I just thought I'd wallow thru here

[HereSince1628]

with no thought of doing anything that might better myself...

Flashbacks regenerating humiliation today;

I'm sure once I get my head out of my ass the view even if not better will be a lot less personal.

[HereSince1628]

1. Really, I am just wallowing if I were really mentally ill

my story and picture would be in General Discussion and my condition would be diagnosed by DU's experts on 'teh' crazy.
But then one should maybe wonder why our commentators feel they are compelled to make these statements...Is it because by writing these things they improve themselves? Or is it a rather more deeply seated emotional need that is met by ringing the alarm bell on someone else?

http://www.democraticunderground.com/discuss/duboard.php?az=view_all&address=389x9156804

[EFerrari]

2. Sometimes I think denial is just projection over time articulated.

(from Deep Thoughts, me, just now. lol)

[undergroundpanther]

3. your head is not in your ass

Who is this person"treatment team" with this magic yardstick made to PROVE to others you are"bettering yourself" ? Who is defining what better means? In other words FUCK behaviorism and evidence based "treatment", it's all a crock of shit.

Anyway I got a similar diagnosis as you have,right down to the weird eeg and temporal lobe scars.Trauma is a PSYCHOLOGICAL INJURY,and behaviorism is not gonna fix your mind,it is about controlling you for other people's 'comforts'.Via rewards & punishment oh forgot negative reinforcement. See BF Skinner..See Pavlov's Dogs..That mind fuck is at the core of behaviorism..

The day they try to shoot you up with a drug called Anectine grab that needle before they jab it into your body and stab the nearest asshole staff with it and hit the plunger. That drug is a horrible torture ..oh I forgot,negative reinforcement..Teach the arrogant fuckers by giving them a personal experience of how soul wrenching it feels to be treated as if beyond freedom and dignity.