Reply #5: I've been under crazy stress lately from.....

[Bonhomme Richard]

my business, taking gigs I really don't want etc., etc. It's been about three months for me without a cigarette after cold turkey 36 years.
Well I went out and bought a loose pack of tobacco (I used to roll my own for a short period of time and still have the roller and papers) and rolled myself a smoke. I went outside, tried to take one puff and couldn't do it. I really tried but it hurt like hell as if I was trying to stuff a basketball into my lungs. Couldn't do it. Put out the smoke and that was the end of it. Mentally I feel like I'm really over it and that I would have to train myself to smoke all over again and that would be crazy to do.