OMG OMG OMG, I'm too happy for my shirt.

[Jamastiene]

She hugged me. She said she'd miss me. She called my name specifically when a few of us were leaving class and then hugged me. Aaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhh, I'm so happy today. She was so soft and cuddly. Oh, gawd, she's amazing. And she said just what I thought she would about painting a cat, that they tend not to like that very much. I know this is cryptic, but I have a small window of time for relief from the anticipation. I need advice, a hacker, a rubber band, a paper clip, and a valium before I poke a hole in the ceiling from jumping for joy.

Long story short, she said she emailed me this morning. I need someone with hacking skills. I'm dying to get the email and I know my school's email system is painfully slow and sometimes doesn't even let the emails leave the building. I want that email. It's mine, dammit. It still hasn't come yet. I need help. The school's email server needs to un-ass my email. Who can hack? Or if there is a legal way to find out why I haven't gotten it yet, I'd rather do it that way, actually.

I wants my precious. My precious email. Oh.My.God. :bounce: :bounce: I'm too happy for my shirt, so happy it hurts.

Oh and btw, I have three glorious weeks to get into everything in the Lounge. It's time to break out the childproof terrible two's kid cage. I know I'm 35, but me likey partying in the Lounge so much.

Hey y'all, guess what? Fucken A, she hugged me. That's priceless!!!

:party: :toast: :crazy: :silly: :spank: :wow: :thumbsup: :kick: :loveya: :hug: :grouphug: :pals: :headbang: :yourock: :dilemma: :blush: :applause: :woohoo:

[progmom]

1. awwwwwwwww

:hug: I am really happy for you.

[Jamastiene]

5. She offered the hug.

I didn't even have to work up the nerve to beg for it. I can't help myself. I'm so freaking happy right now. I can't remember the last time I was this happy. She even mentioned possible trip to her house to fix a lamp. I'll fix her lamp and anything else electrical she needs to have fixed. She is one of those women I adore so much that I am grateful just to be in her presence. A hug is just just exhilarating.

[plcdude]

12. well

I have a good idea what you will be doing for the rest of the afternoon have a good one or two or three.

[Jamastiene]

13. Pahhhhhhhhtaaaaayyyy!

Y'all know I had to come to the Lounge and share my happiest moment in ages. Y'all are the ones who get me through my obsessiveness and my neuroticism. Y'all are my best friends. :hug:

[plcdude]

14. so you are

having a little fun pm about it if you want.

[Mutley]

2. I'm not entirely sure what you're talking about, but I'm Really happy for

you.

:hug: :woohoo: :applause:

I don't know how to hack, sorry.

[Jamastiene]

7. Awwww, thank you.

I'm so excited I can't even think right now. Me likey. :hug: :woohoo:

[Oeditpus Rex]

3. So does this mean you and I are finished?

:cry:

[Jamastiene]

8. Awwwwwwww, don't be upset.

You know how bad I have it for this woman. I just can't help myself. You know you are still my IBTL buddy. :hug: :loveya:

[L A Woman]

4. strangely enough....

i know exactly what you mean. :-)

Awesome!

[Jamastiene]

9. Yes, it's true.

A simple hug from her made my day. She's that great. I'd be happy to be her puppy and follow her around from place to place just to sit by her feet, just to be in the same room with her. She's super mega cool like that.

[NewWaveChick1981]

6. Jama, that's great!

I'm really happy for you! :party: :toast: :hug:

[Jamastiene]

10. I wants my email and I wants it now.

Thanks so much. I know you probably understand what the commotion is all about. It's all I have thought about all weekend and talked about incessantly for about a week now.

She sent me an email. She loves cats too. She said she was a cat person. Even showed me some of her battle scars from living with cats. We compared notes on how they rule any house where they live.

[tinfoil tiaras]

11. Awww, I'm really happy for you!

I'm happy for everyone who finds love. :loveya: :hug:

[Jamastiene]

15. Awwwwww, thank you.

It's such a special occasion for me. I just had to share it with the ppl who are here for me day in and day out through thick and thin. :loveya: :hug:

[Dangerously Amused]

16. You are sooooo cute all giddy like that!

Happy for you happiness!






:7

[Jamastiene]

18. I'm absolutely thrilled.

I am pretty easy to please. I am grateful to have been in her presence for the short time I was. Hopefully, I'll get to go fix her lamp and we can continue to compare notes on our cats. I'll never forget that sweet hug though. It was one of those things I dream of. I love hugs.

[bicentennial_baby]

17. Awwww, yay! yay!!

You sound soooooo happy babygirl!! Yay!! :bounce:

:loveya:

[Jamastiene]

19. I just got some pictures one of my classmates took of the plastic art.

I will try to keep this thread open for when they go up on the web site, so I can share the link to the pictures. We also did 2 huge abstract paintings. Those will most likely go up tomorrow. I can't wait to see them. I can see this will be one three week vacation where I spend at least 3 days at school. One for early pay for fall semester, one to pick up text books, and one to see the paintings hanging in the student lounge. I'm excited to see the pictures of them when we get them.

I truly loved that class all the way around. Wish they were all that full of free expression and open creativity. The teacher was perfect in the way she gave us pointers on how to paint and stencil, but left the creative part in our hands. Too bad life can't always be the way she made that class. She was a true original. No cookie cutter generic other person there. She was so lovable. Most of us hated to go today.

[WritingIsMyReligion]

20. Nice!

:woohoo:

Is she some kind of a teacher? Is she someone you're crushing on, or just someone you really admire, in a fairly Platonic way? Are there any previous threads on this you could point me towards?

Anyway, congrats! Glad you're so happy!

:toast:

[Jamastiene]

21. Any of the above.

I've mentioned in passing that I have been crushing on her pretty bad, but it's like this: She is one of those rare people that is so amazing that I'm grateful to be in the same room with her. I love her in a platonic way first, a spiritual type way next, and yeah, I got a huge crush on her. She's just one of those people that does that to ya. A hug from her meant more to me than she will ever know.

Threads to see: On the "crush" thread earlier I mentioned her and on a couple of other threads, I mentioned my agony because I thought there was something wrong. I don't have search any more and they are older than 48 hours, so I can't tell ya where they might be now. I can say there has been some serious melodrama with me the last few days. Just to know that she is "ok" with me means more than you could possibly imagine. She's miles above me. Oh, for just the chance to express my admiration of her and to adore her. The only place I feel safe to openly say how much is here. I wouldn't want to freak her out by telling her just how much in person. I doubt she'd want to hear that. Just a simple hug really means a lot to me though. I know that's hard for some people to understand. I don't get much affection in life from people. Getting this hug from her took a miracle, see. When I really look up to someone and think they are great, it makes my day if they pay any attention to me at all, much less do something great like give me a hug. I'm grateful for any affection I can get.

[WritingIsMyReligion]

23. I know how you feel. At least, I think I have some notion.

:)

I know a most amazing woman, too, whom I love heart and soul, in a vastly Platonic manner. She was my teacher a few years ago, she has helped me enormously, and she's just, as you say, one of those people with whom you are grateful just to be in the same room. She is 40 years older than I am, but she is still absolutely wonderful--probably BECAUSE she is so much older than I am, actually. :) Getting an e-mail from her is always a tiny little jolt of satisfaction, of pride, almost, that she thinks highly enough of me to e-mail me.

Congrats again--glad to hear you're so happy!

:bounce:

[Jamastiene]

24. It makes you feel like you have been validated as a human being in a way

that somehow makes up for the less tactful and less compassionate people who have trampled you in the past. There are ways to handle a crush and humiliating a person or cutting off the supply of even platonic love is damaging to a person's sense of self worth. To appreciate the person and show them that they are a valid human being worthy of affection is a sign of class and grace that is seldom seen in this cold cruel world.

And the kind of love you are talking about is rarely seen as well. It's a type of true love. It is rare, because it is more about appreciating that person and respecting them. It's a type of love where you move outside yourself and humble yourself enough to be thankful to them for giving you some of their time, energy, or attention.

In my case, that is most certainly there. Am I attracted to her as well? Yes. Would I see her if I had half a chance? Yes, if she wanted to, although I think she deserves only the best. But that's not the be all end all of why I am so happy about the hug. I just really think this woman has grace and dignity and a state of mind that is miles above the best of them. I'd be totally happy with a friendship with her. Long story, but my car battery died yesterday morning and it is customary to inform your teacher why you wil be absent. I emailed her about the car and asked her a question about learning how to paint a cat. She told me this morning that she had emailed me back. I believe her, but for some reason I haven't received the email. Tonight, I'm debating on what to do to let her know I didn't get it, because she specifically asked me if I got it. What did it say? I don't know. What if it was important? I don't know what to do about it. How should I handle that? I'm not sure what the right thing to do is.

Yeah, I am grateful that she paid a little attention to me. I had thought something was wrong at the end of last week, because we had been comparing notes about our cats and then she just got quiet and didn't speak that much for couple of days. The attention and the hug kind of helped me see that everything was "ok." I needed that for the platonic side of my feelings for her.

[NMMNG]

22. Whoo!

:woohoo:

Don't wear out the batteries tonight now. :rofl:

[Jamastiene]

26. That reminds me of smething I let slip last night while chatting with

another student. He had asked me why I was absent Monday. I told him I had a dead battery and he actually asked, "Car battery?" I forgot I wasn't in the Lounge for a minute and said "No, my vib, nevermind, yeah my car battery, lol." He said that was just wrong. We both did the roflmao off thing. It was kind of hilarious.

I'm noticing something else lately too. On DU, when I say nevermind, I'll type nvm. And on the game, I'll do like I did with my friend and say something I would normally only say in the Lounge. It's bassackwards.

[NMMNG]

27. LOL

Last week my roomie went out to run some errands. Since I had the place to myself for a while I figured I'd take advantage of it so I got out my lesbian erotica book and my vibe and.....


About 10 minutes afterward I heard my cell phone ringing downstairs. I didn't get to it in time but a message was left. It was my roomie saying, "Put down the dildo and answer your phone". I was thinking, "How did she know???". :blush:

[Jamastiene]

29. ROFLMAO

Sounds like your roomie knows you pretty well, lol.

Don'cha hate it when you need to get yer fix and it seems like you don't have enough time to get your fill before something interrupts you?

[NMMNG]

30. The weird thing was

I hadn't done that in a while, and she's never left a message like that for me. It was a strange coincidence. :shrug: I'd finished already, but it was so odd that the time I'd done that she decided to leave that message.

[Jamastiene]

31. Kind of makes you wonder, doesn't it?

People who are roommates, I think, do tend to get a sense of mental telepathy. Who knows? Maybe, it could have been.

[NMMNG]

32. We do have a habit of saying the same thing at the same time

I guess it comes from having been friends for nearly 30 years.

[Jamastiene]

37. My aunt and I do that sometimes.

Not to mention that my cats read my mind. They sometimes know what I am going to do before I do it.

[LaraMN]

25. Damn!

You're a ball of sunshine! I love it!
:bounce: :toast: :party:

[Jamastiene]

28. Awwww, thanks.

I know some people might now quite get how a person can be so happy about a simple hug, but I crave hugs so bad in life and getting them seems like such a rarity. Getting one from someone I met in real life in my hometown, who I consider DU worthy, well, that's a first.

My hometown is normally a shallow filthy red state cesspool of bigotry and hatemongering. This woman is rare in this area. I don't think there is another Richmond County, North Carolina DU'er. There are other North Carolina DU'ers, but none of them live very close to me. Also, I haven't met many people who would even come close to being DU material in my hometown until this lady. She's openminded and intelligent. I imagine it is hard for those who live in an area where there are at least a few other DU'ers close by to imagine what it's like to be at least 100 miles from the nearest DU'er. I'm not sure if that explains it, but it's the closest I can describe to how I feel about the hug.

[fishwax]

33. Jamastiene, I'm so very happy for you

because that very inexplicable excitement is just the best damn thing in the world. I'm afraid I can't help you with your hacking skills, and I can't tell you what the email says, and I have no idea what the future holds with this she who hugged you, but goddamn, at the moment it must be great. :toast: :woohoo::applause::bounce:

[Jamastiene]

34. Aww, thanks.

It was the best moment I have had in years.

I still haven't gotten that email yet. I'm debating whether or not to ask her to resend it.

[MnFats]

35. Ain't Love Grand?

nice to see things working out for somebody...

don't go crazy now.

...on second thought...

ah, hell. go crazy.

[Jamastiene]

36. How about if I go crazy within reason.

She is supposed to call me sometime this week with my grade for the class. I really want to be on the net and I have dialup. So what I am doing is waiting until after 5:00 to go online. That solves 2 problems at once. It has been too hot to go online earlier in the day anyhow and it gives her plenty of time to be able to get through to me. That works.