God, I just want to get my life back together.

[coloradodem2005]

I am tired of having car trouble. I don't want to have a job I hate, but I don't want the alternative to be no job. I want to get into grad school, hopefully doing something I like and praying it won't be the wrong choice in the end. I want to get away from my parents, once and for all. And God, I would just like to meet someone. Hell, I would like to get laid. Even if it does not go beyond that. But I don't think any of the last two things will happen but I am just sick of this. I had this life-shattering event and now I cannot get free. I was going to do something tomorrow night but with my car the way it is, it might not be possible.

[BlondieK143]

1. *sniff* getting laid won't feel the void man.

It might for a minute - 15 tops, but it doesn't solve anything. Cheer up. Stop bitching and get out there! (or here's something to drink to make it a little easier) :toast:

[Melodybe]

2. Apparently more women are getting involved in protests than ever before

I'm very taken but you just might meet a hot hippie chick out there and help the country while you are at it.

I hope that you can fix your car, it sux to be stationary.

[BostonTeaParty04]

3. Hi there....

Hey, you got a ton of great advice the other day, dude. The consensus was: you are most likely clinically depressed. That is NO TIME to be deciding on a grad program! Best to get un-depressed and into LIFE and then follow your passion into grad school.

I think it was on Sunday that we were trying to give you good counsel (internet counsel... but counsel all the same).

Doctor... most likely some light meds.... and watch your world really pick up.....

Seriously dude....

[coloradodem2005]

5. If I put grad school on hold, it will only make things worse.

I know that. I also know getting a shit job at Wal-Mart or something like it would only make things worse. One of the things that has really hurt me has been being pulled out of something. It left me without something worthwhile. This has been a contributing factor to my depression. I need to do this.

I need to commit myself to something that I like. If I put things on hold I will be as bad as I was last fall, which is worse than I am now. I am taking a couple of courses and it has been beneficial for me.

THe thing is I got into another argument with my mom because of my car. God I am sick of her. She wants me to go into accounting and not just take courses in it, but go into it regardless of my inclination. I want MY life back, the way I want and to hell with everyone else.

[RoyGBiv]

4. A Job You Hate

Just some advice, from personal experience:

Don't let the job you hate, if you truly hate it, suck you into a comfort zone where the "no job" alternative seems so overwhelming that you stop trying. Find a different job, even one that's temporary. Go to grad school if it's at all possible. Talk to your advisers about what you want to be doing and what the practical realities are, and then listen to them and make some decisions.

I was where you're at about 10 years ago. I made the wrong choices, and now I'm living with the consequences. It is a lot worse to look back on mistakes that you can't correct than to look forward on potential mistakes you might be able to avoid. Don't do what I did.

And as for the getting laid thing, well, that's basically a diversion with the potential to create trauma in your emotional life that overwhelms everything else. Don't go there.

Wish I could sound more upbeat, but reading your comments was liking reading a page out of my personal diary.

[coloradodem2005]

8. What is the right choice?

What you want to do, or what is practical? I am deciding between Statistics and Accounting. I like Stats and I find it interesting. But in theory, Accounting jobs are on the rise. There is supposedly a boom going on. Though they have seen some outsourcing too. But, look at the tech industry. It was booming like crazy 10 years ago, but now, please. Accounting could go the way of the tech industry. You need accountants, but you need IT people as well. That, and even though there are fewer stats jobs, there are fewer people chasing those jobs and I think they may be on the rise as well.

[Th1onein]

6. What was your life shattering event?

[coloradodem2005]

7. I went to college and was looking at being a math teacher.

I made it all the way to student teaching. My grades were good enough that I could do it. The thing is, the teachers I worked under and the people at my university pulled me out because they said I was not ready and gave me a bunch of jargon that I couldn't understand and that really does not say anything. I told my aunt, who is a teacher, and she thought it was bullshit. Suffice it to say, that dream is dead and will remain so. I just want to take a new direction that I like and that I could get a job I could live with.