who masturbated in front of us on camping trips, talked incessantly about sex and masturbation and molested at least one kid directly while those of us in nearby sleeping bags heard him telling him to stop and so on, and we were out in the fucking mountains and it was just a fucking mess. I relate a little to what you are saying.
Mine was not a one time event, but a process at a very impressionable age. It has fucked up my life I'm sure of it. I attend a support group for people who have problems related to that kind of thing. I go to therapy. I've been on antidepressant meds.
I am a den leader in my son's cub scout troop now, and everytime I see one of the grown men in their boy scout uniforms I am triggered with anger.
I'd like to kick the man's ass. I've even gone as far as googling his name, but I couldn't find it.
He was also a fireman, so we had scout meetings at the firehouse on campus where I lived. It was all just "too cool" I guess, and none of us ever talked about it that I know of. He had an assistant that wasn't much different. He took us four wheeling, camping, lots of cool stuff.
That on top of the fact that I was non-Mormon living in a predominantly Mormon community, and it was the only scout troop I could go to (parents feelings) so I wasn't about to speak and ruin the good part. Didn't even know that the bad part was going to be something that would haunt me forever.
Sorry you had to deal with that lost, the bastid should be punished and who knows who he did it to, you are right.
