Reply #21: Mike_C is right. . .

[MaraJade]

You MUST see a physician immediately.

I am a chronically depressed person. Over the past 20 years Ive had a number of crisis
points in my life, one of which occurred when I was laid off from a job with no prospects
of getting another. Friends insisted that I see a doctor, and counseling and medication
brought life into perspective.

You need to get some medical attention. Once you've done that, you'll be able to work things
out more clearly.

Another thing to consider is possibly going into business for yourself. That might be an
answer for you. But first, see a doctor.