Calling all psychics/sensitives

[MorningGlow]

Hello folks,

I was wondering if I could trouble any and all willing psychics and sensitives for a bit of help. I seem to be hitting some weird period in my life and I don't know what's up.

Basically, I have this feeling like something is wrong in my life. Kind of "off kilter". Something is incorrect. I just don't know what. But it's so bad that I was in tears yesterday as I was driving around running errands. I am desperate to find out what's going on but I'm not getting any inkling as to what it is--or even what part of my life to look at.

Many parts of my life are in transition--a toddler who won't sleep, a newly purchased house (money pit) undergoing reconstruction (no cash so we're doing it), a husband with a new job (luckily he enjoys it), and some upheaval in my job.

I'm suspecting it's my job--I may be outgrowing it (?) or it may be outgrowing me--but can anyone share any impressions they're getting? I'd REALLY appreciate it.

If you'd like more details on my job situation, keep reading below the smilies.

Thank you SO MUCH!!

:grouphug: :grouphug: :grouphug:

I have been in my job for about three and a half years. I like what I do (writing) but I don't get along with my boss, although in these three and a half years we achieved a kind of ceasefire--until recently.

We got a new vice president this past spring, which was a good thing--the old VP kept the department stagnant--but as soon as the old VP was gone, my immediate boss (the one I don't get along with) started pulling me off all my usual duties, until I was basically sitting in my office twiddling my thumbs (and reading DU of course). When the new VP got here, I appealed to him and told him I wanted to WORK, and he was pretty angry that my boss did that, and he gave me other, different assignments, but he doesn't seem to feel like getting my immediate boss to let me get back to my usual assignments.

I am not a fan of the new assignments; I like the old ones. The new ones are more corporate, and the old ones are more people-focused/feature-story-like, which I'm better at.

However, I held it together and didn't gripe much. I figured I'd wait it out, because the new VP said he was going to be taking a good hard look at what everybody does and restructuring the office pretty soon.

Then...he kicked me out of my office. Our department is on two floors, and while everyone expected he would remove someone else from their office to make room for the new Girl Friday he hired, it turned out to be me. Now I'm in the graphic design section--the only writer down here--he should have moved the photographer, which would have made more sense, everyone agrees--including the photographer.

So now I feel incredibly isolated, cut off from others of my kind (the writers). The VP keeps assuring me that this is not a demotion or punishment, but it sure feels like it. He also swore I wouldn't be forgotten but of course I have been.

Sometimes I feel like he's going to give me the boot even though he's hiring other people at a crazy rate, and will tell me that there aren't any jobs that "fit" me. Or he's going to put me up for adoption by another department that needs a writer (I'm at a pretty big college). And sometimes, even though we're broker than broke, I think I would welcome getting fired, because I'm getting pretty damned tired of being jerked around and I really don't feel like waiting around till the restructuring, which is supposed to be in November, although everything else has been delayed so that could be, too.

HELP! :cry:

On edit: Redundantly redundant.

[Cleita]

1. My feeling is, give it time. You are going to find in the long run

you will be happier at this time in the graphics department. Just bide your time, do the best job with what you are allowed to do and things will turn around in your favor down the line. I don't know if maybe some of the astrologers want to weigh in you might want to put your birthdate up.

[MorningGlow]

2. Thanks so much, Cleita!

I really appreciate it! I will try to stay on an even keel for now, but it's such a rough time at the moment, every little thing freaks me out ("What did he mean by that?" "What am I missing?" "Am I being as ignored as I feel?" etc.) Silly, I know, but there it is.

Good idea about the birthdate! I thought about that after the fact and never got back to re-editing my post to include it. Here 'tis:

January 2, 1966, 6:30 p.m. EST

[cassiepriam]

4. Need place of birth too.

Follow the advice of the others, but get your resume together at the same time.
And start sending it out. Too many red flags at work to ignore.

As they say, hope for the best but be prepared for the worst. Then whatever happens you will be OK.

The feeling I am getting is that everything in your life right now is an energy drain. Time to take stock and look for ways to energize yourself. Find something that has meaning and purpose.

[MorningGlow]

6. Thanks, Cassie

Place of birth is Rochester, NY.

I am feeling very drained, yes. I think that's why I kind of want them to fire me--even though that's not the best way out of the situation--just more of a "go ahead--put me out of my misery whydoncha" reaction.

[cassiepriam]

11. Don't let yourself be a victim.

Start looking around for other opportunities.

[MorningGlow]

13. You are too right

I DON'T like to be a victim--the label imposed by others or by myself.

Yet this situation makes me feel like I'm the recipient of the ol' "no good deed goes unpunished" thing, namely because I heard from several people that the VP almost moved another writer downstairs, but she put up such a stink (a six-page e-mail rant, for starters) that he gave up on her...for now. And there I was, all complacent and agreeable (albeit upset), doing what was asked of me...and it feels like it's just gotten worse because of it.

I will definitely start looking at the online job boards. In my darker moments, I feel like if I find another job, the VP will be relieved to not have to figure out what to do with me.

I know, I know--very negative on my part. Just the funk I'm in. Which I'm trying to pull out of!

Thanks again, Cassie. :hi:

[Grateful for Hope]

3. I am glad you responded before I did, Cleita

I was going to remark on the politics involved, but, what you say resonates with me. I think you are right -- MorningGlow, I think you will end up being quite happy there. Sometimes the wheels of motion spin slowly and seemingly strangely, but, in the end, they spin just right!

[MorningGlow]

8. Thanks, Hope!

I do like yours (and everyone's) positive spin on this situation. Being in the middle of it, all I see (from the eye of the storm, so to speak) is murky chaos--not something I like. I prefer to be able to see a clear path whenever possible, and I haven't seen a clear path in this situation for way too long. Makes me itchy.

But *sigh* I do know that we can't always see where the path is going, so I will keep following it.

But dang it if that VP doesn't pony up at least a hint of what my future is going to be by November, I'm gonna get really pissy! :rofl:

Ah. A laugh. I do feel better just getting objective advice! You guys rock.

[marions ghost]

5. the impression

I get is that you're in a holding pattern and waiting to land, but there's a lot of ground fog.:)

There is stagnation, loss of confidence, waiting for others to decide your fate. Suggest to go see what employment opportunities exist in other departments, since you like the college. If you decide to wait it out until the restructuring, then figure out how to make that more positive. You have nothing to lose, so you might as well see if whatever time you spend there can be more positive than you expect. See if you can turn it around. Don't complain to your co-workers. Don't go into a shell. Go the other way, break out of the box. See if you can do your work well in spite of this setback. See if you can elevate everybody's spirits around you. And see if reaching out to others comes back to you. Experiment with this (while getting your work done of course). YOU are in control of your life. That is probably the message to learn in the immediate situation.

You need to stretch your wings. I see birds, planes, things that fly. Suggest to meditate on a painting or photo that contains sky and the flying animal or object of your choice. Movement through air. Since you have a toddler, maybe you could play flying games with him/her. Take the family out where you all can run and play. I mean--PLAY. In open air.

[MorningGlow]

7. Ground fog is right, MG!

I definitely don't like stagnant energy and/or situations, and that's what I've got at work. All that "hurry up and wait" drives me mad.

Funny you should mention two things: 1) other departments--sometimes I think that wouldn't be so bad and have thought about investigating openings in my field; and 2) all the air imagery--air is my element! :)

[marions ghost]

9. aha... thanx for feedback

So that explains the air affinity and why you feel stifled in that situation. So need to create more flow. Breathe. Move. Find ways to do this even if you're still working there for awhile...but don't be too impatient to get your parachute together before jumping.:)

[MorningGlow]

14. :0)

A major weak trait of mine I need to keep on a leash--leaping too soon. Some Capricorn I am, huh? Where in the world is that famous practicality? :P

[BlueIris]

10. Oh, man. I was JUST thinking about you this morning.

During a period of strange, transcendental thinking about how stifled I am right now, career-wise. I was also thinking about your last post about these matters, and attempted to will your bosses to embrace more progressive workplace policies because it IS the twenty-first century now (and to be more respectful to you generally). So, I don't know if that helps, but I was thinking about you and sending you light before I saw your newest request for it.

If you're one of us stuck in a Neptunian fog as regards career matters--it's hitting Taureans bad right now--well, this is just going to have to work itself out, I think. I do have a feeling that you're at the end of some kind of cycle, though. A brief, minor chaos may ensue before the beginning of the next makes itself apparent, but I think it will start soon for you.

On edit: A fun astro link for you that may be relevant...

http://blogs.salon.com/0003573/

[MorningGlow]

15. Hey, Blue!

Thanks so much for the positive thoughts and the light--that's so sweet of you! :pals: Some backatcha for your career sitch as well! (Is there a "godlight" smiley around here...?)

I don't know how bad the Neptune thing hits Cappies like me, but I'd buy anything at this point. Sometimes I DO feel like this whole mess bigger than I am, and I'm just caught in the web of messy astrological stuff flying around--not to mention the Shift chaos.

I agree this is the end of an old cycle/start of a new cycle, especially with the realization that I'm at my six/seven year regeneration point again, like I said in that other thread. And of course some transitions are just downright messy--just have to surf the crud.

Interesting link! I will have to investigate it further. Hope it addresses the messy astrological stuff and, most important, when it will END! :banghead:

Hope you are well, BlueIris, and you're surfing the crud successfully. Keep me posted on your career decisions!

[BlueIris]

17. Here's another astro link about this that perked me right up:

Mainly because what I took from it was, "This too shall pass."

http://www.aquariuspapers.com/astrology/2006/06/spiritual_astro.html

[MorningGlow]

18. Ah that explains a lot!

I understand this situation much better now--and the best news is that this crap is going to clear up by the end of this month (all times approximate, I understand, but still). And fall is supposed to be better, huh? I can deal with that. (Ooh time for a Monty Python Life of Brian quote: "You're only making it worse for yourself!" "Making it worse? HOW could it be worse??")

I even saw something specific to Mr. MorningGlow's work situation in there--that summer was kind of a holding pattern but the issue will manifest in November. And DH's contract job started in the summer and he will be hired permanently in November (already got the word it's a go). Great work by the Aquarius Papers author.

Thanks again, Blue. I have printed this to share with my class this week--my elder said she's had tons of people freaking out on her--this helps explain why.

:hi:

[cassiepriam]

12. You are approaching your Uranus Opposition

This is an astrological biggie! The midlife crisis. It won't be exact until next year but often the effects are felt for a year before and after.

Yours may affect you more strongly because it lines up with the axis of your grand trine kite, and hits the tip of the kite which also has natal Chiron and Saturn, opp N Uran conjunct N Pluto. So a lot going on for you in the next year or so.

This is an exciting time, it can be a bumpy ride but the energy is being sent to you for a reason. It is a time to take stock of your life. The universe is giving you a big chance to accomplish life goals, to learn lessons, and to overcome obstacles.

It is sending a lot of energy to the 9/10/3 houses so we are looking at mental expansion, career, communication, maybe siblings. But since it is a kite it is going to hit other areas of your chart as well.

Some of the others here are very good at transits so perhaps they will post something. In the meantime start goggling Uranus Opposition and you will begin to learn what is happening to you right now!

Now is a time to step back and really look at your life.

[MorningGlow]

16. A what?!

Midlife crisis?! Blimey! :rofl:

Seriously, these details are so cool--thank you for that analysis. I am in constant awe of folks who can "do" astrology. I may be good with other esoteric subjects, but that one eludes me.

And I'm not surprised that I've reached a "reflection" point--and not just because I'm 40--it's just...you know...TIME for one.

I will definitely do some research on Uranus Opposition and other fun aspects of my chart now. This info is so helpful.

:yourock:

[cassiepriam]

19. Glad it helped..... all of this is normal.

Your UO is very interesting as it hits the tip of your kite and will affect so much
of your chart. Lots of good power if you listen to what the universe is telling you. Go to Astro.com and look at it yourself. See how beautiful it is? See how it is all going to be a powerful lineup of planets? It will rattle you, but we all need to be rattled mid life. It is a big chance for us to do the things we were meant to do.

Like riding a wave, you can go with the flow or fight it.

And also I have no agenda whether you stay or leave your job. I just think that you need to have more personal power, and your talents are not being utilized. Anyone with a kite has lots of talent and gifts, they are meant to be used in this life. And now is the time to do it.

[MorningGlow]

20. Good news update

Last night (Tuesday) I felt a palpable change in energy, like someone switched on a lamp (one with a nice, soft, homey glow). Specifics:

• I was at a huge meeting yesterday afternoon and made a comment and saw the VP SMILING. PHEW!
  
  
• MorningGlow Jr. has started to feed himself totally (he's capable but too busy fidgeting most of the time) so I got to eat my dinner while it was still warm.
  
  
• Got home and it was very cool out, so I went around the house closing windows, and even though it wasn't "really" there, I could smell falling leaves and woodsmoke. Autumn, my favorite season, has arrived! I told Mr. MorningGlow to call the firewood guy--it's time.
  
  
• MG Jr. still didn't sleep through the night, and he still ended up in our bed, but he thrashed much less and we all finally got a decent night's sleep.
  

I do believe we have turned the corner, folks! Thanks to everyone for getting me through the end-of-the-month rough patch!

[Why Syzygy]

21. Glad things have turned...

One thing I found worked miracles when my (then) baby's dad and I split up, even though he was "too young" to really understand, babies are really quite sensitive, and he was restless at night was to whisper, "everything is alright, everything will be okay". He settled down immediately and slept soundly.

[MorningGlow]

22. Thanks, VSM

I have no idea what's waking him up. He's almost three years old. And he used to sleep through the night. But now...ugh.

Around midnight, 1:00, he's up and crawling into our bed (well, my bed at the moment, as DH is sleeping on the couch because Jr.'s a thrasher), and then he's awake again around 3:00, flipping and flopping and thrashing like a fish out of water. I don't get it.

My elder thinks he's picking up on the unsettled energy of late (he's a crystal child), so if that's the case, I'm hoping he'll settle down as the energy gets smoother in the fall. I hope I hope I hope...

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