Reply #48: HAHAHAHAHA.............. ..huh hehehe. ...

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That made me laugh. Lol, I am so happy. As I sat here laughing at that comment, I realized that laughing feels so GOOD.

Isnt that stupid? OF COURSE it feels good to laugh. Why would I just now have that "enlightment like" moment where it just suddenly hit me how good it feels to laugh.

This election has changed everything for me.......the last 6 years I have laughed, lots of times, but not THIS kind of laugh. I realized that my laughter these last two days has actually had JOY behind it. No tension, and constant stress, just pure joy at the pleasure inside of a simple laugh. I had not realized until just now what it means to be oppressed. Thats what this election has removed from me, it has freed me somehow. Dont all of you actually feel physically lighter?

The last 6 years must be in a small way what its like to live in an occupied country. I know having soldiers and guns around everyday is much different, but I mean the feeling that your not free and that the country you belong to isnt really your country anymore. We had basically had our right to free speech taken away as the constant yelling of the other side and the instant attacks if you expressed any sort of idea that wasnt 100% in step with the Republican party line. We DONT have a free press anymore. The corporations that own the various media outlets have had literally billions of dollars at stake in various forms of legislation in front of the Republican Congress, so I DO understand why the free press became the Republican press. It doesnt excuse it, but the Republican congress is 99% to blame for that as well. When the Bush admin budgets something like 2 billions dollars for PR and we find out that supposedly non-partisan reporters have been on the payroll shilling for the party line........how many more reporters have been making a little extra from Repub programs?

I could go on and on, but you all what happened the last 6 years as well as me. Some probably more so because I did shut-up and found it easier to just keep my mouth shut. But some of you (bless your souls) wouldnt quite down for anything, and you were attacked every day of the last 6 years. Thank you for that, and the example you set. The best way to say thanks I guess is this: I have learned from your example, and I will NEVER be afraid to speak the truth in my heart to anyone ever again. I will always have the knowledge that many of you refused to be quite to serve as my shield if speaking truth ever again turns dangerous or scary.

So I was thinking about the media being on the Bush payroll thing, and thought well, I could always write my congressman and ask them to investigate.........and right when I started to give the accustomed sarcastic snort of derision I am used to giving when having thought like those over the last 6 years, my heart skipped a beat. I said outload, rather loudly, Holy crap! I CAN write my congressman and the CAN investigate now. ROFL.......that was weird experience because the sudden 5 second fit of heart rending bawling that hit me when I realized that just as suddenly mixed with the most beautiful pure laughter that just came in waves....it was incredible....still is

So, I think we should "officially" call Nov 7th, 2006 American Freedom Day. Im having my t-shirt made as soon as I post this.

Thanks for the laugh, I love laughing these days.....it is such a wonderful wonderful feeling!