Ready to crawl out of my skin .........

[2Design]

Stuck
Seemly unwilling to get unstuck since I am not taking action to change
Not sure where to change to

Just wanting something different and no idea what that is

[BanzaiBonnie]

1. Just take a step sideways...

You'll be going neither backward nor forward, but you'll have a different perspective. You might see something you like.

[2Design]

2. thanks - I got up and returned a video and that did seem to change the energy n/t

[I Have A Dream]

3. I hope that things get better for you soon.

I'm asking that the Universe help you to better see the path before you.

:hug:

[2Design]

4. thanks - I ask that every night with reiki hands over my heart -

just always feel like I am in a Vise

[BlueIris]

5. I feel that.

Things should be better by the end of this summer, I think.

[OneGrassRoot]

6. This is driving me crazy....

I've seen something, somewhere, throughout this week about being a stuck. An article or something. I don't personally feel in that space, so I never read it, but the word "stuck" jumped out at me repeatedly, and I think now it's because I'm supposed to share whatever it was with you.

And now I can't find it! :(

I'll keep trying to find what it was in which the word "stuck" kept jumping out.

In the meantime, I offer :hug: :hug: :hug: of support that your path is made clear and you experience more peaceful about this.

[stellanoir]

7. Hmmm

Inertia. . .eh. . .?

The I Ching speaks of critical mass. Alchemical texts refer to attuning to the "nigredo" just before the transformational process is possible. Aah-h-h. . . that would refer to "the nothingness" and is not to be construed as a racial slur in any way shape or form.

Our culture has long been obsessed with accomplishment and overt action. Like we're supposed to be action figures or something. I simply can't find my spandex sometimes either. My imaginary valet is always compulsively putting it away.

We hold only marginal respect or reverence for the introspective and potentially restorative "down times" that in essence, are not at all unrelated to the uplifting creativity which may or may not ensue in direct proportion to the depth at which we are able to recharge.

Gaia seems to tell me that there is a need for many of us to go deep right now and perhaps we'll find a far more redemptive horizon's edge. (kindly excuse the semi lamo word play-mine not hers)

Consider savoring the stillness and perhaps you'll find the magic in each moment. Who knows. . .?

Goodness knows ya can't arm wrestle with it.

best,

ripella van winkle

on edit- funny . . . as soon as I posted this song came on the radio station I stream . . .

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=H3HMhvLtVyA

"Heaven is a place. . .where nothing. . .ever happens. . ."

lol

[peacefreak]

8. Another stuckee.

I watched a spider wrap a wasp in her web earlier this week & knew exactly how the wasp felt. Hemmed in by circumstance, lack of money, lack of hope. The heat & humidity on the East coast isn't helping much either.

[Celebration]

9. well, if you are like me (and I have these issues)

It all has to do with inertia.

"An object in motion remains in motion. An object at rest remains at rest, unless acted upon by some outside force."

The idea is this--initially, you do have to "push" (use force) to get started, like pushing the accelerator. Before you press the accelerator it is possible you will have to get out of the car, check out the mud, and perhaps get a board out for your tires, to keep them from spinning around in the mud. Once going the flow comes.......you can look forward to that. Rather than seeing yourself as stuck, visualize yourself in motion, then take the initial plunge. You won't have to keep using force. Once in motion, you will remain in motion until you decide otherwise. Flow, flow, flow. Feel it, see it, smell it, hear it, touch it.

"Stuck" is essentially a decision. It's not a fun place to be, so, after acknowledging that, it is a bit easier to take the plunge, shift, and remain in motion.

[BanzaiBonnie]

11. I appreciate what you've said about this

pressing on the accelerator, I would also add "direction" or goal. Sometimes you have to get out the map to see where you're going. That's where the introspection comes in.

Earlier replies talked about that and I'm in agreement with them. Introspection is an important step that is much devalued by our go, go, go society. Introspection looks a lot like goofing off and heaven forbid anyone goofs off and is not productive all the time.

Be easy with yourself 2Design. When feeling ill at ease, search for the message in that feeling. What's that all about. Believe me, there is a message. Heck, everything is a message. I have a friend who is fond of quoting that "sometimes a banana is just a banana" thing, but that's rare.

If only people would pay more attention to their feelings rather than ignore or over-ride them, we'd all be in a lot better shape. So would our planet.

Take care,
Bonnie

[2Design]

13. Feelings - oh I have feelings - tears or anger - tears of aloneness

noone loves me type thing, and/or it is always and or - just if I stop at the moment of feeling like crawling out of my skin, tears come, anger too (sometimes, sometimes a little) - never really having someone who loved me so much to help me over the fence, out of danger, into myself, I know the stream of consciousness seems confused but it is not - that deep deep love - maybe it can only be found in Danielle Steele books - I know I offer that - but am rebutted when I do - it is the energy - they push back - they do not want that - almost consuming - but I am not wanting to consuming - but want to be so loved - a little too personal here again - just when I stop that Chinese finger pull toy against myself - I want to cry - it feels like a pity party - so I go with the saying - move a muscle change a thought - seems healthier - a psychic once told me a I am a 'human doing' instead of a 'human being' -

it is like fighting to be left alone, don't bother me, but wanting the love without the hassle - it is like struggle feels more normal - the other feels so good - but like chocolate is soon gone

Well I am rambling - reminds me a pearl of wisdom I once had - a spiritual pearl - sometimes I am like the sand inside the oyster - I irritate and scratch and sand until the other person becomes the pearl - just they hate me and it when it is happening and once they are the pearl , they leave

I guess I am feeling like I am doing that within myself right now as I wrote that I thought - that is what I am doing to myself - irritating the crap out of myself -

[OneGrassRoot]

12. What's odd is that in the last two months or so....

even though there has been SO much drama around me, affecting me in various ways, I have been almost obsessed with DOING. Putting one foot in front of the other toward working on various projects...however small steps they may be. And, interestingly, I haven't been that focused on the outcome but on the DOING in the moment.

But I've been absolutely compelled to keep my nose to the grindstone and DO. Granted, I'm blessed in that I know what there is to do...what I want to be doing... but the feeling of moving forward has felt like an outside force compelling me to DO.

Hope that makes sense.

:grouphug:

[MorningGlow]

10. Och, me too

Been there before, and I'm there again. I have learned that, much like escaping quicksand, flailing about randomly and violently only gets you deeper in the muck, but staying still and moving slowly and smoothly works to get you out. In other words, taking action just for action's sake can make it worse. I agree with Stella--inaction can be useful for introspection.

But if you feel like you should be "doing" something and you can't figure out what that is...well, I can commiserate, because I feel the same way. I just try to listen to my instinct and wait patiently for a sign, because signs usually do arrive, albeit sometimes not when we want them to.

Hang in there, 2D. :hug:

[FirstLight]

14. I am *so* right there with you

I posted a long eloquent post yesterday about feeling like this, and when I hit the send button, the computer went offline!

Been questioning my 'purpose' and at the same time doing everything in my power to be a total slacker.

my NEW computer took a dump one month after replacing my old one...(i'm on my teen's computer today because i can't LIVE without my online community, lol)

and I am not seeing any progress on the business or work front...I think I decided to abandon the online news org that I was offered to run, strictly because it is more of a "you make it work" thing, rather than me getting paid to work for someone else. And when you are in survival mode like me it is not easy to try & 'sell yourself'

so...what do i do? take the summer off and just go to the beach...?
been indulging in those self-destructive behaviors too...drinking in the evenings and watching tv, not cleaning house, etc going out till 2am for no other reason than to get free from the confines of my house...and listen to good music, lol

just in the 'funk' too...must be the shift of the ages...
i don't feel like anything is safe, like whatever i invest my time in there won't be enough room for me to succeed or do well because it's all falling apart anyway..so why bother? I've been in poverty THIS long, what makes me think I can pull it out of the bag when the economy is in the tank, right?

sheesh! and i know better, too!

is it planetary...? are we picking up collective mind from others who are saying 'fuckit' too?
I was asking 'is it just me?' ...but i guess it isn't!

[JanusAscending]

15. Don't ya just hate when that happens??!!!

I can't tell you how many times I have written this long detailed post, only to have my puter quit on me just when I'm ready to send it!!! I sometimes refrain from such writing because I've wasted my time too often!!! I've got a slew of new stuff to share with you guys, but am waiting for some crucial information to come through first. I will say I met who I think may have a lot of unanswered questions regarding my long search for a diagnosis re my "sicca". He's the reumatologist my PCD sent me to. He's ordered a battery of blood tests and xrays before he makes his conclusions and prescribes for me...but he seems to think it has been sjogrens syndrome from the get go!!! plus....THERE IS A MEDICATION I could have been on all this time that was suggested to my PCD by the Retinologist he sent me to. One was "restasis" for my dry eyes, and the other I can't recall for the dry mouth. My MRI showed explicit nerve damage from two different herniated discs...so I will be seeing a neurosurgeon soon too. Problem is, when I was in the hospital they found a problem with my blood from all the testing they did. Something about the clotting factor, antibodies (I know I have RH antibodies) and low magnesium. This must all be worked out by a hematologist I'm seeing next week. Until this is resolved, I doubt they will schedule any surgery. I'm afraid to write any more in this post only to lose it, so I will answer any questions you may have and respond to comments as they come. Love to all and thanks for your prayers.

[OneGrassRoot]

16. Hey, JA....

You absolutely are in my thoughts and prayers daily.

And I always send hugs through the ethers as well. Please do keep us posted as you can.

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[ricochetastroman]

17. IF YOU ARE USING WINDOWS...

type your document first in a .txt format first. You can't lost it, then paste it into your post on DU


1. right-Click anywhere blank on desktop
2. Choose NEW/Text document (.txt)
3. it will automatically call it "newdocument.txt" It doesn't matter because you're not going to save it.
4. Type your entire message into it including any html tags such as Make this bold
5. When you are done and have started a blank post in DU
6. Press Control-A while you are in your txt editor which is the program called Notebook.exe
To save it in your buffer or paste buffer, click on EDIT/COPY or simply press CONTROL-C
7. Click back into your blank DU document and press EDIT/PASTE or simply press CONTROL-V

You will never lose a document again

simply
Open DU post which is blank
Right click on desktop, choose NEW/TEXT DOCUMENT
Enter document into the new text document
When done, Control-A to select the whole new text, press Control-C to copy it, and press Control-V to paste it into DU

Hope that helps
Can you tell I worked on a computer help-desk for many years! Yuck! :hi:

[BanzaiBonnie]

18. How are you doing 2Design?

What's changed? I've been thinking about you and keeping good thoughts directed your way.