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First off, let me just say right up front that I do still and will continue to support Howard Dean in the Democratic race, because he is the only candidate that I really believe in.
But therein lies the problem. Why do I believe in Howard Dean? Because I think he stands for something different. I think he stands for principles above all else. He isn't afraid to say what he thinks and he always tries to do the right thing, even if, as he says, it isn't the popular thing.
But I see now that the very same reasons I like Dean so much are the very same reasons that he could not win the primary, yet alone the general election. I wish to all hell that it was not true, but there is no use denying reality. I'd like to think that we could take a stand, that we could say to the American people: "this guy gives us something to believe in." In my fantasy the public would see what I see in Dean and contrast that with what George W. Bush stands for. The election would be a landslide, the Democratic party would be transformed from a bunch of GOP-lite cowards to a true voice for the common man, and politics from here on out would be forever changed for the better.
But it just isn't realistic. The Kerry/Gephardt attack ads that ran in Iowa linking Dean to Osama bin Laden (an ad I used to think even the Repukes would hesitate at propagating) is a perfect example of why Dean couldn't win. Those ads killed his chances in Iowa, which in turn severly crippled his chances in New Hampshire. The ad and everything it stands for sickens me, and frankly I don't think I will EVER forgive Kerry for it. None the less, it worked, and Dean was powerless against it.
Only now does it come out who was truly behind the ad, but it is too late. Dean is done, over, finished. Why? Because he stood up for his principles, he said that Osama ought to get a fair trial, he said that the U.S. isn't any better off with Hussein gone, he said that the Bush Administration was at fault for 9/11, and so forth. I know in my heart that it is all true and I wish to God that people would recognize that. But it isn't the way politics works in this country. Its a dirty, dirty game with no room for people with any real integrity.
So what now? I must, as always, choose the lesser of two evils. The only two contenders left are Kerry, of course, and Edwards as a long shot (though I think these infedility accusations may prove very damaging to Kerry). Both of these Senators voted for the Patriot Act, which only aimed to shred the Bill of Rights. Both of them voted for the IWR, which only sent us into another Vietnan-like quagmire, and for all the wrong reasons to boot. Both votes are simply unconsciounable, IMO. Yeah, I know that it would be hard for somebody who voted against the war to get elected as President. And I know that someone who voted against the Patriot Act would have been wide open to assaults of being "unpatriotic."
But god dammit, there comes a time when you've got to make a stand. Kerry, having fought in 'Nam, really should have known the damage he would be directly responsible for by voting for the IWR. I don't buy that shit that he thought G.W. Bush would do the right thing because *I* knew he wouldn't and I would hope that Kerry is far more knowledgeable than I when it comes to the Bush White House, thus he should have known what I knew.
But I guess I'm just going to have to swallow that. It sucks, its not fair, it isn't the way things should be, but there is just no use in shooting yourself in the foot to make a point.
So Edwards is my top choice after Dean. Why? Because he is charismatic and he is a political neo-phyte, which to me means he is not as beholden to unsavory interests as a guy like Kerry, who has been in politics a LONG time.
My fellow Dean supporters: please don't see this as a betrayal. He is still my guy and I will gladly continue to work for and vote for him. I guess I just got a dose of reality and as much as I wish that I could ignore it, it is counterproductive to do so. Yes, a little part of my soul just died, but I guess that is just the way it has to be. If you think about it, it really goes a long way in explaining the sorry state of U.S. society today. We are all losing our souls a bit at a time and it seems as though we are powerless to stop it.
Sorry if this brought you down. Reality has a way of doing that, though.
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