever or wherever that may be. Being painfully sick sucks.

Thanks for your kind words.

[glinda]

199. Don't give up though if there might be real hope out there somewhere but

you have immense intelligence and drive to live it all to the fullest you can. Am wishing you all and everything best as possible.

[FLyellowdog]

201. Thank you, sweetie.

Real hope would make a difference...but I can't imagine this much pain would indicate there's hope of any kind. It's come on pretty fast and is increasing on a daily basis. Not a good thing.

[blondie58]

202. ((FLyellowdog))

I am so sorry. You never know what life is Going to Throw at you. So we all need to appreciate The Day in front of us.

I Had a scare 15 years ago. I was a newly divorced Mom with two girls, worked a very physical Job as a Letter carrier, Working 50+ hours a week.

But it Sounds like your Attitüde is awesome. Although it is perfectly okay to have a good Cry.

Please don't hesitate to reach out if you need to.

And i live in Colorado, where Even recreational pot is legal. You Should come out Here and Try Some.

💖🌟💗❤️✨☀️🌈🌠🌻💜🌹

[FLyellowdog]

246. Great suggestion about the pot.

[Tracyjo]

205. Play all you want

My best to you. Enjoy your life. All of it.

[FLyellowdog]

247. Every single day.

[greatlaurel]

206. Sending good vibes your way.

Pain management is very important. Play as much as you possibly can.

Good luck to you and your family. Your are all in our thoughts at this time.

[FLyellowdog]

248. Thank you, sweetness.

[sueh]

207. (((hugs))) and good vibes, FLyelllowdog.

[FLyellowdog]

249. Thank you.

[babylonsister]

208. Shit.

Love to you.

I love your honesty, and you. I am a cancer survivor, when I was 27, I am 59. I'm here for you if you want to chat.

Edit to add: nothing but sadness. Life can suck. Know you are loved. I logged back on to tell you that. You Are Loved!!!

[FLyellowdog]

251. Life is a little bit less sucky with people like you in it.

[JohnnyRingo]

209. I do that from time to time.

Certainly if I were faced with the challenges of life that you present, I'd avoid the frustration altogether. There's more to life.

I remain hopeful for your future.

[FLyellowdog]

253. Sometimes we just need a break...

Thanks for the thoughts.

[AzSweet]

211. Five words...

I'm so sorry & cannabis oil (if it's legal where you are). My husband has stage 4 colon cancer, and he's on his second round of chemo. He chose to also use cannibis oil. He was off chemo for two 1/2,months, in preparation for surgery, and after surgery. When the surgeon went in, she found that she didn't need to take any of his colon, because the main tumours were dead. We don't know for sure if it was the chemo, or the cannabis oil (there is no real way to know), but I attribute it to the oil. Alot of the cancer died while off chemo. It is pretty expensive, and we wouldn't be able to do it if we weren't living here, caring for my Dad, but very worth it. I make it myself for him...you never know what you are going to get from someone you don't know. You can Google Rick Simpson Oil for info. Rick makes no money from it, and in fact, has gone through hell with the Canadian legal system, so it really is a gift he's shared, and fought for the right to do so.. It's legal here in AZ,my husband and I both have our cards. People have been so kind to us, sharing information, and lending support, I just want to pass it on. Willing to help with support or questions anytime, if that is the way you choose to go, or not...Have learned more than I ever wanted to know about cancer, in particularly, colon cancer, in the last year, and willing to try to help anyone who asks. If it were me, instead of my husband, I would not be doing chemo, and treating solely with diet and oil. For legal purposes, I am not a doctor, and will not treat you, only share what I have learned...is up to you what you do with it. Sending good thoughts to you and yours...

[Triana]

216. I'm so sorry .. and I don't blame you!

Please take care of yourself as best you can.

[FLyellowdog]

254. You too!

We all need to care for ourselves more.

[IdaBriggs]

218. It ain't over until its over.

Ya ain't dead yet!

[FLyellowdog]

255. Not even a little!!!

[KrazyinKS]

219. Watch a good comedy-

After my diagnosis 14 years ago, nothing felt better than a good comedy.

[FLyellowdog]

256. Family Guy does the trick for me.

Thanks for the suggestion.

[hrmjustin]

220. I am so sorry!

[FLyellowdog]

257. I'll be fine. Thanks.

[mahina]

222. LeighAnn's cancer resource links

Copying her post here.

100. Sorry to Jump In Here But.... (please read!)

I have a lot of cancer resources on this site: http://cancerwar.hereinreality.com The most important is the Bloch Cancer Foundation http://blochcancer.org/ There is no type of cancer at any stage that has not been cured. Bloch was started by one of the H&R Block founders, and he beat stage 3 lung cancer and lived about 30 more years to help others fight it. PLEASE READ THE BOOK "FIGHTING CANCER" on that website. If you call them they will send you a copy, along with a lot of other helpful information. They will also match you up with a survivor of whatever kind of cancer you've got to help you navigate the waters. PLEASE, PLEASE, I beg of you to give them and these other resources a try. There was somebody in the old cancer forum a few years ago that had a rare cancer, and he said it was pretty much given the prognosis of "lights out". More than a year later he was in remission, and his odds were beyond dismal. The book "FIGHTING CANCER" is the most important step you can take. Please contact the Bloch foundation. They will hook you up with the best resources in the country. They are zillionaires. I've never heard of them asking anyone for money. http://blochcancer.org/
We have to learn from each other.

Wishing you healing, happiness and comfort. Aloha.

[FLyellowdog]

260. A big thank you for all this info.

[imthevicar]

224. Go out with a Bang Not a Whimper!? well Done!

http://allpoetry.com/Do-Not-Go-Gentle-Into-That-Good-Night

[FLyellowdog]

262. Absolutely!!!

[classykaren]

225. My sister has stage 4 liver cancer

They will help she is now having chemo which she was told will give her about another year. I am so sorry for you. A lot can happen in a year do not give up hope.

[FLyellowdog]

263. I'm so sorry about your sister.

I know you'll help her find the treasure in each day. She's a brave woman. Give her a hug for me.

[merrily]

226. Sorry. Take good care of yourself and laugh as much as possible, including at those of us who are

still aggravating ourselves over politics.

Doing my best to send love your way

[FLyellowdog]

264. I'll be looking for the love...

and I'll pay it forward. Thanks!!!!!

[merrily]

266. Aww, that's so nice.

[sellitman]

227. Please stop by to get a lift from the good folks here.

Doesn't have to be politics. I'm hoping your pain can be minimized and what time you have here is used to do things you always wanted to do. Hugs

[FLyellowdog]

265. The good folks here have always given me a lift.

This is a wonderful place...

[evillemike2009]

228. Done w/ Politics

That's called goin' out in style. Good for you.

And suddenly, all my complaints about politics, and the feeling that nothing I'm doing is of any real consequence look pretty silly to me. I think can go a few more rounds.

Thanks for the boost.

Find your peace, and go for it.

EvilleMike
evilletimes.blogspot.com

[FLyellowdog]

267. Oh no! We can't all of us drop out of politics.

Somebody has to keep the others in line!!!!!

[BlueMTexpat]

229. I am so sorry to hear this.

I received a breast cancer diagnosis in early December. I had none of the typical symptoms so it was literally a bolt from the blue.

I was one of the fortunate ones - in the right place at the right time with the best medical professionals available. What I got for Christmas was a new left breast! Even better, what I got for New Year's was a cancer-free foreseeable future!

But the future is never guaranteed. Your lesson on living every day of your life the best you can is a lesson for us all.

May you always be surrounded by your loved ones and may your own future be as pain-free and full of joy as possible!

[FLyellowdog]

270. Your news is so uplifting.

I wish you continued good health and many years of laughter.

[lillypaddle]

230. OMG

My thoughts are with you and your family. What a fucking blow. I don't even know what to say.

[FLyellowdog]

271. Just the fact that you read my post

and took the time to comment comforts me. I'll leave this world when it's time...knowing that many people have touched my life in ways that I could never have imagined.

[lunamagica]

231. I don't know what to say....

except that I'm so, so sorry

[FLyellowdog]

272. Your thoughts show that goodness is in all of us.

[bread_and_roses]

232. I am very sorry

I wish you the best outcome possible and every comfort along the way.

[FLyellowdog]

273. Your kind thoughts have settled deep in my heart.

Thank you.

[LiberalEsto]

233. Wishing you all the best

I hope they can find good ways to control the pain.

Blessings of peace and healing to you and your loved ones

[FLyellowdog]

274. Everyone should be able to feel the love being shared here.

[LaurenG]

234. Well that sucks

It's not the kind of news anyone is prepared to hear. I wish you lots of love,and good times and a life full of wonderful people to hang out with and hug. (((( hugs)))

[FLyellowdog]

276. Hugs = love. Thank you.

[onecaliberal]

235. Positive thoughts and vibes...

You are an inspiration...

[FLyellowdog]

277. Lovin' all the thoughts. Thank you.

[bigwillq]

237. All the best.

[FLyellowdog]

278. And the same to the entire DU community. We rawk!!!

Thanks.

[onecent]

238. I'm so sorry FLyellowdog.....

Will send you hugs and blessings...and wish you good luck on your future. It sounds like
you are making a good decision just to drop politics. I think my blood pressure would lower if I
could just never watch the news.

Thoughts are with you and your family.

[FLyellowdog]

279. Well, I certainly can't control much in politics

and even less about anything in my unhealthy condition. *sigh*

But I can control who I spend time with and that puts DU in the #1 position! Thanks.

[Phentex]

244. I am very sorry to hear this but...

I am happy you chose to share this with your DU family. You don't need to talk politics to post here.

I wish you all the best!

[FLyellowdog]

280. It's more than amazing that we are part of such a large caring group.

Thanks.

[kestrel91316]

258. So sorry to hear this.

Live your life the way YOU want to. Be in charge of your own decisions, and don't apologize to anybody.

If they can offer chemo that is palliative and can make you more comfy without bad side effects, though, please consider that. You might be surprised at how much decent living you can get in.

[FLyellowdog]

281. Thank you. I'll keep this in mind.

Sweet thoughts....you are so kind.

[Hekate]

261. Just checking in to this remarkable thread; I'm thinking of you often

We're close in age, and I understand your point of view, I think. You are making rational choices for yourself, which is not the same as "giving up." Oliver Sacks' op-ed, cited above, says he's detaching from the parts of the world (politics, wars overseas) that are a part of the future that is for others to have.

It's not my place to weep over this thread, though after reading through it I am all tears, but I am so sorry this has landed on you.

15 years ago I was in a period of intense emotional suffering, and my husband gave me the following to recite, a very shortened version of one of the great prayers of Buddhism:

May I be happy
May I be peaceful
May I be free from suffering

This is all I have to give you. May it be of some use, a point of light.

Hekate

[FLyellowdog]

282. Thank you so much for these kind words.

This is my wish for all of us.

[tenderfoot]

269. Sending good healing vibes

[FLyellowdog]

284. I'm receiving them as we speak.

Thank you and joy to you and yours.

[Terra Alta]

275. I'm so sorry.

You are in my thoughts. Wishing you nothing but the best.

[FLyellowdog]

285. The same right back at you.

Thanks.

[Chimeradog]

288. so sorry....

OP I am so sorry. Sending good vibes and hope your way



My friend was Dx with stage 4 throat cancer last year, and this year it is in remission...not sure if it helps, but he is not an easy person- attitude helps a lot , taking a break for yourself etc.

[FLyellowdog]

290. Good luck to your friend.

[ScreamingMeemie]

289. These kinds of things have a way of putting things into perspective really quick.

Spend lots of time in the Pets forum, the one place where just about every post is full of fun, happy or love.

Take care,

Laura

[FLyellowdog]

291. Great advice! Thanks.

[GreatGazoo]

292. one more kick