My cat died today

[undergroundpanther]

He was not in pain,he had this for a very long time.but because his body functioned desppite it eeverytime he went for checkups he came out fine on his blood workups.but he had cancer all over him on the inside of him.
He went for an exploritory and as soon as the vet got in there she said she knew it was over,the vet advised me to just let him not re-awaken,so after she discribed what was going on,I agreed,to let him go..he is gone now.He went peacefully.

I hate life.I just hate it.It's so fucking awful.It is a curse.Life is EVIL. Why,why Rustle? I want to kill and kill again and again the fucking MONSTER that makes reality BE like this.And Random chance I can't deal with random chance right now because random chance has killed my sweet cat!!I HATE LIFE being TRAPPED in these FUCKING horrible BODIES I HATE BODIES Why why do we have live in these horrible,vulnerable, sick,trapping weak fucked up BODIES for.I HATE FLESH.

Why can't all the fucking assholes die, all the sociopaths authoritarian control freasks,child molestors DIE ? or the abusive people,psychopaths and bullies, why can't THEY all be eaten alive by cancer instead of innocent sweet cats like Rustle. Why?

I HATE this world I HATE this JAIL.It's sickening.
I can't stand it.
I hope Rustle gets out of here and is NEVER ever Forced to live in another stinking vile torturous horrid flesh bag jail body again on this horrible evil planet of shit.

This world kills,abuses and destroys anything innocent sweet and wonderful.I hate this world for what it does.Some say it's senselessly impersonal yet to me it is very very personal.
And if there was a god I want to KILL it for the slow torture chamber it made.

[Tindalos]

1. I'm so sorry

I don't know what else to say. Life isn't fair, is it? I'm very sorry.

[blondie58]

2. I am so sorry, ((((undergroundpanther)))

life isn't fair. I had followed the story of Rustle in the pets forum and was really hoping for a happy ending. Well, actually, I have seen several of your past posts and I just want to let you know that I admire you- I know you have been through a lot. Please take care of yourself. Rustle is up at www.rainbowbridge.com playing with all of the other animals.

[EFerrari]

3. I'm so sorry, panther.

:hug:

[terrya]

4. I'm so sorry for your loss.

[The Velveteen Ocelot]

5. I'm so very sorry.

I remember a long time ago you posted something on the Pets forum about how Rustle would sing in the sun. That image stuck in my mind ever since, and I think about how wonderful it was that a cat would enjoy the sun so much that he would sing to it. So if it helps at all, and I know it will take awhile, you know he enjoyed his life while he was here.

:hug:

[AZBlue]

8. That's beautiful.

I missed that post - I'm glad you shared that again.

[The Velveteen Ocelot]

10. Here...

http://www.democraticunderground.com/discuss/duboard.php?az=view_all&address=243x21567

[AZBlue]

12. Thank you for sharing that! And, yes, my cat has a special name for me.

Just like Rustle - it's a two-syllable sound that I swear could be the feline version of Ma-Ma. She only makes it for me, so whatever it does mean, it's all mine. She doesn't sing to the sun though - that's just fantastic, I've never heard of a cat doing that.

Aren't pets just WONDERFUL!?

[Tammie]

6. I'm so sorry to hear this

Losing a friend as special as Rustle is beyond painful. Console yourself with the happy memories he left behind until you're reunited. I share your grief. Take good care. :hug:

[mopinko]

7. so sorry you lost your kitty.

always hard to lose a pet. (((((((((hugs to you))))))))))

was that your only kitty? i seem to remember your having a couple, a few? could you tell us about them?

[AZBlue]

9. I'm SO sorry!

:hug:

It's so hard to lose a little fur-child. They are so innocent, so full of only love, so wonderful - why do they have to suffer any, why can't they stay with us always? I lost my Sally almost 3 years ago and I still miss her dearly.

But, eventually the pain will ease and your memories will be accompanied by smiles instead of tears. Hang in there, it does get easier. And, please remember this: Rustle is still with you and always will be.

[Eurobabe]

11. I'm crying right now

I am so sorry Panther, Rustle was a beauty. A gorgeous ginger boy. My heart bleeds for you. :cry:

RIP Rustle baby.

[Mnemosyne]

13. I'm so terribly sorry, panther.

"slow torture chamber" is an apt description for too many days of this life.

Please remember that though this world really sucks much too often, it is the world where you got to physically connect to your sweet furbaby. To have been able to love and be loved by him to pet him, spoil him and to have been able to hear his sweet voice singing must have been such blessings for you.

I hope this finds you safe and with even some small comfort that eases your grief and sorrow. His love will always be with you. I know your love will help him find his peace.

It just sucks that your dear friend and family member died, panther, really fucking sucks. Rustle looked like a cool being. :hug:

I truly do not want to come back here either, hurts too often.

[lukasahero]

14. Oh sweetheart I'm so sorry

I read your post about Rustle in the Pets Group and really prayed that this would not be the outcome - I didn't want it to happen to you who I view as so precious and so fragile. You are such a gift. (I'm sure you don't know me from a hole in the wall but I know you and a soul as gentle as you makes an impression on people like me - people who would walk through fire to ease the burden of people as precious as you.)

You are "too gentle to walk among wolves" (google it if you're not familiar - it's written for you) and I wish I could ease your burden. I wish life wasn't as raw as it is. I wish hate and ugliness didn't exist. I hope, for your sake and mine, that something like Rainbow Bridge DOES exist where ultimately we can be reunited with all that is good in this world.

I'm sorry. :hug:

[CoffeeCat]

15. I hear you panther...I really hear you...

I so understand everything you are saying. I really do.

Your anger is so courageous and full of energy. You are a strong person, and I know you
will get through this.

You and I have talked before about child molesters. It does boggle the mind doesn't it...why
do THEY get to live, seemingly normal and unaffected lives--while sweet kitties don't? I do understand
and it's not fair. It's just not.

I'm right there with you panther, and I'm sending you and kitty loads of sparkly light.

I lost a dear pet--Turbo--recently. I bet Rustle and Turbo are chasing butterflies somewhere...

You take care and keep us posted on how you are doing. You have a very strong spirit, panther.

:hug: