Just sitting here thinking about the events of the past day

[RFKHumphreyObama]

I'm reading about the shootings and the victims and the shooter and I just feel an overwhelming amount of grief and sadness. It wasn't too long ago that I lived on campus -in my own country -and to me the people who died could have been my friends, the people whose company I enjoyed during my university days, the people whom I used to see in the corridors and on the stairs everyday between classes and at social events. To me, There's so much I loved about campus life and I miss it so much. This is just an unspeakable tragedy. I'm just feeling incredibly sad for the victims and the survivors and their families. I know for these people their lives will never be the same. No one deserves this amount of tragedy in their lives. I know it happens every day on a regular basis but the senseless and tragic nature of it all profoundly distresses me

I'm reading about the killer as well. It's funny, this morning I had a hot molten rage and anger toward him and was thinking some very hostile and hate-filled thoughts. But now I just feel sad for him. Sad that he didn't get the help that so clearly needed. Sad that he was obviously trapped in his own mind with his own problems and emotions and that he responded in such a tragic and senseless and violent way. I'm still angry at him but much of that rage has subsided

[SeattleGirl]

1. I hear you.

Yesterday and today were very tough for me. Remember the shootings at Thurston High School in Springfield, Oregon? My daughter went to that school until a few months before the shootings (she moved up here to Seattle), but her sister still went there. She was late that morning and pulled into the parking lot just as people came running out screaming about someone shooting people. My sisters work at the hospital that a lot of the kids were brought to, and it really tore them up. I spent over an hour trying to reach someone to find out if my daughter's sister was okay (after going to my daughter's high school to pick her up and tell her what happened). This has been like a bad flashback for us, and yesterday, I made the mistake of looking at some threads in GD, which upset me even more.

I feel some anger at the shooter too, but even more anger at the systems that could have helped him, but didn't. :cry: