Need a little help figuring out "what" I am....

[Mother Of Four]

Ok...so all my life I've been considered "Pro-life" by others because I personally don't believe in abortion for convenience sake but I never push that belief on other people. So by that litmus test I guess actually pro-choice?

This is why I'm asking, my 20 year old son's GF came up pregnant today. She'd been sick the last two days, so just as an off chance we got a pregnancy test.

They have no means to support the child, she has no medical insurance, still wants to go to college and has thyroid issues that would complicate a pregnancy.

When I was carrying my last child, my doctor told me I should abort. I refused and had her anyway, and she's a joy. If I had aborted I wouldn't have this wonderfully creative and passionate daughter in my life. It was a very difficult pregnancy, but we got through it.

She's made the decision to terminate, and has an appointment on Friday to get it done. She's getting financial assistance, so the cost isn't an issue.

I'm supporting her 100% in this, but by doing that am I still being true to myself and my own beliefs? This is a confusing time for me, I would never push her to make a choice that is against her wishes. I explained each procedure and told her I would be with her every step of the way (Her mother lives in a dif state, and would NEVER understand)

I can't help but feel a small pinch in my chest over this though. Part of me feels like I should be fighting for my potential grandchild(Yes, I know that the fetus isn't viable yet that's why I said potential) the other part of me looks at this 18 year old girl who has the entire world to explore in front of her, and knows the only way the child would have any quality of life for the next few years is if my husband and I took the brunt of the expenses. The fact that we're going to a bankruptcy lawyer tomorrow, well you know what I mean.

No, I haven't said anything to her about my own views. All I did was ask her "Are you comfortable with your choice?" She said yes and I said "Ok sweetheart, lets do this then. The sooner you do, the better it will be on you physically."

I feel like a total hypocrite