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I must tell you that I have spent a lot of time in my life pondering the meaning of the word "forgiveness." I see the right-wing "Christians" who have taken over this country just breaking their necks in their rush to forgiveness -- read that "Let's "forgive" so we don't have to talk about it, and so we can move on to the next outrage without any accountability for our crimes." The word "forgiveness" carries religious overtones which are offensive to me, but the word "pardon" gets bandied about as though it's a more clinical and acceptable term in the political arena. I think of Gerald Ford and his pardon of Nixon, and I consider that act a high crime and misdemeanor, an opportunistic act in service of putting the lid on the whole criminal enterprise that Nixon headed up.
I grew up with Christian fundamentalists, and I am estranged from my own mother as we speak because I cannot and will not give one more moment of my life to defending who and what I am. I think I probably err too much in the direction of accountability, slightly tinged with revenge, when I consider Mandela's truth commissions as they might be applied to what has happened here. I often think of Gandhi and his struggle, and I always point out to people that Gandhi's remarkable spiritual journey started with *anger*. He did a much better job of channeling his anger into productive channels than I am able to do. This whole right-wing takeover has been very personal for me, because I grew up (with revolt in my heart and soul) among the same Christians that Kenneth Starr grew up (did he?) with. And I am sometimes so taken over with rage that I have to struggle to bring myself back to center.
It's an irony (to me, anyway) that I ended up in my mid-twenties talking all this over with a Freudian analyst, and after spending a considerable length of time with him, he pointed out to me that -- I'll quote him here: "You are not off the hook until you let your mother off the hook." (Thank you, Dr. Freeman -- and his name is another irony, I think). His message was not that anything she ever did was acceptable under any moral code, but that my own path to freedom had to do with drawing a line in the sand and saying "No more," and attempting (realizing that the attempt might fail) to find compassion for her in my heart. I have tried, truly, but compassion is not a very effective weapon against the conditioning of hellfire that my mother grew up with, and attempted to pass on to me. I have often said that for some cosmic reason, I was born with a teflon coating that saved me from that Hell. Dr. Freeman simply said that I had too much intelligence for the life I was born into!
Because of what I know intimately about the religious right, I have been very disturbed at Obama's own discussions of "post-partisan politics." I *want* him and his administration to be *very* partisan in pursuit of justice for the last eight years, and in support of the Constitution. I would like to be able to trace the origins of the word "forgiveness," because I cannot think that its intention was to simply whitewash unacceptable behavior. Jesus is rumored to have driven the moneychangers out of the temple. We could use that kind of righteous anger now, and I hope that Obama, et al. are going to find it in themselves to take legal and moral action against the Bush cabal, in service of announcing to the world, and those in this country who have tried to subvert the rule of law, that a new day has arrived, and no criminals need apply.
I recall the gloating that took place in 2000 in a venue I participate in because of my profession. I am a trainer in the court reporting field, and belonged to a court reporting forum where there were, to my surprise, a large number of right-wingers who showed clearly that they didn't give a damn about the rule of law (which they all claimed to support through what they do), but rather were very pleased that they had managed to pull off a smart one (a coup), a la Bush v. Gore. I observe that the court reporting community is deeply divided, a small microcosm that reflects the views of the rest of the country. Just as, out in the wide world, right-wingers in that group beat their breasts over their religion, and warn solemnly about the expected arrival of first, socialism, and then communism. Thankfully, there are progressives who push back in that community.
So, the question that keeps coming to me is whether it is a moral stance to give a wave of the hand and a pardon for wrongs when hundreds of thousands of innocent people have died for this brazen right-wing experiment in totalitarianism. It isn't much of a question. I think we need to reconvene Nuremberg and purge the country, and the world, of the poison that has crept into our politics.
There is a scene in "Judgment at Nuremberg" in which a judge, having been found guilty of crimes against humanity, seeks some kind of solace in telling the Prosecutor, Jackson, that what had just happened to him, and what was said in that tribunal, needed to be said. It was his mea culpa moment, and I rather think that that is what Colin Powell has just come to. What he has just said, in endorsing Obama, needed to be said, and I must personally leave it to a higher power (maybe just a court of law in America) to decide where his culpability lies, and what degrees of guilt he carries.
Abraham Lincoln said that the nation was engaged in a great struggle to determine whether we would remain half slave and half free. I think that same ethic is at play now, but with less obvious connotations. Will we remain a nation that is half-enslaved to the tyranny of religious idolatry and cultural bigotry, and an intention to dominate the whole nation, or will the half of the nation that is free in their thinking, and progressive in their worldview, win the day? I don't want to say "win the war," even though it does seem that we are engaged in a war of the mind, a perceptual battle whose end result will determine how, and if, life will go on with soul and grace on Planet Earth, or whether we will descend to a dark place, pulled into the abyss, metaphorically, in the way that slaves, chained together, were thrown off of slave ships to lighten the cargo load.
Who errs? Who forgives?
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