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and found myself relating, entirely.
If we really ARE so much richer, and better off than our parents were...WHY could my dad, with no college education, raise a family of four on one income, and provide us with a decent house? And I, at age 34, cannot manage to provide for only myself and my dog....in an apartment?
I am having to move back in with my mother, in Pennsylvania. I'd planned on moving back with her, anyway, when she retired, because I didn't want her to be alone (she's been a widow for six years now, and there is no other family left in Pennsylvania) but that was to be seven years from now.
It woulda made all the difference to my pride if I could have held out that seven years, and managed to make it on my own, but I find I no longer can. Ten months of virtual unemployment, and being denied unemployment insurance...have all but devastated me and left mw with absolutely nothing but the meager possessions I have managed to accumulate in the ten years I have been on my own...and what few I left my parents house with ten years ago.
My renters insurance lists my entire worldly goods (a complete loss) at $13,400. If you add a bit for my car, you could say I have a net worth of about $15,000. That's it. That's what fifteen years in the Corporate America rat race has earned me. $15,000 in net worth, a loss of all self-respect and confidence...I have been sucked dry, and left behind, like the no longer needed husk of a dead insect.
My bank account is near zero, and I have nothing left to lose, anymore. Everything I hoped for, everything I dreamed for...everything I tried to achieve, is laid waste. My dreams are ashes.
The final, and most agonising blow of all of this is that I cannot even pay for the moving truck which will move my fifteen-year-old home entertainment center, and the rest of my worldly belongings (none of which is less than five years old) back to Pennsylvania. My mom is paying for that. And the gas and hotels on the way. It's just absolutely gut-wrenchingly DISGUSTING that this is happening to me.
The only consolation I have is that I know that I'm far from alone...may other, who, like me, are in the bottom quintile of earnings in this country...are facing similar circumstances.
This country sucks.
FUCK YOU, GEORGE W BUSH - FUCK YOU REPUBLICANS...YOU CAUSED THIS!!!
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