Just Because...

[ScreamingMeemie]

http://youtube.com/watch?v=SmVAWKfJ4Go


I hurt myself today
To see if I still feel
I focus on the pain
The only thing that's real
The needle tears a hold
The old familiar sting
Try to kill it all away
But I remember everything


What have I become
My sweetest friend
Everyone I know goes away
In the end
And you could have it all
My empire of dirt
I will let you down
I will make you hurt

I wear this crown of thorns
Upon my liar's chair
Full of broken thoughts
I cannot repair
Beneath the stains of time
The feelings disappear
You are someone else
I am still right here

What have I become
My ssweetest friend
Everyone I know goes away
In the end
And you could have it all
My empire of dirt
I will let you down
I will make you hurt

If I could start again
A million miles away
I would keep myself
I would find a way

[JVS]

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[ScreamingMeemie]

2. ...

thanks

[auntAgonist]

3. ...

Laura.


aA
kesha

[ScreamingMeemie]

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[VenusRising]

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[ScreamingMeemie]

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[u4ic]

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[ScreamingMeemie]

16. ...

x 50 gabillion.

[MissMillie]

8. sending you some love, Laura

[ScreamingMeemie]

17. ...

I liked the tea cosy picture. It suits you.

[SeattleGirl]

9. ...

How interesting that you posted this, MrsG. I just showed my sister the Johnny Cash video of this, as she had never seen it.

[ScreamingMeemie]

18. Johnny Cash...

one of my husband's favorite singers. I used to call him my own man in black.

[SPKrazy]

10. Hey, I love that song

and I have felt hurt, and you have felt hurt, and people who have felt hurt understand at different degrees the hurt that Cash owns in this song and the video is painful.

I focus on the pain, the only thing that's real...

some days, that is what is real, that is what lets me know I'm alive

Mrs. Grumpy I wish I could give you a real big hug, and let you know how much your reaching out to me has meant.



I can't imagine your pain right now as I'm in a different place, with my own pain.

Yet you've been very kind to me and I thank you for it.

I don't know how to express that except to say thanks, and I appreciate it

[ScreamingMeemie]

19. ...

Immersing myself in the issues of others is the only way I can forget about how much this sucks.

I am so sorry for all you have been through.

[merh]

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[ScreamingMeemie]

20. ...

[In_The_Wind]

12. ~

[ScreamingMeemie]

21. ...

[jus_the_facts]

13. thinking of you all....

....always. hug:

[ScreamingMeemie]

22. ...

thanks

[lightningandsnow]

14. damn...

Hope your OK. I can relate to that song....

Sending lots of hugs your way.

[ScreamingMeemie]

23. ...

Okay as it will ever get.

[Mutley]

15. I dont' know how much DU :hug: means to you

But it's all I have to give.

I wonder how you're doing quite often.

[ScreamingMeemie]

24. ...

I am grateful for the kids.

[BeachBaby]

25. I know you don't know me....

but after something you posted a few nights ago, I clicked on your profile, and then your blog link.

In a nutshell, I laid in bed, staring at the ceiling for a long time after reading your blog. I didn't know anything about you until I read it. And it shook me to my very core.

You and I are relatively the same age (I just turned 39) - and my heart hurts for you.

If I could think of one thing to say to you, it would be this: in a world where so many people have never experienced true love, you and your beloved were two people who managed to find it and relish in every second of it. People look at you and wish they could have had that kind of love, if only for a day.

As ill-timed as its ending was, I hope that one day you will notice that the grief is starting to subside, even if just a little bit; that when you hear a certain song, instead of shedding tears, you will smile and remember; that when you look at pictures, the memories of that time will fill your head and heart with the love you shared; and when you look at your son, you are looking at an extension of the amazing man who helped mold him into who he has become.

He's still with you, my friend....in your heart, in your memories, and through your son.

[ScreamingMeemie]

27. ...

I know you now. It was a wonderful life. One I try to be grateful for and yet hurt for the end of. I hope you have a great weekend and thank you for reading there.

[Shakespeare]

26. ::::

I love you, Laura.

I'm so, so, SO glad you're still posting here, because you've been a great example for me. I've finally found love like I never thought I'd experience, and I promise you I will never, EVER take it for granted. And I make sure he knows it, too.

[ScreamingMeemie]

28. ...

I love you too...and I hope you have a long and wonderfully happy life together. You deserve it.

[Tektonik]

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[ScreamingMeemie]

35. ...

[BarenakedLady]

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[ScreamingMeemie]

36. ...

[GreenPartyVoter]

31. *hugs*

[ScreamingMeemie]

37. ...

Thanks...back at you..

[YellowRubberDuckie]

32. I love ya, Laura.

I hope you know that.
My heart hurts for you. I think about you a lot, and I wish I could do something to help you. We used to talk a bit back in the day, but not so much any more. But I still haven't forgotten what a wonderful person you are. I hope you know that I am here if you ever need a laugh, to talk about something normal, or if you need someone to just listen. I read your blog at least once a week, and every single time I do, I wish I could give you a hug and take the hurt away.
Anyway, I hope you know that even though we've never been close or really talk anymore, I still hold you in terribly high esteem and have nothing but love for you.
Love,
Duckie

[ScreamingMeemie]

38. ...

I have always considered you a good friend, and on that I felt close to.

[Ptah]

33. That's the first time I watched or listened to that.

[ScreamingMeemie]

39. ...

It is heartbreaking isn't it? And true. I used to cry when MrG and I listened to it never knowing that it would prove truthful in such a short time.

[ulysses]

34. Laura

[ScreamingMeemie]

40. ...

and one for the beautiful, artistic baby of yours too

[1gobluedem]

41. Oh, Laura...

Just...

I wish I knew the right words to say.

[ScreamingMeemie]

42. ...

There really is nothing that can be said. I appreciate your friendship.