Been here over 7 years, was reading the site before then.
To be honest, I was a raving rw idiot in some ways before I came here. But I also was looking for a different point of view. And I found that here.
Over time, reading the responses here, I had realized that I was wrong on some things and found a home on the net. The very people I was making fun of were the ones who were most aligned with how I really felt.
I joined up during what was the best time of my life. I had a good job, had just bought a home next door to mom, was happily married.
August 2004. By the end of the year my life would start unwinding. I was at the 'top'. Went to Chicago for a business trip - the only team lead asked to go to a manager's and director's meeting, it was the first time I had ever been there.
I came home at the top of the world. And then my life came crashing down. Mom was in the hospital and sick. Two months later...we had an ice storm, she had come home and then went back to the hospital on Christmas eve. She died on New Years' eve.
Mom's best friend died some months later, mom #2 we called her. Then my first X died and I found my kids after 8 years of not seeing them. A year later my current X found out she had Parkinson's disease.
I could go on - it was all downhill. Time after time I came to DU and talked about it and had friends here lift me up. I have few friends left, most of my best friends have died. Scott in a car wreck, Brady from an accidental OD, James (as I recently learned) moved back to Ohio and someone broke in and shot him in the head and burned down his house.
Through the biggest problems of my life I have been able to come here and post about them, get them off my chest. And have found people to lift me up. Others in my life just dismissed it all because they only were part of one piece of it. No one in my family understood me losing my kids and not seeing them for years, or my friends dying, they just saw how mom's death affected me - because that is all that affected them.
I found here on DU a group of people that would hear me out, listen, and lift me up on my darkest of nights - and I have not even posted a tenth of what has all went on.
We can argue about lots of topics, do battle over the most silly of things. But when it has come down to the things that have the most impact on me directly you have been a bright light on many a dark nights.
From my son going to Iraq to everything else I found solace here.
Thank you all. I look forward to many more years on DU3.
For mom and my first X:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=f5oRMVRFqsY